Day 94 - Standing to Falling Ratio
I just got off the Self-Perfected Podcast Episode 278 and this point is abundantly clear
For those of you walking this process - you have moments where you have STOOD UP and directed your life
And you have had moments where you have fallen
You will have to determine that within your self-honesty. Use the group for cross-reference because especially early on you can fuck with yourself and 'think' you are standing but not really. Because it has no physical effect
So this is the point:
Figure out lets say if there are 7 days a week, in how many of those days have you STOOD
Have you stood up for the principles
Have you directed others
Is it 1 day a week?
Is it 7 days in a row, like a 'hot streak'?
Here's some self forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into my conscious mind thoughts and to not get clear understanding of what is actually happening in my life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid looking at the data, the results and the proof - and to clearly define what the 'results' are that I am looking to create in my life specifically with my impact I am here to make in the world with influencing others to walk their process and be part of changing the system
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to OVER-focus on data, thinking that I need metrics for every single thing in my life in order to make any substantial progress
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the best for all balance, between all the polarities within myself of hyper focusing on 'numbers' or hyper avoiding 'numbers' and thus the proof of how I am standing - and within all of this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize there is a basic filter I can commit to have installed within me as living words - as the statement that "In each breath, and thus in each moment, I am committed to stand, and I will either be standing up and a source of responsibility, or I will be in a point of abdication, and thus my standing can be quantified"
I commit myself to stand as the quantification of my process which is a simple marker that - How many days did I self-honestly STAND versus not stand. This will be a process of self-honesty and not getting 'lost in the tendency to over complicate my life' like my mind loves to do
It's an internal reference and filter I am committed to live, where at the end of each day I can ask myself - did I actually stand?
What did I learn from today?
Where did I fall?
Where may I fall?
And within this I commit myself to live the accumulation of the result of me having an ever increasing standing to falling 'ratio' where I can perfect where Each day I stand, and ultimately in each breath I stand, and thus strengthen myself, others and ultimately purify the system through me as LIFE being here directing each moment
