Day 67 - The Rite of Passage

Day 67 - The Rite of Passage

Read the self forgiveness out loud 

Yesterday I forgot to add - and it fits in perfectly...

As a boy becomes a man, there is a decision they make as to who they are, who they will be and how they will act.

And upon the decision being made, life will then reformat itself in accordance with this new decision and intention. And within this - situations will arise that can appear like a test, to see if you will walk through it or if you will fall and go back to 'boyhood' ignorance.

A man will WELCOME the test.

(and this is really for anyone, man or woman, but yesterday I was specifically writing about men being 'raised up' will need to make the decision that they will live from a new code of conduct and welcome the test to thus prove they will live it)

And so this is the brief story of how I had to use a cinderblock to decapitate a rooster yesterday.

Interesting enough... the point on being kind vs. being nice.

An example I often give when asked about 'kind vs. nice' is if you have an injured animal you know is gonna die. What is the kind thing to do? 

The 'nice' person lets it suffer. They cower/hesitate/avoid. The 'kind' thing is to face the point and put it out of its misery.

So I walked out in the evening to do the chicken chores, and I notice one of my roosters looked dead on the ground. Looks like he defended the hens from a predator, which I am grateful for.

I go up to him with a shovel to pick him up and toss him in the back woods.

I notice in that moment he is still flinching.

I think 'damn... I gotta take this guy out'

For a moment I contemplate how to do it. I got a shovel, I have my gun in the house.. I decide the best move is I have a cinder block right there, so I do it swiftly. 

That moment was not pleasant. But if I were that rooster, and I were there in agony, I would want a swift exit like what I delivered. 

And that is an example of me doing the kind thing.

It was an example of me as who I have become, a man that wasn't raised to do this sort of thing, but this is who I have built myself to be. 

I've learned to build myself from scratch, one moment at a time, the little decisions accumulate. 

And I've engineered an environment around me with our homestead and our local responsibilities - the best environment, where I have tests every day.

And to be clear - I see some people abuse the idea of 'tests', they constantly feel like they need to prove they can 'pass a test'. That is idiotic. I am referring to the fact that when a decision is made truly, the world reshapes around this, its resonance and intention. So AS this new decision, I will walk it thoroughly, and if I need to prove something, such as that I will do the kind thing even if its unpleasant or inconvenient, of course I'll prove it and do it.

Homestead living has shown me that, there will be tests all over. Who will I be in the test? - this is what matters.

Now of course ideally that wouldn't have happened, where I had to kill the rooster - but that coyote or fox also has to eat and it came after our flock. 

So there's a common sense equilibrium here that has to be reached. 

My goal is minimize suffering and ensure the animals can thrive for as long as they live, and to also live my life in a way where I can make the maximum impact in the collective world system, because my job is not to sit and watch my chickens all day. 

Being a man is being able to see all of this and make decisions.

For me as a kid - I was not raised to understand responsibility fully. I didn't have the vocabulary and comprehension to see the value of this for myself. Not blaming my parents, it literally wasn't possible without the tools. 

I wish I had a 'rite of passage' of some sort. But this is something I have had to gift to myself over and over. The living of my decision to be a man, and as a result of this decision, the opportunities arise where I will have the test, and thus I can prove I can pass the test.

And this leads me into my blog which is the rite of passage

I'm just gonna go in on the self-forgiveness as this is needed:

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the rite of passage is essential for a man to walk through - its essential because at a certain point one must decide for oneself who one will be - its a decision one makes and as any real decision it will be tested in reality

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the word passage is the passing from one state to another, the previous state is who one was born as and the programming given to them, yet on an individual level one must decide who they will be

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that a 'rite of passage' must be some 'big deal' like in cultures where the boy must go do a difficult task or go on a quest. In reality the rite = right, comes from the same root as the word right meaning to take something that is incorrect and make it correct - this is the journey to life one must undertake as themselves, for themselves and for all 

And passage is a passing from one state to another. So this ultimately is the transition from being a consciousness robot, programmed from the environment, to taking the decision to stand as a set of principles. 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fantasize about a 'rite of passage' needing to be a high energy experience, like the ancient mystery schools or the rituals in a secret society, thinking that one must have an initiation and get all the 'secrets' - in reality what is needed is the decision to change, the tools to sustain the change, and the verification of the change so one can truly be a +1 to society

I commit myself to create the change in the culture so the rite of passage is adopted, where each young adult can be aware of this process, to go from being a programmed human that has accepted their worldview, to a conscious decision to be a creator, to be aligned with the principles 

I commit myself to within myself welcome the tests, to enjoy the tests, as each time I make a decision to take on more responsibility I will prove to myself what I can handle

I commit myself to change the culture to one of honor and respect where the respect is based in the living principles, the rite of passage is for a boy to prove himself as a man where he honors and lives in a verifiable way - that he lives the principles

I commit myself to do my best to make everything right, meaning the best it can be, and to stop at nothing