Day 76 - Skeleton Structure (Part 2)

Day 76 - Skeleton Structure Part 2

This is putting the 'meat' on the bones of the skeleton so to speak. Its creating life anew. Through words. Hey isn't there something about 'in the beginning was the word', and this is how all form came to be? (More about that in a future blog)

Picking up on where I left off - this is the skeleton structure (below) then underneath it I'm gonna copy/paste it again and write out 1 self-honest forgiveness statement and 1 self-honest commitment statement (as all the self-forgiveness should be). 

I am at daycare

I am in the family room watching the TV

I think 'where is my brother'?

I look in the other room

I feel anxious

I think 'I want to see my brother'

I feel scared

I think 'oh no I am alone'

I think 'I don't know where he is'

My stomach feels like a knot in it

I think 'what if he doesn't come back'

My temples feel flush 

I hold my breath

I think 'I want mom to be here'

I think 'what if mom never gets me'

My eyes start to water

I feel fear

I think 'please make this feeling stop'

I stay on the couch

I feel frozen

NOW here is the Self-Forgiveness

I am at daycare

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not understand that wherever I am, I can cultivate the sense of who I am, and thus being in any environment whether at home or daycare I can be ME FULLY

    I commit myself to be myself fully regardless of the environment I am in, and within this commit myself to live my life so effectively that we can evolve daycare into being a best for all solution where kids don't need to be dropped on in environments that aren't supportive to them

I am in the family room watching the TV

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that watching TV had brain washed me into being a trance-induced zombie in my life

    I commit myself to take responsibility for the programming that was implanted into me through my TV watching - which I didn't know any better then at the time but I do know better now so I will use all my programming and convert it to what's best for all

I think 'where is my brother'?

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to look for my brother from a starting point of separation/concern/fear instead of just looking

    I commit myself to use looking instead of thinking, where looking is a practical real physical application of myself instead of a thought which induces a thought-frenzy runaway train within

I look in the other room

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the looking here now came from a fear-based thought, and thus in each moment now as an adult I can breathe, be here and catch the thoughts that are fear based, and instead just use looking and my day to day living to create the best relationships whether with my brother or with anyone

    I commit myself to catch my thoughts so when I take action from the starting point of a thought, to immediately recognize it, breathe, stabilize and continue to be here one and equal and direct myself in the best way I see in each moment

I feel anxious

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in feeling anxious and not direct the anxiety in a way that was best -- (note to the reader, as a kid I didn't know any better, so I do not forgive myself for something unreasonable, rather this writing is to stand in the present moment, forgive the energetic reactions and now live in a new way that prevents future consequence)

I commit myself to breathe through anxiety, and to see where its coming from, and act in a way that is best for all regardless of the feeling of anxiety

I think 'I want to see my brother'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a kid my 'wanting' to see my brother was innocent, it was me looking for safety and security to ground myself, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look outside myself for a sense of safety and security rather than my own breath and my own self-trust

    I commit myself to show that I have the real safety and security which is self trust in each moment, and the living awareness to stand in the essential positions in our world where I can direct outcomes so that way others don't need to walk this same point of looking to outside sources, where I can be a resource for others so they can see this within themselves that they can be their own authority, they can regulate themselves, we can all do this as equals through effective self education and effective living

I feel scared

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to feeling scared, and within this reaction to judge the sense of fear where I label it as the word 'scared'

    I commit myself to walk through any feelings of 'scared' and 'fear' that are left unprocessed from childhood so that I can stand up in this world fearless and able to direct any situation I find myself in, and thus I commit myself to have gratitude for this process to process my past, to see it in a new 'light' and to act in a way where future children do not have to experience unnecessary fear, and they have the tools and process by which to have a life of clarity and common sense

I think 'oh no I am alone'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in that moment I was alone, I did still have myself and my abilities to move, and even though as a child I wasn't able to break out of this thought-pattern, now here as an adult I can learn from this and direct myself so even as being 'alone' within myself I am alone yet all-is-one so as I can change me, this supports the change for all which is the real purpose I am here to live

