Day 90 - 2025

I am writing this blog on the final day of 2025

I just got home from Texas at midnight last night/this morning

I have been in 'go mode' all day

Now we have 20 people showing up at our house for a new years eve party!

What a perfect way to close out the year

And I'm enjoying being present living the phrase 'no hurry, no pause'

It is 'go mode' for here in the present and welcoming in 2026

Let's TRULY make this the best year yet

Let's build the foundations to ensure that the world system can change and become best for all

To honor life in all forms

So we can all experience PRINCIPLED LIVING

And have a world, and relationships that reflect that

More blogs to come :-) 

Day 89 - Honoring Food

Day 89 - Honoring Food

Yesterday hanging out with Cameron and Katie we butchered a cow. I had never been part of this process before.

It was enlightening and challenging

Here are some pictures

The aftermath dinner :)

Chopping it up

Hanging out

Me and Cam afterwards

I wonder if we replace the heart emoji with a real heart if that would ground us into reality more...

Continued:

I have had to kill animals before on our homestead but never that big of an animal. 

It required moments of bravery and doing the thing, because once you're committed to it, there's no 'back door' you go ahead. That was valuable for me, and seeing how we did it within the starting point of honoring the life in the cow, the purpose of why they had the cow, and seeing it all the way through.

I see in our modern world we have become SOFT. 

This life of convenience, where we eat our 'microwave burgers' but don't take part in the processing or the slaughtering of the animal.

Then even if you try and be 'vegan' because you don't wanna kill an animal, you still participate in a system that kills plants which are living, which disrupts ecosystems, kills bugs, all sorts of death happens from our system and our current way of living.

As a man I see this is where I can make a change and do my part.

This is where kindness comes in. 

And a genuine effort to live in the best way, in alignment with life, realizing that as humans we need food, so how do we create this system in the best way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid seeing the full picture of creating food that ends up being consumed by me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can't learn new things, I can't learn HOW to prepare the meat AND do it in a way that's best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the gross nature of animals and humans, where there are aspects of raising animals and preparing them to become food that is not pleasant, so I had avoided it, at a COST and thus limiting myself in my actual effectiveness as a human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to categorize humans into types of humans, like you have the ranchers, the farmers who do all the dirty work, then you have the business people who sell it, meanwhile dividing up our entire system into silos that create a breakdown in our network of trust as humanity, where I don't trust 90% of the food out there, ultimately leading to a breakdown of our world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that for thousands of years humans have lived more closely to the raising and killing of animals, and this can be perfected into a way that minimized suffering and maximizing life flourishing

I realize that learning the ranching/homestead way of life has a level of fundamental support for me to respect life, take life more seriously and ultimately HONORING life

I realize that I appreciate food even more from learning how the process works, and holding the intention to do it in the best way

I commit myself to be an example of what an effective farmer/homesteader/rancher can be like, between myself and the others in the Self-Perfected community who are committed to recreating the systems to be best for all, in a way that honors life in all forms

I commit myself to raise my kinds in a way where they can appreciate food, the interconnectedness of where food comes from, and to have an accurate view of the world

I commit myself to show what's possible with our world, where animals, plants, human beings can all have the best for all relationship, and we can discover the actual best way to create food, live alongside nature and understand this from a young age through the mass re-education of the children of the world to have living principles

Everyone - UNDERSTAND the system we live in

Bring awareness to each step and we can purify this system to one that honors life in all forms.

Its each of us taking the responsibility to do our part and work together

Day 88 - Life Expansion

Day 88 - Life Expansion

Today I was going to write about being grateful. I had the blog post up yesterday and began to write, but I got side tracked by responsibilities of being a dad. 

I will still touch on gratefulness - 

I will weave that in combined with a life update of how I am expanding.

Currently I am in Texas writing this from Cameron and Katie's living room.

I woke up before everyone else so I finally had time to write my blog. 

The past 2 days involved packing and driving 14 hours.

We're back here for a few days to get the full download on our next level, including stepping into raising large animals (we are getting one of their cows in the spring) and potentially pigs, also for the next level of everything we are doing with Self-Perfected, TechnoTutor and being the source of change for the world.

So much turmoil in the world. I know its Christmas morning right now, and there are kids waking up today with no food, or waking up in a situation where they have no family, or waking up being trafficked.

Its easy to say 'no today is a great day let's celebrate Jesus was born!' but for me - to honor who Jesus was and how he lived, is to focus EVERY day on bringing about a world of equality that is best for everyone.

It's not to judge people as 'bad' who are sitting around in their nice home, with their christmas tree and their traditions to enjoy the Christmas holiday. I have fond memories as a kid having that. But as I grew up I have seen the brutality of our world, and what Jesus was actually talking about. And I see Christmas has become a Psy Op (Psychological Operation) on the masses. It takes the pure message of Jesus - truly love your neighbor as yourself, and converts it into consumerism, extreme 'highs' and 'lows' I mean they even call it the North Pole, its polarizing in its very nature, and Santa is an anagram for Satan. 

It's become used as a manipulation tool for kids to 'be nice' not 'naughty', abandoning principle at every step of the way.

I used to LOVE christmas. It was so fun being away from school, getting toys, then having a whole week from christmas to new years so I could hang out with my friends, play with my new toys, then also do something fun for new years. That was the highlight of my entire year...

But as I began in this process - writing/righting myself to Life I saw how that made my entire year subtly negative, in a polarity, that I look forward to Christmas as the 'crescendo' of everything. 

YET the whole time I didn't even try and LIVE what Jesus was talking about. To me - I call that hypocrisy.

If I were Jesus I would be so pissed at the Christmas-Industrial Complex

So today for me to wake up in Texas, having no snow. No Christmas lights, no 'presents' but actually surrounded by the core people in my life who see the message of Jesus as something we are ACTUALLY here to live. To fundamentally create the change of the system, to build our relationships and our world in responsibility, awareness, oneness, equality as what is best for all this is a cool way to ring in the 'holiday' time of the year.

So to bring this full circle to the top

I like the word Grateful - Great Full

I see how in my life, walking this process, there is a polarity I become aware of - that every word in my life I have used from the starting point of polarity.

For example - Grateful = good, not grateful = bad, but hidden within this is the 'be grateful because if not you could lose it all, thus FEAR' and 'not grateful = bad' = GUILT you 'should' be grateful for what you have because there are starving kids in Africa (that whole program)

I see why those programs exist, but this process as Righting through Writing means to actually redefine the word so I can live it as who I am as a source of Expansion of Life.

