Day 76 - Skeleton Structure (Part 2)

Day 76 - Skeleton Structure Part 2

This is putting the 'meat' on the bones of the skeleton so to speak. Its creating life anew. Through words. Hey isn't there something about 'in the beginning was the word', and this is how all form came to be? (More about that in a future blog)

Picking up on where I left off - this is the skeleton structure (below) then underneath it I'm gonna copy/paste it again and write out 1 self-honest forgiveness statement and 1 self-honest commitment statement (as all the self-forgiveness should be). 

I am at daycare

I am in the family room watching the TV

I think 'where is my brother'?

I look in the other room

I feel anxious

I think 'I want to see my brother'

I feel scared

I think 'oh no I am alone'

I think 'I don't know where he is'

My stomach feels like a knot in it

I think 'what if he doesn't come back'

My temples feel flush 

I hold my breath

I think 'I want mom to be here'

I think 'what if mom never gets me'

My eyes start to water

I feel fear

I think 'please make this feeling stop'

I stay on the couch

I feel frozen

NOW here is the Self-Forgiveness

I am at daycare

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not understand that wherever I am, I can cultivate the sense of who I am, and thus being in any environment whether at home or daycare I can be ME FULLY

    I commit myself to be myself fully regardless of the environment I am in, and within this commit myself to live my life so effectively that we can evolve daycare into being a best for all solution where kids don't need to be dropped on in environments that aren't supportive to them

I am in the family room watching the TV

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that watching TV had brain washed me into being a trance-induced zombie in my life

    I commit myself to take responsibility for the programming that was implanted into me through my TV watching - which I didn't know any better then at the time but I do know better now so I will use all my programming and convert it to what's best for all

I think 'where is my brother'?

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to look for my brother from a starting point of separation/concern/fear instead of just looking

    I commit myself to use looking instead of thinking, where looking is a practical real physical application of myself instead of a thought which induces a thought-frenzy runaway train within

I look in the other room

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the looking here now came from a fear-based thought, and thus in each moment now as an adult I can breathe, be here and catch the thoughts that are fear based, and instead just use looking and my day to day living to create the best relationships whether with my brother or with anyone

    I commit myself to catch my thoughts so when I take action from the starting point of a thought, to immediately recognize it, breathe, stabilize and continue to be here one and equal and direct myself in the best way I see in each moment

I feel anxious

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in feeling anxious and not direct the anxiety in a way that was best -- (note to the reader, as a kid I didn't know any better, so I do not forgive myself for something unreasonable, rather this writing is to stand in the present moment, forgive the energetic reactions and now live in a new way that prevents future consequence)

I commit myself to breathe through anxiety, and to see where its coming from, and act in a way that is best for all regardless of the feeling of anxiety

I think 'I want to see my brother'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a kid my 'wanting' to see my brother was innocent, it was me looking for safety and security to ground myself, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look outside myself for a sense of safety and security rather than my own breath and my own self-trust

    I commit myself to show that I have the real safety and security which is self trust in each moment, and the living awareness to stand in the essential positions in our world where I can direct outcomes so that way others don't need to walk this same point of looking to outside sources, where I can be a resource for others so they can see this within themselves that they can be their own authority, they can regulate themselves, we can all do this as equals through effective self education and effective living

I feel scared

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to feeling scared, and within this reaction to judge the sense of fear where I label it as the word 'scared'

    I commit myself to walk through any feelings of 'scared' and 'fear' that are left unprocessed from childhood so that I can stand up in this world fearless and able to direct any situation I find myself in, and thus I commit myself to have gratitude for this process to process my past, to see it in a new 'light' and to act in a way where future children do not have to experience unnecessary fear, and they have the tools and process by which to have a life of clarity and common sense

I think 'oh no I am alone'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in that moment I was alone, I did still have myself and my abilities to move, and even though as a child I wasn't able to break out of this thought-pattern, now here as an adult I can learn from this and direct myself so even as being 'alone' within myself I am alone yet all-is-one so as I can change me, this supports the change for all which is the real purpose I am here to live

    I commit myself to realize that I am alone, yet all is one, so thus we are together alone able to live this in the best way instead of reacting to it

I think 'I don't know where he is'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to think 'I don't know where he is' from a starting point of fear

    I commit myself to be ok with not knowing everything, yet as self-trust I can always direct myself and figure out any situation to create the best for all solutions to any problem