    I commit myself to realize that I am alone, yet all is one, so thus we are together alone able to live this in the best way instead of reacting to it

I think 'I don't know where he is'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to think 'I don't know where he is' from a starting point of fear

    I commit myself to be ok with not knowing everything, yet as self-trust I can always direct myself and figure out any situation to create the best for all solutions to any problem

My stomach feels like a knot in it

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my stomach 'in a knot' sensation is my nervous system experiencing stress

    I commit myself to support myself to breathe during any moment of stress and to live in such a way where I can help convert the stressors of our planet into a life-giving system where distressing situations are prevented as much as possible, and we can learn through enjoyment and alternative ways instead of stress/trauma/limitations

I think 'what if he doesn't come back'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the pattern of catastrophizing and making things a worst case scenario

    I commit myself to see each situation for what it is and within that as I observe the situation within myself realizing that I can define each relationship and point in my life in a way where it is a +1 accumulation of life - no matter what it is I can convert any point into a +1 for life if I approach it in awareness, with patience and tenacity

My temples feel flush 

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my physical body will give me signs that are interconnected physically, mentally and that I can use my body as a cross-reference to understand myself better

    I commit myself to use my body as a cross-reference, and to learn from each situation to become even more stable and effective in my walking of my process

I hold my breath

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold my breath 

    I commit myself to use my breath as the constant source of life in-flow and out-flow thus never being stagnant, always able to move and direct and create

I think 'I want mom to be here'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for wanting my mom to be there, as a child she was the primary source of comfort for me and thus in this situation I didn't have her there, and couldn't articulate myself so here and now I can let this go and act anew

    I commit myself to re-parent myself and to be the best parent I can be to see how I can raise my kids to be 100% effective confident co-creators of reality, and to act in a way where I can help change the entire world so all kids can be at 100% effective capacity

I think 'what if mom never gets me'

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold onto this fear of 'what if my mom never gets me' where in that moment I can see how that thought would be there but here and now I see how I can direct myself in any situation

    I commit myself to be present, to stop the 'runaway thought train' that turns everything into a catastrophe and to calibrate my mind, my body, my living and my relationships to create a role model family of what is possible so that more and more families can create supportive environmetns 24/7 for their kids, and to redefine adversity from something that legitimately harms/holds back a child, whether intentionally or unintentionally, to living adversity in the best way which is adding words to a child, where a child can prove their effectiveness, overcome limitations and develop strength without having to walk through consequences

My eyes start to water

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that tears are a physical release for the body and this was my body attempting to support me to release the fear build up

    I commit myself to understand my body and how I can physically release stored up programming/experiences/trapped energy so that my body can be a pure vessel/temple for life to come through unadulterated/unfiltered

I feel fear

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to feel fear and react to it, instead of allowing it to pass through me and use it as a learning experience

    I commit myself to welcome the fears where I can thus process them, and to clearly understand for myself and for my kids and for all - that danger and fear are two different things - danger is something that actually has consequence, and needs to be avoided, which makes sense. Fear is a glitch that comes from separation from life and is a denial of self-trust and self-understanding, where fear creates neuroticism - and thus I commit myself to help the world understand this and over time to walk fear out of existence

I think 'please make this feeling stop'

    I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that self-forgiveness, breath and physical application is the ultimate way to 100% remove the feelings that hold us back

    I commit myself to educate the world on how the mind/feelings/emotions and limitations work, so that we can unlock our best expression as individuals and as humanity

I stay on the couch

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to associate the couch with comfort yet a fake comfort, a freezing and an abdication of movement

    I commit myself to in any moment where I feel stuck or like I am resonantly wanting to stay stuck/stay put, to breathe and assess what makes sense and to move - no thinking/overthinking needed just practical living and movement thus creating WAY more in my life and being able to prevent future consequence