I see how I have abused gratefulness over the years, basically as a way to justify fear, and want to 'appease' the system like Oliver Twist in that scene where he gets the soup and says 'please sir may I have more'

So for me, the moment I realized what grateful actually is - was 6 years ago nearly to the day, I visited Cameron and Katie for the first time in Houston where they used to live. I remember for 5 days I got the download on how to raise the most effective kids in the world. How to have an effective marriage, what it means to walk this process. What is Desteni really about, and how DIP Lite is life changing. How to really use TechnoTutor to rebuild my foundations and become a master of business. At this time my e commerce company was making about $12k a day in revenues as well. And I was STILL talking about the REAL stuff, not letting that impede on my LIFE EXPANSION. Because Me as LIFE knows its not ONLY about success in the system its about purifying the system.

So at the end of that time with Cameron and Katie 6 years ago, I remember saying 'thank you I am so grateful for this time in your home and learning from you guys. *and then it hit me like a tidal wave of realization* I said And I don't mean I'll just 'say' thank you and pay it lip service. I am going to SHOW YOU I am thankful and grateful by actually LIVING this change and getting more people here to this process. This was the inception of realizing grateful = GREAT FULL. I had to cultivate the greatness within me, my beingness that is this ever-expansive source of self as life substance, here, and calibrate my mind to what is best for all. And live this in my actions every day.

And I recall that was a moment I made a decision to live great-fullness, which was Life Expansion. Me taking this little spark of life and cultivating it to expand more and more and more.

So this is full circle here 6 years later, because last time I didn't have Jessica here. Last time I didn't have 2 kids. I didn't have a homestead. I was still a fledgling entrepreneur. I had just realized how TechnoTutor changed my life because it helped me get really good at making money in e commerce but also with sharing it with people I had already brought 4 people on board by that time and I had only done the business for 2 months.

I saw a glimpse of what's possible. But now here it's full circle, but its not a circle, its a spiral. 

I am in a way new spot, as who I am, as what I realize, as my responsibilities, as my influence.

It reminds me of a phenomenal article by Bernard and I'll quote it here. If you want the full thing here it is, its worth reading again even if you've already read it. It makes more sense as time goes on. 

the same stuff will repeat till you had enough of your preprogrammed self acceptances–then you will start dropping and letting go until only you remain–this is your point of power in your world–then you will find yourself giving direction and sorting out your world quickly–so–if your world is not sorting out and remain the same–you haven't got your current location within your world yet

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why is this important– because each that find their location–find their power and honesty and we are all equal and one to what we become or allow

so–if you are equal and one to you where you are now–no matter who or what placed you there–you are empowered to change the situation—and you will as you will not accept anything less in your world—if you accept some form of enslavement or emotional turmoil or manipulation or fear—you are not at your location within the “grid” of the placement of creation and thus the honesty and forgiveness not effective enough—easy guideline

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Now—when you establish your location—you will without feeling—in an inner silence –direct your world and all that you defined yourself by—will disappear—and new events will step forth—each event will have two points—sometimes very tempting points—to either expand your self-expression in awareness or take you back in the same entrapment—sex, position, money, success, feelin­gs,etc is used for this

So—what to do—as you have then found your equality and oneness point—in yourself—you start moving yourself and see what you have allowed in your world as your equality—blame is useless—fixing it is all that works—so –you fix it—in every breath—till your immediate world is what you are equal and one with—and so you expand—like a Fibonacci spiral—expanding into greater influence—no-one get more influence power than based on equality and oneness as it is for all as one—the influence the world understand is dislocated and thus beings stop existing as their defined selves at death

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What is fascinating is that within this process of locating and expanding self—you will always be equal and one with what you either become or allow

So—we are each only responsible for ourselves and according to application we will be part of the establishment of oneness as equality in creation—so—we will determine and face the truth of ourselves—alone as an inner journey we reflect outwardly in our world

So to close out today's blog - Life expansion comes from Great Fullness. If you don't know where to start then YES be grateful for where you are, truly. Because its what got you HERE. Yet do not accept it as all you can be. Forgive the fears. See your reality sort out quickly - as the cross reference point is obvious.

Join us in changing the world. Give this as a christmas gift to yourself. We will either fight for this old system that abuses the message of Jesus - turns it into corporate consumerism slop - or we can redefine it as who we are - as a DAILY living of the messaage of equality, oneness, giving as we would like to receive, changing the world system to reflect this in every way as what is best for all. 

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Day 87 - Strength

Day 87 - Strength

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want an easier way instead of seeing how the challenges in life actually strengthen me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into blame in a tricky situation, instead of maximizing my responsibility, taking a deep breath and being grateful for the challenge at hand

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the 'strengthening' to an extreme opposite polarity, where I create unnecessary struggle in my life because I believe I must suffer to grow, so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that focus on priority is #1 as starting point, and from here, welcome the challenge. It is stupid to welcome challenge for no reason, we only have one life here, am I going to waste it just doing difficult shit with no clear purpose?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate strength with the physique and outward appearance of a man or woman, how much they can 'lift' with their body. Real strength is a more like tree, interconnected with all life, always giving, always maximizing itself in its fullest purpose.

Ultimately its not any 'image' its a human being fully self-realized, but to get there requires a strengthening of my understanding of how life works in fact, and LIVING it here through my moment to moment actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as someone who is only capable of so much, as if there is a limit on my ultimate growth, not realizing seeing and understanding that in each moment there is a maximum potential and as I find this, it opens up my next level through the Law of Accumulation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a 'challenge' something detrimental to me, because I go into thinking about it, which actually drains my physical energy thus making the challenge something that harms me, all by my own self-doing, as I know better because I have self forgiveness and the ability to correct myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be present through my day, where I have the day 'ahead' of me, and the thoughts that will pop up in how I think/feel about the day ahead, then AS I progress through the day and then by the END of the day, as I actually walk through it all, I realize that I always end up being grateful for facing the points, going full on through my day

I realize that to actually be proud of myself, to have a sense of real self respect and self love, this comes from me doing the difficult shit that advances my purpose and process

I realize that as I stay grounded in my breath, and do new things, there is the feedback mechanism so any failure that is grasped in awareness becomes a valuable source of insight and ultimately strength within me

I realize that our culture is not yet valuing real strength, as a standing up, facing one's fears, being part of the solution for the change of humanity. Right now 'strength' is going to the gym and looking strong, yet on the inside being weak in our real MATURITY of actually caring for our fellow humans, through looking at the real root of the problem which is education and holding on to our ineffective programming. 

