Day 84 - Self-Forgiveness

Day 84 - Self-Forgiveness

Today I'm gonna write self forgiveness on self forgiveness for a few reasons, I've been getting many of you reaching out for help. I also consistently find myself pushing my 'edge' of what's possible, and within this, there is more AWARENESS coming from me, so I am becoming aware of more points to forgive.

Let's dive in. As always read this out loud

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to forgive myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that forgiving is only possible to forgive others, but not myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only God has the power of forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others are worthy of forgiveness, but not me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being forgiving is being for giving, that life is for giving - for giving of myself to others in the way that I would want to be given to - for example with asking great questions, being present, showing a sense of respect, of care, of sharing what is important, for pointing out 'blindspots' and teaching lessons, all of these are things I can give IF I am for giving, but I cannot TRULY give if I am not forgiving of myself.... Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be honest about that fact that there is corrupted programming and beliefs inside me that I have to forgive and thus if I'm not actually forgiving myself consistently and creating a momentum within my self-forgiveness every day, then I am sharing from this corrupted 'starting point' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself to believe that I must have fully forgiven myself of every single point ever, in order to then be able to give real value to others, the 'amount' of forgiveness I have done is less important, relative to the daily moment by moment intention of self honest self forgiveness as who I am, because as I live these words - Self Honest Self Forgiveness - and these are living words within me, this supports me to be here with another person and walk together as equals real time, because reality changes one point at a time through being fully here together 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in any moment, whether I can't fall asleep, or whether I'm just walking my dog, or whatever I find myself doing provided I am alone, that in those moments I can sound self forgiveness

I realize that within myself one of the most profound moments of my life was when I found self forgiveness years back there was a night I couldn't fall asleep, I decided to just start trying self forgiveness like a muscle. I forgave random things that popped up. After about 20 minutes I lost track of time and I felt like I had peeled a multi-dimensional onion within my conscious mind and thus accessed my beingness that started to shine through my subconscious and conscious mind, it was life changing for me, and I suggest you do the same. Go on a self forgiveness rampage until you clearly see what the value is in self-forgiveness, then do it again and again. I have heard stories of this guy Bernard who was one of the people who explained this point specifically, how to do it, that he would do Self-Forgiveness for hours and hours at a time, day after day after day, for YEARS. And the ability one unlocks with that is something that each of us can find out for ourselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the excuse of 'I don't know what to forgive' is just a mind-glitch, where our mind pretends that our realness is hidden, in reality just start - for example: I Forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize what I need to forgive, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make time to forgive myself, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to prioritize distractions instead of what actually moves me forward as a being, that can understand that forgiveness is removing the layers of distraction and limitation and opening up me as life who has always been here I just had forgotten... So on and so forth...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that with my partner doing self forgiveness, taking turns back and forth, even forgiving ourselves as 'pretending' to be our partner, can all be ways to practice and move points forward

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how powerful it is to model self forgiveness to my kids, and to teach them as well even if its a simple statement we say together or they repeat like 'I forgive myself for allowing myself to be frustrated' 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that initially this process starts with forgiving the conscious mind, and over time the subconscious personalities and emotions begin to surface, and as those are worked through the unconscious behaviors and trapped points within the body begin to emerge, and ultimately we can forgive as equality and oneness as life, and using the blogs such as Heavens Journey to Life and Creations Journey to Life as reference points to read daily and support, like one uses 'training wheels' to learn how to ride a bike, this is like a self guided rocket ship to self forgiveness, except instead of us taking a 'ride' out 'there' somewhere... its actually a direct route to HERE, just gotta remove/forgive the layers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that its 'too long' or 'too big' of a task to read self forgiveness day after day, when in reality this endurance I build up becomes one of the most valued words I can live, where the endurance and consistency becomes the proof of who I am for myself and for all

I realize see and understand that forgiveness must be given to myself, and the act is so simple, it starts with being for giving to make the actual statement come out of my mouth

I realize that self forgiveness done within self honesty allows for self awareness and the insight of what to do, then as the realization statement and the commitment statements I can thus open the opportunity to live in a new way that is aligned with what is actually best for all life instead of my pre-programmed self interest

I commit myself to continually do a self forgiveness rampage whenever needed, where I speak and speak and speak the forgiveness until the point is clear

I commit myself to support others in their journey, to build this muscle of self forgiveness so we can change collectively, as individuals

I commit myself to make self-forgiveness popular, and main stream, so that over time every last human can understand this and live this, however short or long that takes