I feel frozen

    I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my nervous system went into 'freeze' mode, and as this freeze I had accepted and allowed the fear of the unknown, until here no further

    I commit myself to prove to myself I have no more fear of the unknown as I can trust myself and I trust that in each moment I can act in a way that is best for all, to assess consequence and determine the effectiveness of my actions, to create a better and better life for me, my family, my kids, our community and ultimately the world so that way we don't need to time loop on fear, we can just get to sharing and enjoying our 'share' of life here

Final step - now its on YOU the reader to do this

Pick a memory, use the previous day as an example of how to do it

And just write

It doesn't have to be 'perfect' rather its a 'muscle' you can build

really its your self-will/spark of life as a being coming through

And as you 'forgive' programs effectively, its a conversion of the energetic program which was stripping away your body/life force/being, and converting that energy BACK into substance, thus you have more power, more ability to create and thus together we have the will power and capacity to change our world.

So what are you waiting for? Just do it

Day 75 - Skeleton Structure Writing

Day 75 - Skeleton Structure Writing 

For context on how we can walk the cutting edge of time, but it requires dropping the story in our head- Listen to this podcast: https://x.com/beselfperfected/status/1997686423697363307

Picking up from yesterday's blog where I opened up righting through writing, this blog will help understand WHY its so important to write specifically

The cutting edge of time - the leading edge of all reality is possible to influence, its done through breath and righting/writing accumulation

It requires giving up the story we accept and allow

and here is the way you can dismantle the mind-constructs that hold one in place in limitation

The story we accept and allow is what got imprinted into us within every single word, concept and memory we ever integrated. Until we take self-responsibility for every aspect of ourselves, we will be at effect and in limitation

So here is a very helpful was to drop the old story, and to knock out big chunks of our programming

This is called a skeleton structure and it helps with identifying core resonant patterns we have

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For example - this style of writing helped me to realize how I would get stuck in my business with my outreach efforts, but it was tied back to an ollldddd memory of back in the day when I wanted to play with a friend, and I called him multiple times, he never returned my call, and in that moment I accepted an entire pattern/character of being neglected, thus I created a pattern where I neglected myself

I also had memories of me faking being sick to get out of preschool, but that exact pattern of 'avoiding' being in a system, would show up in me sabotaging myself in my own system that I use to help me grow my business

Or memories of the first time I had a breakup, how that was still playing into my relationship to this day, and my marriage improved

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So this is a way of doing the self forgiveness writing that is very specific and can be helpful in ways you can't yet imagine. DIP Lite explains the foundations and then DIP pro goes more into it but ultimately I got this style of writing as the skeleton from a specific buddy of mine who was able to walk me through it and cross-reference my writing. You reading this will need to use self honesty and I cannot commit to reading your blogs to give you feedback unless you are really determined then DM me on facebook I can see some general patterns and where you may be deceiving yourself in it. Really good writing will become self-evident and your life will obviously change because you'll act different.

So for the skeleton structure: 

I'll lay the frame work in this blog and give more examples over time but this writing process is life changing, its still within the context of self forgiveness and self correction

But its more specific than doing a general rant and can be more helpful if there is a deep point that one keeps looping on

Step 1 identify an area of struggle - for example lets say I keep looping on fear of the unknown

Step 2 breathe and slow down, ask what is are my core memories of fear of the unknown (or whatever word you chose)

Step 3 identify the earliest memory with a strong 'charge' to it

Step 4 breathe, stay in the slowed down physical presence state and write out in PRESENT TENSE now line by line the 'snapshot memory' of what happened line by line (Example below)

the physical reality of what happened

the thoughts

the feelings

the emotions

the backchat (inner conversation, if any)

Step 5 go back through each line and write out one fully effective line of self-forgiveness under each line, and then a commitment statement to live 

Step 6 Live it and realize life is not about 'updating your story' its about dropping the story, and being here, living your commitments to create the conditions that are best for all

Step 7 - repeat the skeleton structure writing with other core memories and/or the most recent experience you had with the memory

Reminder - one must be in a state of full self-responsibility and self-honesty while doing this, its easy (especially early on) to delude ourselves in self-forgiveness, which is why DIP lite is essential for the ground work

Example:

I am at daycare

I am in the family room watching the TV

I think 'where is my brother'?