Real strength is changing ourselves and supporting the change in others to stand up within all of this. I don't give a fuck how big your muscles are, how big is your CARE muscle... that is real strength

I commit myself to be an example of real strength, showing what it looks like to stand up and walk, to push the edge of what is possible, and to make it then easy to create the solution on planet earth

Day 86 - 30 Days of Content Experiment

Day 86 - 30 Days of Content

^^^A sample from my Instagram page, which will be catalyzed here massively each day moving forward^^^

I am putting myself through the test and publicly writing this

From December 20th (Today) through January 20th I am going to be consistently putting my content on my Instagram + across social media

I have had times in the past before I had kids where I had a media machine, and I realize (especially with yesterday's blog on the media-industrial complex) that this is the point for me to create

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of making content, where I have the points I see are valuable, and thus just film and do it

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to use 'talking about content' to give me a dopamine rush of a sense of accomplishment, instead of doing it

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even though I have been consistent with content for the past 5 years, there is a whole new level of output and production which I am 100% capable of doing, but it requires a plan so the content is valuable, and a consistent application, which I am now ready for

I realize that content is a way to get in front of people who need to hear this message

I realize that I have created a life - as who I am with using these tools - that many people want to emulate, I say this humbly yet as a showcase of what is POSSIBLE when one takes on this process, reprograms themselves to be effective with money, relationships and operations. 

- I have created excellent money programming, business acumen and the ability to utilize what's here to create value

- I have an awesome wife and kids, where my business doesn't cause that to be sacrificed

- I've helped create community for thousands of people built in principle

- I've learned how to navigate running a homestead, events, workshops and a place where kids can come and learn and thrive

- I've consistently helped others to achieve similar goals of theirs, to change their programming to sustain the positive change

All of this is here and I need to share this more. For each of you reading this - what is your story, what are your highlights you have, what will you create in months and years to come, and will you SHARE IT? 

Or will we let AI slop and hollywood slop win out, where it drowns out our story? 

I commit myself to make such effective content that awakens people, that brings them into 1-1 conversations about real change, how to improve their lives all around, and to then support each person I can systematically to improve their lives for real

I commit myself to plan ahead and be proactive in my content creation, trusting that I will be more efficient over time

I commit myself to long term embracing the outcomes of this 30 day experiment

My hypothesis is that the 30 days will lead to over 100+ new conversations with people I haven't properly met yet.

I will report back as time goes on, as I am consistent with this blog until the job is done - which is change the system, or until I get too busy because I am in a government position where I don't have time to blog, at which point I'll still be actively making content but potentially in a different form. I will constantly get my living words out to social media and the internet, to spread life and support all to awaken and take responsibility to live the change as the new world is emerging here.

My 30 days of content is me using the system to change the system. And I invite you to figure out what YOUR point is that you can push, for the next 30 days as a catalyst to you living it for ultimately the next 30+ years.

Join in here and if you agree you'd like to see this grow, make sure you watch the videos, like and leave a comment. It helps you show the algorithm that this is valuable and worthwhile.

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Day 85 - Avatar

Day 85 - Avatar 

Read the self forgiveness out loud

I just got home from the new Avatar: Fire and Ash movie. 

Earlier on when I started this process I resisted watching movies because I saw it as a unnecessary programming.

However, over time I have learned to see that watching movies, with a clear starting point as to who I am, why I am watching it, can actually help me walk through points if I am self honest about it.

Within this movie specifically there were quite a few realizations I had, and seeing what is getting programmed into the collective consciousness at this point in time

1 - Seeing the impulsing of how 'bad' humanity can be in terms of destroying a planet

2 - The heightened energetic state when one needs to prepare to defend something important to them - for example in the movie they have to defend their village

3 - The desire for this 'Great Spirit' to be their 'only hope' to save the day

I am not going to write my blog on these in particular, as there were many more points.

But what I see is more important is this point here:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed us as life as humanity to create a system that is so out of control, layered with consequences of abuse, that we create billion-dollar grossing movies, to illustrate a point of how bad things are, yet within this there is no solution inherently, its just more programming literally impulsing fear -- and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not equalize myself to the hollywood media empire that is able to distribute media on a mass-scale, influencing millions of people through coordination of messaging

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can investigate everything and keep what is best, and within this there is a responsibility to TRULY investigate everything for example how much money DOES it take to make movies, what are the outcomes of these movies, what does it take to create a media operation that can do mass-scale projects to influence the collective consciousness

I forgive myself that I have been accepting and allowing myself to play small and entertain myself with movies and 'feel good' ways of living, while the world actually burns to 'fire and ash' like this movie is showing, and to try and stick my head in the sand and say 'nah its just in the movies that this stuff happens' or 'these movies are just the way they are, where I inherently accept and allow myself in a limited point of responsibility and influence. Fuck that way of thinking. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am just an 'avatar' here on earth, temporarily here as a passive entity, able to just get by half-assing it through life, failing to realize I am life itself as my individual expression here as me and as this realization I can live the change I intend to see in our world, using everything possible to bring about this change

I realize the media empire can change, but its through 1+1 sharing of this process, each one individually doing the self forgiveness, reprogramming ourselves with the tools of change and sharing this through 1+1 and the compound effect of people taking responsibility to reach even more people

I realize that using media to tell a story is an effective way to get people's attention

I realize that part of changing the world involves utilizing what is here as media, as movies, as film and as pushing the cutting edge of the cultural conversation

I commit myself to use my life, my body, and what is here, to ensure that planet earth thrives and we can use these movies of a dystopian future as a warning as to what not to do, and I can step up and show an even better way of living that is 100% possible here

I commit myself to continually get more creative in my expression through media, through these blogs, through my social media, through my youtube videos 

I commit myself to automatically assume more responsibility and prove this to myself, so there is not even a single moment of blame toward the media-industrial complex that is spitting out movies, with a 'vision of the future' left and right

I commit myself to - as I watch movies and assemble the movies I see I would like to watch - to clarify my starting point as who I am as I watch the movie, and see myself in each character, as a living of the principle of 'Investigate All and Keep What's Best' so that I may learn from what is here and use what is here

I commit myself to co-create the media empire that is based in the starting point of what is best for all life, as living words can stretch across space and time and find the people throughout the world using the internet AND in person as a way to get this message to more people

If James Cameron can gross billions of dollars with these films, with his insane work ethic and ability to coordinate, I know I can play my role in the principled movement of equality and oneness as life here, so we can change the system to one of passive entertainment to active responsibility

Day 84 - Self-Forgiveness

Day 84 - Self-Forgiveness

Today I'm gonna write self forgiveness on self forgiveness for a few reasons, I've been getting many of you reaching out for help. I also consistently find myself pushing my 'edge' of what's possible, and within this, there is more AWARENESS coming from me, so I am becoming aware of more points to forgive.

