Day 92 - 1x Speed

Day 92 - 1x Speed

As always read the self forgiveness out loud

I used to listen to audios as 1.5x or 2x speed

Then I realized I didn't have the space to process it

There's a time and place to listen a little faster, depending on the topic.. this is where self honesty comes in though

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to RUSH through life at the detriment of actually living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to convolute the fact I have increased my processing speed through using specific tools so I then assumed that I can get the same value extracted from podcasts/audios/books if I go through them faster, failing to realize that the increased processing speed is actually an increased processing capacity, which allows me to connect and apply ideas so rushing through audios isn't needed, rather taking the time and space with the information and assessing real time in breath what can be applied and what can be discarded, this is real information processing capacity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create stress in my body from trying to listen faster, meanwhile missing big chunks of the information in moments where I am not present with my breath

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the starting point of 'there is too much information and not enough time' therefor I 'must rush through' instead of realizing self trust with working with the priority information worth studying for my self-education

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a sense of superiority that I can consume a lot of knowledge, such as reading over 50 books a year or listening to hours of information on podcasts that is very sophisticated so I feel special, this is all a mind bullshit game not necessary, what matters is what is the data of what I have applied, how many people have I reached truly to have actual conversation that is at the cutting edge of advancing our collective process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move my body while not in breath and thus not in awareness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take so long to realize this obvious fact, that rushing through life not in awareness creates accumulated consequence, so I am rushing in my creation of consequence instead of steadily walking the cutting edge of time

I realize that in breathing, in awareness, being here, I can create more in one day that I did in a whole week of 'rushing' 

I realize that in the moments of listening to an audio, there is value in the time between the information, to allow my information processing capacity to work with the words and use the information that is here to create

I realize that the world system is designed to 'speed me up' to go at a million miles an hour, when what is best is to calibrate my mind to what is best for all and move at the speed of breathing

I commit myself to move at the speed of breath

I commit myself to show there is plenty of space and time to create the world to be best for all

I commit myself to practice the phrase 'no hurry, no pause' where there is no reason to delay doing what is best, as that accumulates consequence, and there is no reason to hurry, as that accumulates consequence, I can walk the balance of extremes to establish the best for all balance and direct myself to accomplish my priorities every day within self honesty and self awareness, this is my living commitment