Day 59 - Living My Best Life
Read the self-forgiveness out loud
And while I enjoy seeing that now break into the collective consciousness...
I wonder what the life looks like when it doesn't have an Instagram filter on it, or in the 99.9% of the other time when that person is not making that piece of content
This has been an interesting path as I've used the internet to spread this message of self-forgiveness, self-perfection, creating the world to be best for all, and doing my best in fully earnest to live my best life
And I know how fuckin hard it is hahaha
There are the moments (early on) where you have that thought of 'giving up' just 'go back into the system'
There are challenging moments, unexpected things happen
There is the system as well that will attack, the system in peoples heads where they see you act different and they attack your character and attempt to smear your reputation, whether through gossip or to your face
And there is the resistance one feels to actually stepping out of the matrix, seeing what you GENUINELY want to create, what WOULD be your best life, and to be bold enough, to live the word COURAGE to get yourself walking in that direction. Its a process to do.
So this 'living my best life' idea is taken by the system to look like someone basically being on vacation, having fun, carefree etc.
For myself - because ultimately it all comes back to self-honesty, I can see that living my best life is a blend of various factors, but the underlying bedrock of the entire foundation is my set of principles I stand as and the agreements I've made (based on living these principles)
Because even though I am just one person that is enough, as I live my fullest expression, that supports the others around me to live their best self truly
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to become disgusted with the system, how everything that is good and pure in the world had been corrupted. Fake food, fake characters, fake conversations, fake social media, all resulting in a mediocre shit existence for all of us, and within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the anger and annoyance I have seen with seeing how fucked up the system really is, that that anger can be used and converted into support to change myself, or I can loop in it and burn myself up. The choice is mine and the choice is for each of us to make as when one has awareness and sees the insanity of our system - like the small example of 'we have enough food for all of us' yet kids are dying every day from hunger... this is insane and thus me living my BEST life is in the context of this fucked up system, I can't ignore this system
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not reconcile the extreme of how atrocious reality is for so many, and even for myself in my mind where I commit atrocities on my own self through self judgment, self hatred, self neglect, beating myself up, going to war with myself, this is all an internal process that I can release through self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application over time, so that way I can live my best life - not as an idea or theory - or just in a moment when I 'smile for the camera' but a fundamental LIVING my best life in each moment, in the challenges, no matter what the external situations are, I can convert anything and direct it to what is best for me and for all
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought of 'doom' that the world is so doomed I just gotta survive for myself and 'live my best life' like with the emphases on MY, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize its gotta be all caps -- LIVING
MY
BEST
LIFE
Wherein LIVING is the day to day breath by breath application of standing here within the moment, as the moment, directing the situation within self honesty and self responsibility, fully living the best I can
MY where my means my part of the whole, I am one with all and equal with all, and thus as an individual expression of all, this is MY life yet within self-honesty it is ME as Equal as ALL, where if a single kid still goes to bed hungry, or a single kid is still sold into sex trafficking, I am not honestly living MY best life, because they are me in another life, and I can actually do something about it, therefore I commit myself to realize the I/MY words are living words of the collective, and I can do MY part and really see what's possible for one human AND a group of people to do as equals here dedicated to changing the system so its best for all
BEST meaning in self-honesty and common sense, looking at what is best in the situation, wherein what would create 0 negative consequence for all life involved. And this is something we figure out together starting with realizing we all have basic human needs, and we can and need to create systems that allow our needs to be met - starting with education is the point I see is best for me to focus on, and uniting the community that cares about this, to take the action and resonate this into the world
and LIFE meaning the substance we are - the thing that was given freely to us - to honor this in a way where no bullshit at the end of the day if I were to die and look at my life, being the judge of my life, I could say - You actually cared, you deserve more of this, because you cared about life within yourself AND all equally.
This is the way I see Living My Best Life is possible
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a child we have a pure life expression of innocence, and over time the system had corroded this in us, yet with having children now and having enough support and community, we can support the kids to retain this life innocence expression AND have the worldly wisdom through building vocabulary so the kids can show us what's really possible as they live their best life - reach out if you want examples of this - we have a community of genius kids living their best life
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to equate 'living my best life' with just getting rich, being able to travel, see the world and fuck around - this is not truly living our best life because one knows DEEP DOWN that someone has to work to clean that pool you swim in, someone has to be in that kitchen, working long hours so you can eat your room service. Its not to say we can't have these things... but who are WE within it, are we going to just accept a system built on modern-day slavery to money and debt? Or are we here to WITHIN THIS to change it all, make the best of every day and ultimately re-invent the system so its best for all
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as I've walked the journey to life, its the red pill, and I can't untake the red pill. Even if I try and suppress it, even if I try and ignore it, its here as truth and the truth cannot be stopped. The red pill is the awareness that self-perfection is possible, that we can thus perfect the world, by figuring out the dynamic balance as equilibrium that is best for all and through a real LIVING education, having a full grasp of language, creation, human dynamics and the mind + system its actually possible
I realize that living my best life is up to me. to SHOW what that looks like, in the 'happy' moments and also through the challenging moments - all of it matters, and to share from my real practical application of using these tools and this way of writing to stand as an example of what it looks like to live my best life
I realize that living my best life is so fun and such a gift that me as LIFE will be FOR GIVING to share this with all who can hear and all who will listen
I realize that 'living my best life' is not some future idea/picture in my mind, it is in each breath, am I living the fullest potential IN THIS MOMENT in my self honesty. Am I going in the direction of being on 'team life' and being my best self? ridding myself of the fears, doubts, limitations? Or am I time looping, spiraling only to fall on my face...
I realize that there is a finite amount of time I have in this life - and every day I delay on truly living my best life, walking this process - is a day that goes by and it actually gets harder
I realize that its easier to just take it one point at a time, to use the support of the group and to be my best self daily because as I walk this it makes it easier and more possible for others because I can be a reference point of support and there is a group resonance effect
I realize that because there is a finite amount of points to walk through - its not infinite - that this is also a reason to be glad and find a way to enjoy the moments as much as possible, because we CAN get it done
I commit myself to confirm that I am living my best life in all ways to the fullest extent
I commit myself to embrace the forgiveness of when I fall short - to give myself grace YET within self honesty get myself back up and keep walking and sharing
I commit myself to show within living my best life, even if others get triggered by it, over time its a seed that is planted and it will sprout within them so they can have the self-honest moment of 'who am I?' and thus begin the process of seeing who they will be in this world.... because if we think we are only here for a 'temporary experience', versus we are here as custodians of this earth and we can take responsibility to create a world we would like to be part of, we would like to come back to, THIS is the real purpose here.
So let's live our best lives and create the world to be a place we would be honored to come back to
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