Let's dive in. As always read this out loud

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to forgive myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that forgiving is only possible to forgive others, but not myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only God has the power of forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others are worthy of forgiveness, but not me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being forgiving is being for giving, that life is for giving - for giving of myself to others in the way that I would want to be given to - for example with asking great questions, being present, showing a sense of respect, of care, of sharing what is important, for pointing out 'blindspots' and teaching lessons, all of these are things I can give IF I am for giving, but I cannot TRULY give if I am not forgiving of myself.... Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be honest about that fact that there is corrupted programming and beliefs inside me that I have to forgive and thus if I'm not actually forgiving myself consistently and creating a momentum within my self-forgiveness every day, then I am sharing from this corrupted 'starting point' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself to believe that I must have fully forgiven myself of every single point ever, in order to then be able to give real value to others, the 'amount' of forgiveness I have done is less important, relative to the daily moment by moment intention of self honest self forgiveness as who I am, because as I live these words - Self Honest Self Forgiveness - and these are living words within me, this supports me to be here with another person and walk together as equals real time, because reality changes one point at a time through being fully here together 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in any moment, whether I can't fall asleep, or whether I'm just walking my dog, or whatever I find myself doing provided I am alone, that in those moments I can sound self forgiveness

I realize that within myself one of the most profound moments of my life was when I found self forgiveness years back there was a night I couldn't fall asleep, I decided to just start trying self forgiveness like a muscle. I forgave random things that popped up. After about 20 minutes I lost track of time and I felt like I had peeled a multi-dimensional onion within my conscious mind and thus accessed my beingness that started to shine through my subconscious and conscious mind, it was life changing for me, and I suggest you do the same. Go on a self forgiveness rampage until you clearly see what the value is in self-forgiveness, then do it again and again. I have heard stories of this guy Bernard who was one of the people who explained this point specifically, how to do it, that he would do Self-Forgiveness for hours and hours at a time, day after day after day, for YEARS. And the ability one unlocks with that is something that each of us can find out for ourselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the excuse of 'I don't know what to forgive' is just a mind-glitch, where our mind pretends that our realness is hidden, in reality just start - for example: I Forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize what I need to forgive, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make time to forgive myself, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to prioritize distractions instead of what actually moves me forward as a being, that can understand that forgiveness is removing the layers of distraction and limitation and opening up me as life who has always been here I just had forgotten... So on and so forth...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that with my partner doing self forgiveness, taking turns back and forth, even forgiving ourselves as 'pretending' to be our partner, can all be ways to practice and move points forward

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how powerful it is to model self forgiveness to my kids, and to teach them as well even if its a simple statement we say together or they repeat like 'I forgive myself for allowing myself to be frustrated' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that initially this process starts with forgiving the conscious mind, and over time the subconscious personalities and emotions begin to surface, and as those are worked through the unconscious behaviors and trapped points within the body begin to emerge, and ultimately we can forgive as equality and oneness as life, and using the blogs such as Heavens Journey to Life and Creations Journey to Life as reference points to read daily and support, like one uses 'training wheels' to learn how to ride a bike, this is like a self guided rocket ship to self forgiveness, except instead of us taking a 'ride' out 'there' somewhere... its actually a direct route to HERE, just gotta remove/forgive the layers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that its 'too long' or 'too big' of a task to read self forgiveness day after day, when in reality this endurance I build up becomes one of the most valued words I can live, where the endurance and consistency becomes the proof of who I am for myself and for all

I realize see and understand that forgiveness must be given to myself, and the act is so simple, it starts with being for giving to make the actual statement come out of my mouth

I realize that self forgiveness done within self honesty allows for self awareness and the insight of what to do, then as the realization statement and the commitment statements I can thus open the opportunity to live in a new way that is aligned with what is actually best for all life instead of my pre-programmed self interest

I commit myself to continually do a self forgiveness rampage whenever needed, where I speak and speak and speak the forgiveness until the point is clear

I commit myself to support others in their journey, to build this muscle of self forgiveness so we can change collectively, as individuals

I commit myself to make self-forgiveness popular, and main stream, so that over time every last human can understand this and live this, however short or long that takes

Day 83 - Impulse

Day 83 - Impulse

Read the self-forgiveness out loud

We get impulsed every day with so much bullshit currently

For example we see over 4000 ads a day... that is insane

That impulse works its way into our nervous system, through words, emotions, sound, eventually hijacking our LIFE into an abomination.

From here we get side tracked, and some people don't ever see it.

Think of even something as simple as the sounds programmed into our reality.

Go outside... 

Do you hear the low hum of traffic? 

I live in the middle of the country and I STILL hear traffic, airplanes, sounds all over.

Think of every time during the day you hear a 'beep' or a 'ding' it automatically puts you in a passive/reactive state.

Let's take responsibility to change this impulse and develop our self-will to a WHOLE new level we have never seen before.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how much we get programmed with impulses all day long

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed our world to go to shit because we have automated a system that programs us to further the 'starting point' of the system that has programmed us, a runaway train in desperate need of course correction

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as a programmable being, in a programmable universe, I can change the programming and my environment to be life giving

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as I speak self forgiveness aloud, I am able to convert the trapped energy within my body/nervous system INTO sound and thus release it from my body, provided my starting point is equality and oneness as my body and expressed through self-honest self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that me sharing self forgiveness through writing, blogs, 1-1 expressing to others, this is me planting the seed of life, and much like a seed, one seed (with the right soil and conditions) can generate millions of seeds, which can spread like wildfire through the world 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take the word 'impulse' seriously, where its a force that either causes me to submit, or is a reminder of the work still to be done, I DEFINE IT

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my voice is an impulse for myself and for others, that I can also influence the world and realize my creative power to thus change the system, by getting 1 more person every day to get on board with the purpose - perfect ourselves through education, changing the culture, changing politics and ultimately changing the system (including money and our collective social contract) to reflect life in all ways

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist another deep dive on impulse, through specifically studying

The Century of the Self

and

Pulse Impulse 

I commit myself to watch these documentaries/videos again and study them from the starting point of becoming extremely effective at impulsing my reality with the SIGNAL of life to cut through the noise

I commit myself to purify what I resonate through changing my understanding of the world, dropping the bullshit, and living in each breath what is best for all by sharing, showing I care

I commit myself to use self forgiveness within self honesty to pinpoint where my body still holds corrupted programming, and to sound the self forgiveness to make myself sound/whole/complete as the best version of myself, realizing that I am holographically equal to all in reality, thus as I perfect myself I create the perfection of the world equal and one, and to be patience as reality catches up and we walk through the consequence of the space time massive impulsing machine of the system, to change the system through taking responsibility and standing in my ultimate location point of where I can be to have maximum influence to help every last person on earth have the best life possible

I commit myself to impulse myself daily through engineering my environment to remind me of what's my priority, through perfecting my relationships by establishing them based on living agreements, and to HONOR my agreements

I commit myself to breathe when faced with any impulse, whether an ad, a video, a word, a tone, a sound, any of it, to stay within breath and move myself to direct the situation to the best of my ability

I commit myself to apply the principle of prevention, to prevent the draining impulses in my environment and the world, and to impulse what is life giving 

Day 82 - Self-Will

Day 82 - Self Will

Recently I wrote on the Spark of Life this is a very important blog to understand who we really are, each one of us

Over time in this process, walking the self forgiveness, removing all our bullshit programming, and re-creating ourselves from scratch to always and in all ways to LIVE for real, to live what is best for all. That is real living... and AS going through this process there is something extremely peculiar that happens...

