Day 7 Neglect and Responsibility

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

The more responsibility I take on, the better. But much of my childhood programming goes against this

As a kid I liked to be able to neglect things, not worry about it, put it off til later

I would rather have played video games, hung out with friends and not concerned myself with 'practical' things like doing dishes, preparing food, seeking to understand the world.

However now since I've been walking this process the past 6 years, there are several key moments where I DID seize the moment, a moment that opened up where I could act different, take more responsibility and thus create more in my life.

A big example was us getting our homestead. I have never owned land. I have never cared for 10 acres. I have not had multiple buildings. I have not had gardens. Much less having kids. ALL of this came into my life in the past 3-4 years.

So in little moments, I will see that for example - a shovel is lying out of place where it shouldn't be. 

Or we have a broken post on the fence.

Or we have to shovel the driveway, or change the water for the chickens.

All of these are areas for potential neglect.

Because after all, I also have a business, a wife, kids, all of these other responsibilities.

But if I neglect to look at ANY part of my life, it all ends up in my face. 

It has become painfully clear where I had participated in neglect, instead of breathing, taking responsibility and creating a solution REAL TIME any time I see something that requires my responsibility.

So whether you homestead or are married or have kids or none of those, the same underlying PATTERN is there..

We see a point pop up (internally OR externally) and in the moment we avoid it. Our awareness sees it but we don't bring it to a solution.

Yet.... Responsibility avoided accumulates consequence... And I will not stand for that anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect what’s important in life 

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allow myself to realize that taking responsibility is actually easier than neglecting things 

Its like if someone is addicted to alcohol, in the moment it feels good, but long term its killing you. Its the same thing with neglecting responsibility vs LIVING responsibility.

I forget myself that I’ve accepted and allow myself to hold myself back by making lists of the things I need to do, when practically I could just have done the thing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the distinction between when it IS something I actually need to write down, and its best to add to my list so I can get the right steps done to resolve the situation fundamentally, vs just trying to get stuff done and then not have enough time to balance my responsibilities 

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my ability to respond and direct my life is a result of my vocabulary and my intention, lived out day by day either accumulating in strength or atrophying

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allow myself to realize that within taking responsibility I can indeed make list of the things I need to do, but to check my starting point within the moment of writing it down, seeing if I am actually delaying when its not needed and thus neglecting, or if it is truly practical and something I cannot resolve right now fully and thus the list is a form of me taking responsibility 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allow myself to dread looking at my to do list that I need to take care of 

I forget myself that I’ve accepted and allow myself to dread looking at my calendar with the activities I've taken responsibility to make happen.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allow myself to not realize that for much of my life I have lived the word neglect, and this has accumulated consequence in my external world and my internal world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the principle of best for all - where I have not honored human life fully, and what supports human life to thrive, mixing up my priorities and not taking full responsibility for what’s here and making the best out of what is here 

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize see and understand that it is easier to take responsibility fully in each moment, breath by breath because when I do this, I live the word creation, and I can get way more done, without delay, and this allows me to effectively live my life and make the most of my time here 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think about what needs to get done from a starting point of avoidance

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allow myself to create the pattern of waiting until the last minute and needing a deadline to get something done instead of realizing the lifeline is here as self responsibility 

I realize that self responsibility is the ultimate freedom 

I realize the more I do, the more I realize I can do

I realize that I feel better when I’m getting things done and even in the moment if it is uncomfortable or something I prefer to not do, that is irrelevant - what actually matters is me living the principle of self responsibility and overall the realization that life gets easier and better the more I live responsibility instead of any alternative 

I realize initially in this process, its way harder to take responsibility, yet over time it becomes more automated, and this creates a level of enjoyment and self respect that is impossible to achieve any other way

I realize that as I live self responsibility, I show up differently and thus I actually have a positive effect on people’s lives around me starting with my immediate family, yet this ripples out into my community and the entire world 

I realize responsibility equals freedom 

I realize neglecting things in my life is me neglecting myself and my fullest potential 

I commit myself to live self responsibility and to take responsibility to share this with others 

I commit myself to support everyone around me to live their fullest potential

I commit myself to - in the moment I see something needs to get done - to in that moment either just do it or live my commitment to clarifying the action or learning what is required to achieve the outcome needed 

I commit myself to trust the law of accumulation in the best way - what I participate in accumulates and this can be my greatest asset or greatest hindrance 

I commit myself to make responsibility cool and a value we collectively hold as society