I look in the other room

I feel anxious

I think 'I want to see my brother'

I feel scared

I think 'oh no I am alone'

I think 'I don't know where he is'

My stomach feels like a knot in it

I think 'what if he doesn't come back'

My temples feel flush 

I hold my breath

I think 'I want mom to be here'

I think 'what if mom never gets me'

My eyes start to water

I feel fear

I think 'please make this feeling stop'

I stay on the couch

I feel frozen

Now that's the skeleton ^

Next is the forgiveness continued tomorrow where I'll take the exact structure and copy + paste it and do the self-forgiveness writing in it

Notice how it starts with a physical action

Then my mind started with a thought, and it 'snowballed' into more thoughts, feelings, emotions and eventually the physical outcome which was I stayed frozen on the couch.

Its important to go line by line because each line is literally how our structural resonance plays out. 

Do DIP lite to really unpack this but I see that it makes sense to have more reference points out there for everyone walking the journey to life to see this and use this - it is extremely helpful

Day 74 - Righting Through Writing

Day 74 - Righting Through Writing

Read the self-forgiveness out loud

This one is a mind-bender

Here to help YOU bend your mind to the best for all trajectory

Isn't it interesting that the word Writing and Righting are the same sound

And Writing in its 'highest form' is the righting of oneself. Taking responsibility for one's words

The 'wrong' we have done, actions we have done, beliefs we have held that need to be forgiven to right our relationship with ourselves and thus to all

I enjoy doing the daily writing within my blog because it is a commitment I've made to bring forth a point of realization, and done in the format of self-forgiveness it allows for the reader to actually have a breakthrough and a potential opening they can seize for themselves through the forgiveness, the realization and the commitment

Now within this I want to get into the specifics and empower more people to take on writing

DIP Lite is where I learned this. This free course taught me more in 4 months than I learned in 4 years getting my degree in psychology.

And then over years of doing this and getting support from other people on the journey to life I discovered the process called a skeleton structure which I'll write more about tomorrow

For now let's do the self-forgiveness on writing/righting and my intent is to get the being within you to wake up and see the mess we have all allowed and right our relationship with and AS reality, through writing and ultimately living the words

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize I have layers of programming held within me that can be interpreted as words and thus as the author of my life I can be the authority to rewrite the code of my programming and take the old programming, see it for what it is, forgive it and commit to a new way of living thus righting myself through writing

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not define right and wrong for myself

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to doubt my own ability to deem something as 'right'

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to see the word right within the definition of common sense - as the specifying of any point, any thing in my life and/or in the world, and to specify my understanding of it and to think/act accurately within my relationship to it - starting with the word right and the 'right' definitions I can use to empower myself  to right myself as this word

right

1. free from error; especially conforming to fact or truth: the correct answerthe correct versionthe right answertook the right roadthe right decision
2. appropriate for a condition or purpose or occasion or a person's character, needs:
3. in or into a satisfactory condition: 
4. make right or correct
5. anything in accord with principles of justice: 
6. precisely, exactly
7. in an accurate manner: 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear 'being right' out of the implied responsibility of thus making a judgment call and then being accountable for the consequences that can flow from this

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe its easier to just participate in moral relativism and believe its not possible to deem something as 'right' or 'wrong'

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in nihilism believing that there is no point or meaning to anything

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the very fact we can discern what is not best, which is anything abusive - where it violates the golden rule of 'give as I would like to receive', this is an obvious first principle by which we can operate and begin to work out for ourselves what is right