Because we have accepted/allowed ourselves to be run by energy for so long, we start to forgive this energy. For example for me it was stress. I used to RUN off stress. The stress of not having enough money. The stress of fearing failure and having my status 'drop' in the eyes of the system. The stress of deadlines. This had become me. I had accepted and allowed my spark of life to be converted into a burning-out of myself into this stress character.

Then over time I learned to let it go. To actually live in awareness, not needing to go into the stress patterns.

And what was so peculiar about this, was then I became depressed LOL (I can say LOL now because its funny, but going through it felt like hell)

I was no longer running off the fuel/energy of stress. I fell into a pit of depression where I didn't want to do anything.

What actually happened though was my being within me was now getting born. I had weak ass muscles.

Like when Neo wakes up in the matrix, he is feeble, he even pukes. Then over time though.... he finds himself for real.

This journey is self-will. I will write more self-forgiveness on it tomorrow. But this is a vital point to understand as I had to walk this for myself but it helped to have the context as I went through it. I had cross-reference support from people in our community and specifically in the Self-Perfected group because self-perfection requires walking through the change in totality. Going through the eye of the needle

So each one will need to define SELF WILL for themselves, and to establish 'wins' along the way, as a source of strength and a reminder that you can indeed 'get your feet under you' and walk for real.

We are so conditioned to get our 'power' from our success in the system, or from certain emotional characters we identify with.

But real power comes from self-responsibility, developed through self-will breath by breath.

More to come

Day 81 - Two Choices in Every Moment

Day 81 - Two Choices in Every Moment

Read the Self-Forgiveness out loud

There are two choices in every moment - self honesty or self dishonesty

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hide from self honesty

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't know what self honesty is 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to blame my upbringing for not teaching me what self-honesty was

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not discern between honesty in the system and self-honesty where for example - being 'honest' in the system is getting a good job, going and working for a company like Raytheon to build bombs that are used in war, but I was a 'good boy' and was honest in the system because "I need a job and I'm a good patriot for America" for example. Meanwhile the self-honesty of realizing that one is participating in a system of war that will have consequence... This point is essential to understand

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-dishonesty always creates a consequence, where self-honesty removes consequence

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-honesty is found through self-forgiveness writing and the self-realization that comes from effective self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have 'free choice' to choose whatever I want, but I am not free of the consequence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall in moments of automated mind consciousness playouts where a thought comes up, I accept it, and later on I realize I accepted/allowed an entire runaway train of consciousness thus self-dishonesty and consequence

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the word grateful in the realization that I am grateful to be aware of self-honesty and the self-responsibility of living this to the fullest extent I can, as the more we live in self-honesty, each as individuals, working together, the faster we sort out our world

I realize that self honesty is developed 

I realize that self honesty is the awareness of the good, the bad and the ugly within, where I alone am responsible for what I accept and allow, and that I can change that which I no longer accept and allow

I realize that in each moment, each breath I can either live in self honesty or self dishonesty

I realize that the more self honesty I accumulate the better my life is, even if initially it is uncomfortable, it allows the way through to emerge

I realize that the only way 'out' of this predicament we find ourselves in as humanity - the only way out is through, as self-honesty is the guide

I commit myself to brutal self honesty through every moment of breath, and if I fall or notice the slip into self-dishonesty,  I commit myself to drop the judgments, drop any blame, and get back to self-honest best for all actions, moment by moment so I can live and stand in a point of purity so no matter where I am in my life, in the world, that no weakness in me can be exploited, because over the next 7-14 years every last point of weakness within me can and will be removed, thus I stand here as all as equal as one pushing the cutting edge of this process. The only way I can stand and continue to grow and expand my influence is through self-honesty within, and facing every last point in my life

Day 80 - The New World

Day 80 - The New World

I saw this reel (linked below) and its the perfect way to introduce this: 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DSJRfC2jNIR/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igsh=NTc4MTIwNjQ2YQ==

The old world that our parents had is no more.

The 'bones' of it are still left, but there's a parasitical money system living on top of it, without = money system and within = our egos that do everything for profit/money/energy

But this is a case of the parasite eating the host

What we need is a new vision of what's possible, and how each of us as humans can relate to the world

If you've been reading my blog from day 1 this is what I write about, done through the lens of self-honest self-forgiveness and self-responsibility

We are either going to choose the new world to be one where we take full responsibility and thrive

Or we are going to allow a new world with more and more consequence playouts

By new world I don't mean going to mars. I mean a new WAY of living here in our world. And it starts with new words, that create the new world.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the context of when I was born, the consequential outflows of the world and how that would affect my life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that its possible to 'ignore' the state of the world and just focus on myself and my own survival, while that may be a temporary possibility, the fact remains that world events like terrorist attacks and financial crises have an effect on each person, through limiting the opportunities available and affecting how the social contract operates

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed fear of news events, seeing the news as the authority of what's happening in the world

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to the fear of news events by flipping to the opposite polarity - ignore the news - as though this somehow will help. 

