Day 63 - Upgrade

 I have upgraded from the recent event I wrote about in day 62

I can see my level of clarity, I can see further. I also see collectively where the others are at who are walking this journey alongside me

Part of my recent upgrade was also a physical 'letting go' of the past

When I got home from the event I ended up hitting 'a wall' so to speak, and was drained and then puked a ton lol

It was not pleasant, but I've learned to trust my body

I see the upgrade to my resonance, that requires physically releasing old ways of thinking/feeling/being

So I welcome it

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to getting sick

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize my body is intelligent and if it is processing out old substance through the form of puking for example - to trust this process

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am sick, then I need to feel bad and activate an entire 'pity' character so I can lay in bed all day and not do the shit that still needs to get done

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that for example writing this blog itself - real time we placing these words onto digital paper, this is me proving to myself I am willing to take responsibility regardless of how I feel

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to purge the old does require a physical shift, whether it be as extreme as puking, or just sounding self forgiveness, or letting myself stretch and move, all of my programming IS held in my physical body and so as I walk this journey - releasing the old, I will make sure I honor my body as a temple that I can purge the old and welcome the new

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear upgrading too quickly, out of a fear of feeling bad and feeling pain - that is the weakness I am expelling here

I realize that there is a new level of strength emerging from me as I continue to stay consistent in my writing, in my application of myself, and in my intentional pushing of myself to find my best expression

I realize that getting sick and releasing the old is an opportunity to upgrade my ability to take responsibility

I realize that I am grateful for my body's intelligence to remove the old

I commit myself to welcome the upgrades

I commit myself to show that I don't need to suffer, rather I can expand and welcome whatever comes onto my path

I commit myself to honor the fact I can stand up, breathe and direct myself no matter how I feel

I commit myself to honor the upgrades and to live and anchor in the new mode of being, where I express myself in the best way possible in each moment so I am ready for the big moments of shifting as well