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in laziness believing its too much work to right this all/write this all out, and thus be ok with a mediocre life where I just accept the world as is and let the abuse continue

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to miss the obvious that writing out starting with deciding my principles by which I will operate, and from there to utilize the skill of effective ranting (through words written specifically), and thus as this foundation I can begin to use my writing as a support for me to map out my mind and my life and begin to stand as the author/authority and write out what I stand for

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold back my words out of a fear of the consequence of standing for something real

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize for myself what righting through writing can mean in its utmost best expression over years and years of application - where I see the common sense that self-forgiveness and living commitments is a way to change myself - and thus as this fact I can either use this fully and dedicate myself to this process or I can time loop and miss the whole damn point of being alive here, staying a consciousness zombie

I realize that writing was not effectively taught to me as a kid, I just used writing as a way to participate in the system, learning in school how to be a good cog in the system

I realize that righting myself was not taught to me as a kid where I grasped it fundamentally - the golden rule, give as I would like to receive, and thus evolving the system of the world, and the system within me as my mind/thoughts/emotions/feelings/characters to align every single part of this so that it reflects the principle of 'give as I would like to receive' and this is possible through me righting myself THROUGH writing

I realize that over time as I do right myself it is verifiable by others that I am acting in a way that doesn't produce negative consequence for others, and in actuality my words become alive and expansive in a way that supports and strengthens those also aligned with these living principles, as the principles are in alignment with life itself

I realize that my writing daily is part of me taking care of myself, just like I eat, bathe, and care for myself consistently, just like I invest time and presence into my relationships that are important to me, writing is my way to process through my mind and be able to change the script by which I live

I commit myself to right myself so that in every situation I can stand as the living example that all can see I am living the principles I have committed myself to live

I commit myself to become even more effective in my writing so my words can act as a key to lock in to people's minds, where the words then twist and help open up the being inside to break through and break out of this consciousness mess we have allowed, yet each one will have to decide this for themselves who they are, who WE are, my words can be a support to make it more obvious and make it easier for one to go faster as they take their own journey to life

I commit myself to see what's possible, to really push the cutting edge of words, sequencing, syntax, neologisms, vocabulary and the practical application of LIVING words as the true education, serving as the roots of the tree of life so once and for all reality can be built on the principle of LIFE as oneness and equality

More on writing tomorrow as I'll open up the skeleton structure to help each grasp the value in writing daily, pulling apart our past and re-formatting ourselves in the best way so we can open up new opportunity to change ourselves and change our world

Day 73 - Starting Point

Read the self - forgiveness out loud

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my starting point is in each moment either here as breath, being alive and thus expanding, or my starting point is limitation which will create consequence

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that any starting point based in emotion such as fear, doubt, inequality, will ultimately become the 'end point' and thus trap myself in cycles

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not be honest about the fact that being born into this world, with my body, being and mind, my starting point WAS set up to just be 'survive at all costs' / 'self interest' and thus self forgiveness and self correction is needed to transform myself from a desire to survive only, to transforming myself into the will of life

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize there is a difference between awareness and consciousness, CONsciousness is the con - the automated pattern, a counterfit version of awareness where I am running my pre programmed design given to me by the world system which had been based in survival, consumerism, abuse, and the awareness is the spark of life within me, the awareness that is seeing through my eyes, is aware I am here, this awareness is worthy of expansion and thus my starting point as breath, being here, is important as in each moment I am either growing in awareness or growing in consciousness/pre-programming/accepting limitations

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in each moment within my self honesty there is a highest potential - a best for all potential I can stand as, whether I 'feel like it' or 'not' my feelings are not the guide, as obviously if I just choose how I feel I will stick in my same starting point of limitation, whereas I can actually re-build myself through self-will, checking my starting point in each moment, to ensure my intention of what is best for all is coming through, and this results in equality, in certainty, in sharing, in responsibility and ultimately being alive