I realize that having a well rounded view of the world, filtering the world and current events through the principle oneness and equality as what is best for all as common sense - this is the only way to make sense of the world and thus my place within the world

I realize that my generation of Millennials and Gen Z were born into the collapse of the old system, and there is a ripe opportunity to unite the masses, starting with grass roots, to bring about a new way through

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the vocabulary to understand the context of how the world works, as it had become a energy-generating machine where we use and abuse everything that is alive, and convert it into temporary energy. We extract minerals and fuel from the earth. We take new babies and put them in the daycare to school indoctrination system. We take real talent and bastardize it through hollywood and the media, all for a temporary energy experience. Yet this can stop with ME and how I act

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the New World we can create involves a parasite cleanse, starting with my own parasitical ways of thinking where 'I just want to win' at the expense of others. Not realizing that the giving and sharing of life, honoring others in the way I would like to be honored - this is the new social contract that acts as the immune system of earth, where we can create the coordinated effort to show its more advantageous, its actually best for all, to work together and create as one

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hear the phrase 'change the system' and go into a reaction of 'fuck the system' for all the atrocities that have been done in the name of the system, yet we ARE the system, so its not a 'fuck this' its a forgiveness that is needed

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that its about taking responsibility for the system within me, writing every single day, taking responsibility every day, not swinging into polarities rather finding the best for all equilibrium and balance 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the way the new world comes about is new words - through education - through the placement of words and how I live. For example will I live the word CARE, will I live the word AUTHORITY will I live the word TEAM? All of these words can be redefined, so that unconsciously I am resonating the updated 'new world' definitions instead of the old.

I commit myself to show I care - through taking the time every day to consistently show up and treat others as I would like to be treated, to nudge others to walk forward and discover their utmost potential

I commit myself to live the word authority - as freedom from doubt, the belief in myself and my abilities. Not looking outside of myself an answer, rather understanding the world and applying the principles to discern what is actually best here, and trusting myself to make it happen - make it realized

I commit myself to live the definition that TEAM = Together Each Attain More, and to really put this to the test. I have seen when we work as a group, there is so much more possible, more leverage, more power, and as we create the new world this is necessary we work together for real and consider each other.

Day 79 - One Point at a Time (How Reality Works)

Day 79 - One Point at a Time (How Reality Works)

Note - read the self forgiveness out loud

We can get worked up in our minds with many points to face

Especially if you were bold enough to make the 'life list' yesterday

Here is the point:

Reality is physical, it works with 1+1 moment by moment, one point at a time

If we try and do multiple things at once, this introduces stress, friction etc.

So its a skill to be here, be present, its very simple

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a child I naturally did things from a state of presence, one thing at a time, I didn't have a mind that could dart around from point to point operating at quantum speed, I was present and HERE, and at some point I changed and my innocence of expression was converted into a corrupt mind, that I am now here walking through

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find motivation and energy from feeling 'busy' in my mind with all of the 'things I gotta do'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the power in putting 'pen to paper' (physically or digitally) and to sit down and get all the things out of my mind, 1 point at a time - this is powerful because its me as life directing myself, placing into WORDS what is within me, and thus I can process the information into an effective step by step plan to not have to overthink it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe its too stressful to write down a list and thus I react to the process of processing the information in my head into living words, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the fact that if I don't actively work on processing the information into living words - that I hold myself back and in a state of consequence and time looping, yet WHEN I do this effectively I am freed up able to move through life with ease

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the moments from childhood and teenage years where I was imprinted by the system with the chaos program of 'here is what a 'good system slave' does' and in those moments I missed them, and then accepted and allowed the stress of the system to scramble me from a innocent expressive human being into a system slave, worried about my grades, 'fitting in' and all sorts of mental bullshit just to try and survive in the system

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself within writing down the points to forgive, and the points to take action on, and within this, to trust my ability to just 'do it now' and start, and within my starting point being here to act in a way that is best for all life, that I can trust my ability to get the things done, to 'stack the wins' in terms of accomplishing the things that I can see in my self honesty is best to do

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that bringing forth points of realization every day is an essential aspect of me living my purpose, and this is where genuine pride comes from where I am able to be proud of my self and moving self and the world forward, because in my self-honesty I have my location point and as I do this to the best of my ability, it opens up new potential for all 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'thinking' about the points I have to do that the thinking is productive, when in reality the processing of the points, looking at it and taking it ONE POINT AT A TIME this is the actual resolution of the overwhelm in my mind

I forgive myself that I had not seen the obvious - that just like my breath is one breath at a time, seeing the next point to do, and focusing on the point, this is the way I deal with reality and work with reality

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to see and STOP my addiction to trying to do too many things at once, where I had tricked myself into believing that I am 'productive' when I focus on many tasks, getting high on the energy of the conflict 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the obvious that as self-forgiveness is one letter at a time, one word at a time, this is the accumulation of moving reality forward when done in self honest self expression and as this - I am working with reality, integrating my expansion into greater responsibility and abilities 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that reality works one point at a time, there is a pace to reality, its not 'hyper quick' like the mind yet when done steadily it creates lasting change because the structure is integrated - much like when I develop a new skill, it takes time to integrate, yet once its here it then is part of me as who I am

I commit myself to develop the skills one point at a time, to stand as the integration of these skills, and as this stacks up I become a director within my reality and reality overall, so that the evidence is verifiable that I have indeed integrated this skill

I commit myself to show that if I feel resistance - self honesty is needed

I commit myself to enjoy the process of taking things one point at a time

I commit myself to whenever I'm overwhelmed, to remind myself to breathe, to acknowledge my capacity has been overloaded, and as I return to breath I can forgive and act in a way that keeps moving my life forward

I commit myself to show that one year of being present, bringing forth points of realization every day, sharing this process, taking responsibility point by point, that this is the guide for me to have the most effective year yet, exponentially more 'powerful' than any year I had previously because I have accumulated who I am into a force of nature that can be a node in the network of life and thus spread the principle of what is best for all through each action I do

I commit myself to walk the cutting edge of time point by point, one thing at a time

I commit myself to use my notebooks, my computer, my ways of recording words/data/information and as this - USING WHAT IS HERE to have a system by which I capture the necessary words, I then make time to process them and take action

I commit myself to use what is here as a living being here with my body and everything around me to be the best I can be, to share more effectively, to constantly make it the best day yet, and to measure my impact by the amount of other people I can support in taking on their full responsibility and living their fullest potential, as this is best for all and my living of this is integrated one point at a time

Enjoy

Day 78 - Life List

Day 78 - Life List

Today I made a youtube video you should watch it here: https://youtu.be/ZDcbCThDbo8?si=4hmv2bSQ6V3uHGfN

It was building on Day 10 - Face the Point

I call it the Life List

Its so simple

Its the real things to do that free you up to walk the cutting edge of time

And go FULL ON

Over years of walking this process I have noticed the tendency where my mind will 'bury' something

So this list is designed to help you face the point

And free yourself from your past limitation

And confront the system within you and thus free yourself up

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of making a list of all of the points I hide from, I avoid, I don't wanna look at, or don't know how to look at... and within this - the list becomes a life list because its in front of me, the clear path to live

I commit myself to live the SELF WILL to take the actions to resolve what is on this list

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to make this list more than it needs to be 'in my mind' 

