Day 73 - Starting Point

Read the self - forgiveness out loud

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my starting point is in each moment either here as breath, being alive and thus expanding, or my starting point is limitation which will create consequence

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that any starting point based in emotion such as fear, doubt, inequality, will ultimately become the 'end point' and thus trap myself in cycles

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not be honest about the fact that being born into this world, with my body, being and mind, my starting point WAS set up to just be 'survive at all costs' / 'self interest' and thus self forgiveness and self correction is needed to transform myself from a desire to survive only, to transforming myself into the will of life

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize there is a difference between awareness and consciousness, CONsciousness is the con - the automated pattern, a counterfit version of awareness where I am running my pre programmed design given to me by the world system which had been based in survival, consumerism, abuse, and the awareness is the spark of life within me, the awareness that is seeing through my eyes, is aware I am here, this awareness is worthy of expansion and thus my starting point as breath, being here, is important as in each moment I am either growing in awareness or growing in consciousness/pre-programming/accepting limitations

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in each moment within my self honesty there is a highest potential - a best for all potential I can stand as, whether I 'feel like it' or 'not' my feelings are not the guide, as obviously if I just choose how I feel I will stick in my same starting point of limitation, whereas I can actually re-build myself through self-will, checking my starting point in each moment, to ensure my intention of what is best for all is coming through, and this results in equality, in certainty, in sharing, in responsibility and ultimately being alive

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to admit to myself that my starting point is the fundamental point of creation, in each moment me as life can be here as either infinite expansion as life, and directing self in accordance with this fact, or I can choose limitation.. but the limitation 'choice' is not real choice, because its choosing enslavement to my past programming instead of a liberation and a REAL choice to do what is best, to build this into the foundation of reality as reality is programmable. This is self-perfection as my starting point and the ongoing manifestation is where this is proven over time

I realize that my starting point will create the end point, so when I act from self-honesty, self-awareness and self-responsibility, thus more of this will accumulate

I realize that breathing is a way to fundamentally stay in touch with my self honesty, as my body as all of life, not in the limited narrow window of my ego/mind, as even though my starting point is to stay here as life and calibrate my mind to be the best, it does take time a minimum of 7-14 years and thus I walk this daily

I commit myself to honor my starting point of doing what is best for all through the nitty gritty details, being here and checking myself in self honesty and utilizing my relationships based on agreements for external cross-reference

Let's make the world best for all, as starting point and end point, from there/here we will really see what it means to live.