Note - read the self-forgiveness out loud
Within everything I post about in this blog it all comes back to principles - the fundamental living words I operate from
Yet within this there is a helpful phrase
"Be firm if your principles but flexible in your expression"
For example - sometimes self-responsibility is getting my jacket on, going into harsh cold weather and going and caring for our outdoor animals with my homestead life.
Sometimes, self-responsibility is intentionally setting aside 2 hours with my wife to re-watch Lord of the Rings
The principle remains, who I am within it remains, but the expression of the principle can look different. Self-honesty is the guide.
More practically, I am preparing for a trip this week to go to Texas.
Within this, it involves 6+ adults and 3 kids all riding together in a sprinter van for 14 hours each way. It's going to be phenomenal, team bonding, a lot of fun. Also though, there will be moments where I may need to be full-on, consoling a kid, helping entertain the kids, or supporting someone in the journey down to Texas
This will require my ability to be flexible.
Its so easy to be 'rigid' and just be 'short' or 'on edge', stressed out, forgetting to breathe. All the lame system characters.
So my wife and I have made the agreement to live the phrase 'United We Stand' on this trip, and support each other even if its crazy and the kids need us to do some advanced techniques to support them.
Yet in this - self forgiveness is my guide:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate travel with stress
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the character of 'rushing' when it comes to packing, planning and undertaking a trip
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being flexible in my expression is like me becoming a child again, able to go with the flow, to express myself and not hold myself back in a limited way
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to disempower myself with holding onto the thinking pattern of 'I need to worry and plan ahead and try and control everything' in this trip. instead of realizing self-direction is living the principle of self-perfection within this experience, and this is a way for me to live Principled Living and welcome the next level of my self-responsibility and abilities
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to be rigid in my expression where I feel like I need to be serious in order to make sure we are all cared for and provided for, when me being serious really isn't that fun to be around - thus I commit myself to be expressive, to experiment with new ways of communicating, of providing and caring for my family, and to use the fact of being in new environments, being around new friends and old friends, all as a mirror and support network to help me unleash my best self
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in overthinking, and thus become rigid and not flexible in my expression
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to see the packing as a burden, the travel as a burden, and only want to experience the 'highs' of the travel and event, instead of each moment breath by breath
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to associate flexibility with having a flexible body, which for much of my life I was very tense and rigid, and would abuse my body through sports and work outs without properly stretching and caring for my muscles and tendons, within this I forgive myself that i had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the same way I care for myself by proactively forgiving myself, directing myself, expressing myself - AS this is a habit I have, I can take the same care for my body, for my flexibility and ultimately support my body as my temple so I can be in peak condition to help show up fully ME with everyone around me
I realize that my principles are clear - and my ways to express them are many - yet the guide through this whole process is breath and self-honesty
I realize that being flexible in my expression will sometimes FEEL uncomfortable and I can use this as a reference point to express and break through
I realize that I can be the source of influence, I don't need my kids or others around me to have an effect on me, I can be the cause and this can support all others around me to stabilize and thus as a group we level up
I commit myself to show that I can be flexible in my expression
I commit myself to recognize when I am flexible in my expression and especially when it works, to accumulate these new effective ways of behaving and being
I commit myself to use my breath to stabilize me in each moment
I commit myself to enjoy this travel
I commit myself to show my kids and those around me what is possible, being a principled human being that is able to create the best in any situation whatever arises
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