I realize see and understand that as I knock out the things I have avoided, in conjunction with me walking my process, sharing, taking full responsibility, that my life list is there as a reminder that I can be life, walk the cutting edge of time, change rapidly and open up space for new opportunity to enter my life, because I am letting go of the old, and have the opportunity to be here and have life come through me as me 

I commit myself to use self-forgiveness as I look at my life list, and to have real time application to walk through and show myself my strength that I can do the things I have been 'putting off'. What a great way to strengthen myself

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my skill of refining my focus, as my intention as who I am can come through as signal, piercing through the noise, and as I am this signal taking the living actions that are best for all, resolving old uncompleted loops/cycles - that as this completion that I am creating, I thus anchor myself into and as reality as one who is here to create thus establishing self trust and thus amplifying my signal

I commit myself to enjoy the release of the old, to laugh about it, and as this give myself grace and realize the wisdom of "do it now" having the constant forward expansion as self here, one and equal as all

This is how we expand life and allow creation to change - to be best for all

Watch that video at the top

Then make your list and

enjoy

Day 77 - Environment

Day 77 - Environment

Some times my environment gets cluttered, my office, our kitchen, etc.

Especially having 2 little kids, full time running my business, forgetting to eat meals going full on

Having a stay at home wife who makes nearly everything at home

It all can accumulate and there is 'consequence' in the environment. Not in a 'bad' way or a 'good' way, but I see that my environment has had an influence on me, my clarity. Some times when things are dirty I notice myself go into a state of blame and subtle backchat.

I see how it can affect my clarity. And this is not the best relationship with my environment. Thus self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to base my clarity on my environment 

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my inner clarity comes from my walking of my process, my writing, my rebuilding of my vocabulary, my clarity within on who I am and what I need to do daily, regardless of my environment on the outside

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the environment can play a factor and there is a common sense equilibrium to hit where I can take small 1+1 accumulative steps to clean up my room, my home, and to practice the principle of prevention to not make extra problems

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in blame toward my wife when I notice there is a mess in the house, instead of realizing that I can contribute and be a +1, no backchat or blame needed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my wife for granted that she does the dishes 90% of the time, and to not realize the moments I can step in and help with it where it's practical and I can help

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my memories from childhood of my environment are still influencing me to this day, and within this I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to pin point and place into words the exact memories of clutter, reaction to environment and to thus be able to purify these memories and create an automatic life-giving environment here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let clutter accumulate in my home in certain areas and only to move myself when it gets so bad that it's an impediment in me moving/doing thing with a reasonable pace, and within this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that perfection CAN look like having dishes in the sink, it doesn't mean everything is 'flawless' as I realize there is a space time reality to navigate and there are priorities more important than the environment YET its simple enough that as I walk this self forgiveness here real time I can see obviously there are moments in my day where I can walk past something, pick it up, move it forward, and stay in a state of constant progression thus having this ripple out into all of reality as Self-Responsibility in action

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hyper fixate on organization and perfection, then also let clutter accumulate, playing the polarity game instead of realizing the best for all balance as the path of self-responsibility  to respect my environment both external and internal, and to stay in motion as when I am moving physically there is no room for my mind to run rampant, its a physical movement that is able to be evidence of how much I can do in a day

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see the obvious that certain areas like dishes, the kitchen, my bedroom, the laundry room, all of these are my wife's responsibility yet as I can see, and practice the principle of 'give as I would like to receive' I can make genuine progress here, free her up as well to be a better mom and support in our community, and thus I can be for giving and thus perpetuate the flywheel of effective life-giving that we are creating, and that looks like small actions daily when in my self-honesty I realize it can be done

I realize that my environment is a reflection of me, and as I change the outside it can support the change inside

I realize that my inner state will reflect in my environment - thus I have 2 ways I can always make progress to clear up myself, clearing the inner world and also cleaning up the outer world, in the little moments that normally I would neglect, I can use them to stack up the 'positive' accumulation of having a life-giving environment

I realize that a hyper fixation on organization is not needed

I realize that a neglect of objects and thus accumulation of clutter is also not needed

I commit myself to take daily actions where practical to help the environment move forward, to create space for the new and to honor my environment as I honor my inner and external reality

I commit myself to remind myself of my purpose - to change the system - is intertwined with having my own home in order, and the home being in order doesn't mean its 'flawless' rather the coordination of our family, all working together, all maintaining progress in our process and becoming the best we can be, this is the real meaning of keeping our house in order, and perfecting our environment

Now to go help Jess catch up on the dishes in between phone calls where I am out sharing/giving to people to help them actually start this process and change their lives and be agents of change in the world.

Day 76 - Skeleton Structure (Part 2)

Day 76 - Skeleton Structure Part 2

This is putting the 'meat' on the bones of the skeleton so to speak. Its creating life anew. Through words. Hey isn't there something about 'in the beginning was the word', and this is how all form came to be? (More about that in a future blog)

Picking up on where I left off - this is the skeleton structure (below) then underneath it I'm gonna copy/paste it again and write out 1 self-honest forgiveness statement and 1 self-honest commitment statement (as all the self-forgiveness should be). 

I am at daycare

I am in the family room watching the TV

I think 'where is my brother'?

I look in the other room

I feel anxious

I think 'I want to see my brother'

I feel scared

I think 'oh no I am alone'

I think 'I don't know where he is'

My stomach feels like a knot in it

I think 'what if he doesn't come back'

My temples feel flush 

I hold my breath

I think 'I want mom to be here'

I think 'what if mom never gets me'

My eyes start to water

I feel fear

I think 'please make this feeling stop'

I stay on the couch

I feel frozen

NOW here is the Self-Forgiveness

I am at daycare

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not understand that wherever I am, I can cultivate the sense of who I am, and thus being in any environment whether at home or daycare I can be ME FULLY

    I commit myself to be myself fully regardless of the environment I am in, and within this commit myself to live my life so effectively that we can evolve daycare into being a best for all solution where kids don't need to be dropped on in environments that aren't supportive to them

I am in the family room watching the TV

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that watching TV had brain washed me into being a trance-induced zombie in my life

    I commit myself to take responsibility for the programming that was implanted into me through my TV watching - which I didn't know any better then at the time but I do know better now so I will use all my programming and convert it to what's best for all

I think 'where is my brother'?

