Day 81 - Two Choices in Every Moment

Day 81 - Two Choices in Every Moment

Read the Self-Forgiveness out loud

There are two choices in every moment - self honesty or self dishonesty

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hide from self honesty

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't know what self honesty is 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to blame my upbringing for not teaching me what self-honesty was

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not discern between honesty in the system and self-honesty where for example - being 'honest' in the system is getting a good job, going and working for a company like Raytheon to build bombs that are used in war, but I was a 'good boy' and was honest in the system because "I need a job and I'm a good patriot for America" for example. Meanwhile the self-honesty of realizing that one is participating in a system of war that will have consequence... This point is essential to understand

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-dishonesty always creates a consequence, where self-honesty removes consequence

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-honesty is found through self-forgiveness writing and the self-realization that comes from effective self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have 'free choice' to choose whatever I want, but I am not free of the consequence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall in moments of automated mind consciousness playouts where a thought comes up, I accept it, and later on I realize I accepted/allowed an entire runaway train of consciousness thus self-dishonesty and consequence

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the word grateful in the realization that I am grateful to be aware of self-honesty and the self-responsibility of living this to the fullest extent I can, as the more we live in self-honesty, each as individuals, working together, the faster we sort out our world

I realize that self honesty is developed 

I realize that self honesty is the awareness of the good, the bad and the ugly within, where I alone am responsible for what I accept and allow, and that I can change that which I no longer accept and allow

I realize that in each moment, each breath I can either live in self honesty or self dishonesty

I realize that the more self honesty I accumulate the better my life is, even if initially it is uncomfortable, it allows the way through to emerge

I realize that the only way 'out' of this predicament we find ourselves in as humanity - the only way out is through, as self-honesty is the guide

I commit myself to brutal self honesty through every moment of breath, and if I fall or notice the slip into self-dishonesty,  I commit myself to drop the judgments, drop any blame, and get back to self-honest best for all actions, moment by moment so I can live and stand in a point of purity so no matter where I am in my life, in the world, that no weakness in me can be exploited, because over the next 7-14 years every last point of weakness within me can and will be removed, thus I stand here as all as equal as one pushing the cutting edge of this process. The only way I can stand and continue to grow and expand my influence is through self-honesty within, and facing every last point in my life