Day 1 - Decision to Take the Journey to Life

 I am alive...

But have I actually lived?

We have this one life. Its here. 

But am I truly walking it into reality?

Or am I deluded, hiding, holding back my self?

I am here as the decision to take the journey to life

And I welcome you to join me

In this blog I write Self-Forgiveness, Self-Realizations, and Self-Commitments

To stand as the principle of what is best for all life

Here in equality and oneness

If you take this journey for yourself, read these out loud, genuinely, from the heart. 

Lets see what we can create together

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my life was freely given to me, yet I had abused this gift, taken it for granted, and that is NOT ok with me

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear making the decision to actually stand for principle, specifically the principle of what is best for all life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize see and understand the LIFE within me, the humanity, the points of reference where as a child I could see another human suffering, and I WANTED to do something about it, to help alleviate the suffering, because I could see me in them, yet I had held back... and within this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I had trapped myself within my own world of isolation, of thinking, a lack of education and effective communication to be able to support those around me to flourish and live their full potential

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that while I do have the intention of helping others, I must first help my self, and this begins with understanding who I am, how I got here, and where I am going

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to prioritize my self-interest, my thoughts, feelings and emotions, and I had calibrated my entire mode of being into separation and only caring for myself, while putting on the mask that I really do care about others... 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to miss the fact that while I do genuinely care for others, and I can see myself in them, I have had a priority-issue, in setting my priorities in each day, in each breath of my day, for where to focus, so that I can fulfill my best potential and support that in others

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself in my ability to make a change in my own life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-forgiveness is the solution to support the seeing of me into all I can be, where the layers of my mind had clouded and jumbled up my thinking, my emotions, my ability to focus and follow through with ACTION on what can be done, and what MUST be done

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to go half-way with what I care about

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create a comfort zone of 'caring about the world' but not enough to take the action necessary to LIVE the word care, only paying lip service to it

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the feeling of overwhelm when looking at the state of my self, and the state of the world, believing that its all 'too far gone' so I better just worry about my own survival, my own money, my own problems, forgetting the reality that I can do something about the state of my own condition, and the state of the world

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I do play a role in co-creating reality

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to define myself as me as my ego only, not realize that self is literally all, my self is made from the same substance that is all things, as as this, my decision to change and take on the journey to life, to actually be ALIVE and not just a system-slave who follows his emotions, his feelings, his money-desires, his survival desires, that this decision to take on the journey to life will be the ultimate test of me as a human being. Who am I for real?

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold back in my self-forgiveness, afraid to forgive myself too much out of a fear of how fast I will change, fearing I will lose relationships and the feeling of love and comfort that I had got from keeping things 'status quo' and not 'rocking the boat'

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the REAL ME, deep down, that seed of life within me HAS been here, as awareness, as who I am deep inside me, underneath the layers of characters and belief systems, that real me in here is the one that does see the common sense of the teaching of Jesus which is 'give as I would like to receive'

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in the honoring of the decision to live this principle of 'give as I would like to receive' this requires me to get a lot SMARTER, in understanding systems thinking, in understanding how systems work, that right now we have a world system on planet earth that as of the time of publishing this blog, the system is built on abuse, its built on inequality, its built on a money protocol that is not honoring life equally... we are currently valuing money over human life as evidenced by wars, by consumerism, by the fact that children are being indoctrinated into consumer culture with tablets and billboards all over, brainwashing us to believe our purpose is to consume, instead of realizing our purpose is to direct reality - TOGETHER - to create outcomes that honor life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that the system is too big to be changed, failing to realize see and understanding the obvious that the system is actually imprinted into me, as a hologram, and as I change myself I thus show up different, I act different, and my 'piece of the puzzle' thus changes, going from being a programmed robot who was enslaved to my emotions and consumerism, to now being a force for creation and life to be able to emerge

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to 'know this' internally but to not share it effectively and plant these ideas to people so they can also be supported in their journey to life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold back in my sharing, the sharing of this process of walking from a programmed slave, to an actual living human being, and there are tools to do this, specifically for the reprogramming of the mind, and the writing out/RIGHTING of myself as a human being to live in harmony with life to support life to flourish, this is my living of my decision here and now

When and as I notice myself falling off track in my decision of walking the journey to life, I will stop and I will breathe

I realize that breath grounds me in my body, and allows me to short-circuit my mind's energy addiction

I realize that breathing and sharing, taking 1 more step, this serves as a +1 to life in the grand equation of reality where there is the war for the mind happening, the war between energy addiction, and real +1 living where life fountains through into everything around me, the living here comes through as a resonant sharing, as a seed of this new world rippling through, and I have seen this already in my life, and I can keep sharing this breath by breath

I realize that we have all felt this LIVING presence before, its seen in animals, its seen in babies, its the innocence of life, here and present, not caught in a false reality of the mind within thinking and feeling and looping in spirals of emotion, rather a presence here and a self expression of the REAL being coming through

I realize that this living beingness coming through is the ticket to paradise, but its not a 'free ride' where someone else takes me, its a walking together as equals, creating paradise as we engineer it through words, actions, living the commitment

and thus

I commit myself to be the example of the change I intend to see in the world

I commit myself to honor my ability to decide

I commit myself to purify my words, so when I say 'I decide this' I mean it, and it manifests into reality

I commit myself to support the others who see the common sense of the points brought forth here in this blog

I commit myself to prioritize life, and creating the best for all outcomes, instead of prioritizing anything else

I commit myself to enjoy the journey, so the feelings of enjoyment are genuine, and lasting, not a fleeting 'happiness' that is based in the polarity of the mind where its a up-and-down yoyo roller coaster, rather its a lasting accumulation such as how the human body works, yes energy is involved, but the human body grows through cells working in harmony, stacking up 1+1 in a systematic way where the body supports itself equally, the heart is no better than the brain, no better than the liver, it all works together as does my SELF, and the world system, all of this is able to work together better and better every day, and this is my living commitment

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