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to admit to myself that my starting point is the fundamental point of creation, in each moment me as life can be here as either infinite expansion as life, and directing self in accordance with this fact, or I can choose limitation.. but the limitation 'choice' is not real choice, because its choosing enslavement to my past programming instead of a liberation and a REAL choice to do what is best, to build this into the foundation of reality as reality is programmable. This is self-perfection as my starting point and the ongoing manifestation is where this is proven over time

I realize that my starting point will create the end point, so when I act from self-honesty, self-awareness and self-responsibility, thus more of this will accumulate

I realize that breathing is a way to fundamentally stay in touch with my self honesty, as my body as all of life, not in the limited narrow window of my ego/mind, as even though my starting point is to stay here as life and calibrate my mind to be the best, it does take time a minimum of 7-14 years and thus I walk this daily

I commit myself to honor my starting point of doing what is best for all through the nitty gritty details, being here and checking myself in self honesty and utilizing my relationships based on agreements for external cross-reference

Let's make the world best for all, as starting point and end point, from there/here we will really see what it means to live. 

Day 72 - Glass Ceiling

The Glass Ceiling is the programming but how one sees it requires looking at it from a different 'light' much like sometimes you walk into a glass door and it hurts, it requires a way of SEEING to get through/around the programming

Remember - the only way 'out' of this (your current situation) is THROUGH

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that the glass ceiling as manifested as my inability to improve - that this is inevitable in my life and I cannot see it or break through it

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to doubt my ability to break through my glass ceilings

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to doubt my ability to see the glass ceiling and thus stay stuck looping

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my previous days of forgiveness, my realizations and my commitments are my structure of who I am, as living words, and as these words this is my strength by which I can break through any level needed

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that any plateau with my progress, more education is required, where education means a learning of new understanding + integration of the understanding AND at the same time a letting go of the past

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the best months I've had in my life and business have been a result of the strength I got from learning how to walk through hardships/frustrations/glass ceilings and thus in the same way I have done it before I will do it again yet each time is unique because its a new vocabulary set of living words and as long as I make the time and space to write, to forgive and to CONNECT with others who can give me the actual real feedback needed, as long as I do this I have the right inputs to break through

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that from my past / childhood I have resonant triggers within me that can trigger and play out as a resonant possession and within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that these resonant possessions are greater than me, and I am inferior to them, when in reality I am them, and as them I can breathe, absorb it all into myself as my breath and to forgive it real time as who I am is here and all, and thus I can move through anything

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my glass ceilings will be there as a natural fact of me pushing myself and changing my location point within the world, and as I move there will be limits on my growth as a result of my limited vocabulary and understanding, and as the principle of self-perfection, part of perfection is sucking at the beginning and perfecting my process ongoing over and over improving day after day, and as long as I can accumulate my responsibility in each breath and not 'turn back' or give up, that I will persist and I will succeed

I forgive myself that i had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in every moment I am either breaking through the glass ceiling and strengthening myself for the break through to my next level in my effectiveness OR I am getting weaker, there is no 'stagnation' in between, its either 'growing' or 'dying'  and this is a fun realization because it reminds me to be full on always

I realize that the glass ceiling is not something 'more' than me or some elusive 'mind' thing, its literally an analogy for the fact that my vocabulary/way of seeing is only seeing so much of what is here, and the break through is to SEE and ACT in accordance with the highest potential in each moment and thus this is the break through

I realize that our collective glass ceiling is that we don't yet have a system that is best for all, rooted in education which is effective equal vocabulary for all and thus this is the #1 focus I can have is liberating my self as my effectiveness to spread this and thus to help as many as possible also equalize to become elite in our programming and principled living as what is best for all

I commit myself to in any moment I sense a 'glass ceiling' to automatically look at what is here, to breathe, and to see what further education and/or actions is needed from me, to take that step and if I'm not clear, to call the people I know can support me as I know there are no problems, only solutions, as I am aligned as Life and this is the way through