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to look for my brother from a starting point of separation/concern/fear instead of just looking

    I commit myself to use looking instead of thinking, where looking is a practical real physical application of myself instead of a thought which induces a thought-frenzy runaway train within

I look in the other room

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the looking here now came from a fear-based thought, and thus in each moment now as an adult I can breathe, be here and catch the thoughts that are fear based, and instead just use looking and my day to day living to create the best relationships whether with my brother or with anyone

    I commit myself to catch my thoughts so when I take action from the starting point of a thought, to immediately recognize it, breathe, stabilize and continue to be here one and equal and direct myself in the best way I see in each moment

I feel anxious

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in feeling anxious and not direct the anxiety in a way that was best -- (note to the reader, as a kid I didn't know any better, so I do not forgive myself for something unreasonable, rather this writing is to stand in the present moment, forgive the energetic reactions and now live in a new way that prevents future consequence)

I commit myself to breathe through anxiety, and to see where its coming from, and act in a way that is best for all regardless of the feeling of anxiety

I think 'I want to see my brother'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a kid my 'wanting' to see my brother was innocent, it was me looking for safety and security to ground myself, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look outside myself for a sense of safety and security rather than my own breath and my own self-trust

    I commit myself to show that I have the real safety and security which is self trust in each moment, and the living awareness to stand in the essential positions in our world where I can direct outcomes so that way others don't need to walk this same point of looking to outside sources, where I can be a resource for others so they can see this within themselves that they can be their own authority, they can regulate themselves, we can all do this as equals through effective self education and effective living

I feel scared

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to feeling scared, and within this reaction to judge the sense of fear where I label it as the word 'scared'

    I commit myself to walk through any feelings of 'scared' and 'fear' that are left unprocessed from childhood so that I can stand up in this world fearless and able to direct any situation I find myself in, and thus I commit myself to have gratitude for this process to process my past, to see it in a new 'light' and to act in a way where future children do not have to experience unnecessary fear, and they have the tools and process by which to have a life of clarity and common sense

I think 'oh no I am alone'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in that moment I was alone, I did still have myself and my abilities to move, and even though as a child I wasn't able to break out of this thought-pattern, now here as an adult I can learn from this and direct myself so even as being 'alone' within myself I am alone yet all-is-one so as I can change me, this supports the change for all which is the real purpose I am here to live

    I commit myself to realize that I am alone, yet all is one, so thus we are together alone able to live this in the best way instead of reacting to it

I think 'I don't know where he is'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to think 'I don't know where he is' from a starting point of fear

    I commit myself to be ok with not knowing everything, yet as self-trust I can always direct myself and figure out any situation to create the best for all solutions to any problem

My stomach feels like a knot in it

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my stomach 'in a knot' sensation is my nervous system experiencing stress

    I commit myself to support myself to breathe during any moment of stress and to live in such a way where I can help convert the stressors of our planet into a life-giving system where distressing situations are prevented as much as possible, and we can learn through enjoyment and alternative ways instead of stress/trauma/limitations

I think 'what if he doesn't come back'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the pattern of catastrophizing and making things a worst case scenario

    I commit myself to see each situation for what it is and within that as I observe the situation within myself realizing that I can define each relationship and point in my life in a way where it is a +1 accumulation of life - no matter what it is I can convert any point into a +1 for life if I approach it in awareness, with patience and tenacity

My temples feel flush 

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my physical body will give me signs that are interconnected physically, mentally and that I can use my body as a cross-reference to understand myself better

    I commit myself to use my body as a cross-reference, and to learn from each situation to become even more stable and effective in my walking of my process

I hold my breath

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold my breath 

    I commit myself to use my breath as the constant source of life in-flow and out-flow thus never being stagnant, always able to move and direct and create

I think 'I want mom to be here'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for wanting my mom to be there, as a child she was the primary source of comfort for me and thus in this situation I didn't have her there, and couldn't articulate myself so here and now I can let this go and act anew

    I commit myself to re-parent myself and to be the best parent I can be to see how I can raise my kids to be 100% effective confident co-creators of reality, and to act in a way where I can help change the entire world so all kids can be at 100% effective capacity

I think 'what if mom never gets me'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold onto this fear of 'what if my mom never gets me' where in that moment I can see how that thought would be there but here and now I see how I can direct myself in any situation

    I commit myself to be present, to stop the 'runaway thought train' that turns everything into a catastrophe and to calibrate my mind, my body, my living and my relationships to create a role model family of what is possible so that more and more families can create supportive environmetns 24/7 for their kids, and to redefine adversity from something that legitimately harms/holds back a child, whether intentionally or unintentionally, to living adversity in the best way which is adding words to a child, where a child can prove their effectiveness, overcome limitations and develop strength without having to walk through consequences

My eyes start to water

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that tears are a physical release for the body and this was my body attempting to support me to release the fear build up

    I commit myself to understand my body and how I can physically release stored up programming/experiences/trapped energy so that my body can be a pure vessel/temple for life to come through unadulterated/unfiltered

I feel fear

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to feel fear and react to it, instead of allowing it to pass through me and use it as a learning experience

    I commit myself to welcome the fears where I can thus process them, and to clearly understand for myself and for my kids and for all - that danger and fear are two different things - danger is something that actually has consequence, and needs to be avoided, which makes sense. Fear is a glitch that comes from separation from life and is a denial of self-trust and self-understanding, where fear creates neuroticism - and thus I commit myself to help the world understand this and over time to walk fear out of existence

I think 'please make this feeling stop'

    I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that self-forgiveness, breath and physical application is the ultimate way to 100% remove the feelings that hold us back

    I commit myself to educate the world on how the mind/feelings/emotions and limitations work, so that we can unlock our best expression as individuals and as humanity

I stay on the couch

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to associate the couch with comfort yet a fake comfort, a freezing and an abdication of movement

    I commit myself to in any moment where I feel stuck or like I am resonantly wanting to stay stuck/stay put, to breathe and assess what makes sense and to move - no thinking/overthinking needed just practical living and movement thus creating WAY more in my life and being able to prevent future consequence

I feel frozen

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my nervous system went into 'freeze' mode, and as this freeze I had accepted and allowed the fear of the unknown, until here no further

    I commit myself to prove to myself I have no more fear of the unknown as I can trust myself and I trust that in each moment I can act in a way that is best for all, to assess consequence and determine the effectiveness of my actions, to create a better and better life for me, my family, my kids, our community and ultimately the world so that way we don't need to time loop on fear, we can just get to sharing and enjoying our 'share' of life here

Final step - now its on YOU the reader to do this

Pick a memory, use the previous day as an example of how to do it

And just write

It doesn't have to be 'perfect' rather its a 'muscle' you can build

really its your self-will/spark of life as a being coming through

And as you 'forgive' programs effectively, its a conversion of the energetic program which was stripping away your body/life force/being, and converting that energy BACK into substance, thus you have more power, more ability to create and thus together we have the will power and capacity to change our world.

So what are you waiting for? Just do it