Day 82 - Self-Will

Day 82 - Self Will

Recently I wrote on the Spark of Life this is a very important blog to understand who we really are, each one of us

Over time in this process, walking the self forgiveness, removing all our bullshit programming, and re-creating ourselves from scratch to always and in all ways to LIVE for real, to live what is best for all. That is real living... and AS going through this process there is something extremely peculiar that happens...

Because we have accepted/allowed ourselves to be run by energy for so long, we start to forgive this energy. For example for me it was stress. I used to RUN off stress. The stress of not having enough money. The stress of fearing failure and having my status 'drop' in the eyes of the system. The stress of deadlines. This had become me. I had accepted and allowed my spark of life to be converted into a burning-out of myself into this stress character.

Then over time I learned to let it go. To actually live in awareness, not needing to go into the stress patterns.

And what was so peculiar about this, was then I became depressed LOL (I can say LOL now because its funny, but going through it felt like hell)

I was no longer running off the fuel/energy of stress. I fell into a pit of depression where I didn't want to do anything.

What actually happened though was my being within me was now getting born. I had weak ass muscles.

Like when Neo wakes up in the matrix, he is feeble, he even pukes. Then over time though.... he finds himself for real.

This journey is self-will. I will write more self-forgiveness on it tomorrow. But this is a vital point to understand as I had to walk this for myself but it helped to have the context as I went through it. I had cross-reference support from people in our community and specifically in the Self-Perfected group because self-perfection requires walking through the change in totality. Going through the eye of the needle

So each one will need to define SELF WILL for themselves, and to establish 'wins' along the way, as a source of strength and a reminder that you can indeed 'get your feet under you' and walk for real.

We are so conditioned to get our 'power' from our success in the system, or from certain emotional characters we identify with.

But real power comes from self-responsibility, developed through self-will breath by breath.

More to come