Day 71 - The Spark of Life

Day 71 The Spark of Life

Want an obvious example of the spark of life? Look at a child

What is it that 'motivates' them? Its not fear, its not desire, its a fundamental essence of them as life moving themselves, because they're alive, they love themselves, they want to do things and enjoy

That is the spark of life and its in all of us

But we suppress it -- hard

So lets re-activate it, see it and spread it. As the world needs it now more than ever before

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to make the 'spark of life' analogy something mental instead of a physical realization of beingness

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize this spark of life is within every human, and even if its twisted and contorted and suppressed, its there under everything until the dying breath when it leaves the body

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to make the 'spark of life' into something more in my mind, trying to take that reality of physical energy within my body, and make it into a mental energy projection where my mind goes into a character of 'specialness' and separation, thinking I am then 'more' than life instead of realizing my equality as the physical, as a being, as a body, as my mind, as an amalgamation of all as oneness and equality - the fact that that is what I am truly - I had missed this, until here no further

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize this spark of life is the purest form of motivation, and within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to throughout my life create alternative sources of energy from fear, pressure, chaos, that I had used as a form of 'energy' to move myself to take action 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe this spark of life has to be 'mental energy' from the mind consciousness system, its not - its a living physical energy expression that powers the body synonymous with self will and movement, its a living presence that is life-giving

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as I walk this process of the journey to life, as I effectively forgive myself, the energies I used to motivate myself like the fear of survival, that this energy dissipates, and then I am 'stuck in the mud' as a human because I have used these energies to motivate me, and now they're removed, now I am stuck with ME, and as me I must find that spark within myself to now create from a starting point of CREATION as SELF WILL, which comes from this life spark within me. Its a point of creation, breath and focus to now will myself consistently as life to act and create, where this is the purest form of my self expression yet its like using a muscle that had atrophied, it will take time and effort to create this as my baseline

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe its easier to be motivated by the energy of fear of survival, where this electrifies my body where I get out of bed, I move myself, I am barely breathing, I am rushing and its so intense that I just whip myself into shape and do my 'role' in the system meanwhile making ZERO difference in the world and actually perpetuating the old system...

I commit myself to show that as the spark of life, and cultivating this spark, as the real source of motivation as self movement - that this is the real standing up of me as a being - and this is the way to create the new system of the world that can be best for all. Any change to the system that comes from the outside first as 'top down' will inevitably not work, because its not coming from self as self-will as the spark of life integrated into the change, and thus the 'outside' forces end up creating a time loop again and again, hence why no government programs or 'revolutions' or 'motivational seminars' do anything to fundamentally change the system or change our lives, because its not coming from self

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the spark within me is always there, under the programs, which can be forgiven thoroughly, and after consistent effort forgiving myself, living the new commitments, and rebuilding my programming to be aligned with my best expression as life - this spark within me can spread, as it is the source of all potentials and possibilities as life itself in equality and oneness and so I commit myself to spread this spark, to support the activation and spreading of the spark in others, to turn into a wildfire that spreads through the world where all the living beings can step up and create together. 

I commit myself to identify any memories of where I gave up on my self-will, to forgive them thoroughly and to commit myself to living my self-will fully, as the self-will is the spark of life within and thus the forgiveness of these memories and the commitment to new action allows for me real time to thus create from the starting point of HERE instead of repeating the past of failure and abdication of responsibility

I commit myself to notice the spark of life within me and to cultivate it into a powerful force that comes through in my thoughts, words and deeds, where its the constant expansion of the principle of life as what's best for all, and this is inherently a sharing, a spreading, and a responsibility inherent within this way of living