My stomach feels like a knot in it

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my stomach 'in a knot' sensation is my nervous system experiencing stress

    I commit myself to support myself to breathe during any moment of stress and to live in such a way where I can help convert the stressors of our planet into a life-giving system where distressing situations are prevented as much as possible, and we can learn through enjoyment and alternative ways instead of stress/trauma/limitations

I think 'what if he doesn't come back'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the pattern of catastrophizing and making things a worst case scenario

    I commit myself to see each situation for what it is and within that as I observe the situation within myself realizing that I can define each relationship and point in my life in a way where it is a +1 accumulation of life - no matter what it is I can convert any point into a +1 for life if I approach it in awareness, with patience and tenacity

My temples feel flush 

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my physical body will give me signs that are interconnected physically, mentally and that I can use my body as a cross-reference to understand myself better

    I commit myself to use my body as a cross-reference, and to learn from each situation to become even more stable and effective in my walking of my process

I hold my breath

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold my breath 

    I commit myself to use my breath as the constant source of life in-flow and out-flow thus never being stagnant, always able to move and direct and create

I think 'I want mom to be here'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for wanting my mom to be there, as a child she was the primary source of comfort for me and thus in this situation I didn't have her there, and couldn't articulate myself so here and now I can let this go and act anew

    I commit myself to re-parent myself and to be the best parent I can be to see how I can raise my kids to be 100% effective confident co-creators of reality, and to act in a way where I can help change the entire world so all kids can be at 100% effective capacity

I think 'what if mom never gets me'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold onto this fear of 'what if my mom never gets me' where in that moment I can see how that thought would be there but here and now I see how I can direct myself in any situation

    I commit myself to be present, to stop the 'runaway thought train' that turns everything into a catastrophe and to calibrate my mind, my body, my living and my relationships to create a role model family of what is possible so that more and more families can create supportive environmetns 24/7 for their kids, and to redefine adversity from something that legitimately harms/holds back a child, whether intentionally or unintentionally, to living adversity in the best way which is adding words to a child, where a child can prove their effectiveness, overcome limitations and develop strength without having to walk through consequences

My eyes start to water

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that tears are a physical release for the body and this was my body attempting to support me to release the fear build up

    I commit myself to understand my body and how I can physically release stored up programming/experiences/trapped energy so that my body can be a pure vessel/temple for life to come through unadulterated/unfiltered

I feel fear

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to feel fear and react to it, instead of allowing it to pass through me and use it as a learning experience

    I commit myself to welcome the fears where I can thus process them, and to clearly understand for myself and for my kids and for all - that danger and fear are two different things - danger is something that actually has consequence, and needs to be avoided, which makes sense. Fear is a glitch that comes from separation from life and is a denial of self-trust and self-understanding, where fear creates neuroticism - and thus I commit myself to help the world understand this and over time to walk fear out of existence

I think 'please make this feeling stop'

    I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that self-forgiveness, breath and physical application is the ultimate way to 100% remove the feelings that hold us back

    I commit myself to educate the world on how the mind/feelings/emotions and limitations work, so that we can unlock our best expression as individuals and as humanity

I stay on the couch

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to associate the couch with comfort yet a fake comfort, a freezing and an abdication of movement

    I commit myself to in any moment where I feel stuck or like I am resonantly wanting to stay stuck/stay put, to breathe and assess what makes sense and to move - no thinking/overthinking needed just practical living and movement thus creating WAY more in my life and being able to prevent future consequence

I feel frozen

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my nervous system went into 'freeze' mode, and as this freeze I had accepted and allowed the fear of the unknown, until here no further

    I commit myself to prove to myself I have no more fear of the unknown as I can trust myself and I trust that in each moment I can act in a way that is best for all, to assess consequence and determine the effectiveness of my actions, to create a better and better life for me, my family, my kids, our community and ultimately the world so that way we don't need to time loop on fear, we can just get to sharing and enjoying our 'share' of life here

Final step - now its on YOU the reader to do this

Pick a memory, use the previous day as an example of how to do it

And just write

It doesn't have to be 'perfect' rather its a 'muscle' you can build

really its your self-will/spark of life as a being coming through

And as you 'forgive' programs effectively, its a conversion of the energetic program which was stripping away your body/life force/being, and converting that energy BACK into substance, thus you have more power, more ability to create and thus together we have the will power and capacity to change our world.

So what are you waiting for? Just do it