Day 27 - Resistance

 

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Resistance

NOUN

1. the action of opposing something that you disapprove or disagree with: he encountered a general feeling of resistance from many citizensdespite opposition from the newspapers he went ahead
2. any mechanical force that tends to retard or oppose motion
3. a material's opposition to the flow of electric current; measured in ohms

 Resistance is a force we grapple with, especially when attempting to change ourselves

And what we resist tends to persist

I notice resistance manifest internally in many ways

Sometimes its a feeling of lethargy, other times its a feeling of fear, other times its a logical-sounding story of justification I tell myself when its something I realllly resist doing yet I can justify why I should delay on doing the thing

All of it - a limitation I had accepted and allowed...

Thus...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how much resistance has clouded my mind, and hindered my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that resistance is a force within, its a blockage energetically and physically of my internal circuitry going haywire as I calibrate myself to a higher level of operation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist living my best life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to resist the principle of doing what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist living self-honesty, to boldly look within in every single breath regardless of what may pop up and what I may find

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear of myself and the fear of loss of my idea of myself, and let this fear accumulate as a resistance pattern to change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the resistance will strengthen when I give in to the resistance

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I do make the decision in the moment to breathe and walk THROUGH the resistance, that I get stronger, my 'action muscles' get stronger instead of atrophying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist things that are outside my pre-programming, and to give IN to this

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to use resistance as a guide, as a clear indicator of where I need to look and what I need to walk through in order to actually liberate myself beyond being a robot obsessed with staying in my comfort zone, abiding by my internal emotional state..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use energy as my motivation, to try and hype myself up so much that I feel the surge of power to overcome resistance, when in fact I am missing the foundational piece of change which is to remove the resistance and will myself to the best decision, trusting the accumulation of my strength of walking forward regardless of circumstance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the resistance 'so big' in my mind that it feels impossible to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in 'mind-tiredness' as a way to give in to resistance as a point of change is evident, and I use the excuse of feeling tired or drained as to not step through, despite the evidence that I have many times felt the tiredness, breathed and taken action anyway and broke THROUGH the point, and actually got back to stability and 'wakefulness' thus proving to myself that the resistance was just an inside job created within my mind to stay in my pre-programmed design

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by giving into resistance, instead of seeing the strength that emerges from my walking forward through resistance, and within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to understand that as I walk through resistance, this has a resonant affect on others and thus my change helps the others around me to change through me living as an example of real change

When I notice myself participate in resistance, I will stop and I will breathe

I will ground myself in my body and see the solution of stepping forward

I will remind myself that I choose the commitment to strengthen myself and show myself what is possible

I realize that the strength I get from walking through resistance is one of the most valuable assets in this human life I can ever have

I realize that resistance can function as a GUIDE of where is actually worthy of my focus, if I resist it, I will FACE it and change the pattern

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that resistance, like in electrical engineering, is a force of blocking the flow, and that is not something I am willing to allow anymore

I realize that what I resist will persist so in the moment I can let it go in a breath and live the commitment to walk through it

I realize that the ability to focus and persevere through the journey even as resistance arises, this ability is what I would like to see in myself and in others and so I walk this as my commitment

I commit myself to show that resistance is merely an inside job in my mind, and my body and being as self expression as LIFE can come through and be me as greatness embodied as a living word in each moment

I commit myself to transcend my pre-programming even when I resist taking the action

I commit myself to strengthen my body-being and mind, as I calibrate myself to live the best life for me and for all

I commit myself to honor my body, to strengthen my body, to use activities like lifting weights, doing physical activity as a way to strengthen my body and thus empower myself to consistently walk through resistance and limitations, not allowing any room for the bullshit thoughts to accumulate rather to stay in the focused flow of creation

I commit myself to prove that I have overcome resistance, even if I resist this commitment I see it makes sense and this is my living commitment