I commit myself to bring about the circumstances where I can help others activate the spark within them, through creating environments, conversations, activities where we can come together and they can see the common sense of life expansion, and within this I commit myself to get the tools of change to everyone so they can sustain this spark of life, because just having a spark of life, but without the ongoing ability to do self-forgiveness, and without the ability to rebuild every single word of one's vocabulary/programming, the spark of life will be suppressed again and again.. So this is my living commitment and in each breath is the potential and possibilities I will stand as to spread the spark of life into a wildfire that covers the world

Day 70 - Hosting

Day 70 - Hosting

Even in a snow storm we hosted 20+ people for our recent clubhouse. I'm going to write my blog today on why/how this works and my intention for wayyyy more of these to happen

We host a lot of events. The purpose of these events is to bring people together who WANT to be their best selves, and to help us all collectively become our best

The events are fun, they are dynamic, we have deep conversations and intentionally create a space where people can have breakthroughs and make new commitments to how they will live

Over 5 years of doing this, my wife and I (and the core people who help host) have learned a lot

and for you reading this blog, you know part of your legacy is going to be hosting phenomenal events that have the same exact purpose 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist creating events and hosting events

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the word event with the words chaos and stress

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the 'introvert extrovert' paradigm and use it as a limitation for my self expression

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear hosting events, of who will show up? If its 'not enough' then I believe people will judge me, and if it's 'too many' then I will be overwhelmed... thus it would be easier to just not do it and delay it to a future that will never happen

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that many of the biggest moments in my life, specifically with 'doors that open' have come from people I've met at events in person

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to 'default' within myself to looking at the negative and the challenging parts of hosting events, instead of seeing the event as a living commitment to change myself and change the world - simply for what it is - its people coming together to change and grow

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as a host of the event I have a responsibility to the people, to show up and having done the work on myself within my self honesty, because when others are within your physical presence they do pick up on things unconsciously. So if there are areas out of integrity within my life --- the events are a great way to act as a catalyst to 'clean up one's own life' so that one can stand in integrity and be an authority to support others to also change

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that events without a clear intentional purpose - the purpose becomes a giant 'energy fest' where people want to act crazy, potentiallly drink, cause drama, gossip, etc and the event then becomes abusive - whereas based on my commitment to the living principles the events I host are intentionally designed to awaken one's BEING, not to be an energy jack-up session

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to play small and not do the right inputs to fuel the right people coming through the door at the event, that I had been lazy to think 'oh my events are just so great that people will show up' and then many times face the reality that it does take promotion to get people in the door - yet over time there is a magnetic pull that grows as we get more and more people who are in resonant alignment/subconscious coordination - yet even then the physical inputs of inviting people and curating the audience is needed

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that events are not just 'nice to do' but they are essential - as human beings ARE social creatures. There are the studies that kids would die if they didn't get physical touch. Yet in today's day and age people forget this, that you need to get out, to shake peoples hands, to hug people, to share a meal, to connect, to be uncomfortable, to laugh together, to ask questions and really bond with one's fellow human. Let's magnify this in our world WITHIN the starting point of principle

I realize that events have shaped me into becoming the best I can be, it is a forcing function to help me level up, to 'walk the talk' so to speak, to constantly improve my life and become more effective so I can be a role model for others

I realize that events based on living principles are the only events that will be life-giving, where all others become draining and exhaustive because its an energy-mining fest

I realize that the Self-Perfected Clubhouses is a core backbone to events around the world, and there are many other events I host and have connections to that I can recommend to people to be a constant impulse for people to get out of their home, go talk and go share and connect because you can meet the people who forever change the trajectory of your life at these events

I commit myself to use the commitments as a way to ground the events, for example at the end of each of my events recently I am asking people - what were your biggest insights AND what is your commitment before I see you again? 

Because insight can be misleading - it feels good in the moment but unless its grounded in a living commitment of change, it is a distraction and then the event/communication/conversations were all for naught because the change wasn't lived

I commit myself to be the best I can be within my location point within my local community, the international community that I am part of, and to help more and more events be hosted that create outcomes that are best for all