Day 57 - FULL ON
Read the self-forgiveness out loud
I have noticed that if I am 99% 'on' vs 100%, there is a big difference
By ON I mean - my intention, my focus, my 'energy', my presence
For example, if i'm 99% present with my wife... she can still sense it
There is something magical about being 100%. No back door, no plan B
I was talking with my wife over the past 2 days as we come to the end of the year and looking at our intention for this past year which was to Break the Matrix
By 'the matrix' I mean the pre-programming within ourselves and within the world. It starts within and ripples out into the world
And within this we saw the one final point we were missing was really making it FUN
Sometimes I can get so serious about the world, about the state of things, about how important it is to live this life fully
And without enjoying it fully, without having FUN within it, I can get trapped and limited
So for 2026 my phrase is FULL ON
Part of that is having FUN while doing it. Showing up every day - being intentional - really utilizing everything I've set up in my life from my daily schedule, to my responsibilities, having the people around me as well where we work as a team to make the changes we want to make.
Building local community, building my business, speaking out more, getting invited to new groups and new opportunities... All of this requires me to be FULL ON
And in a way that is self-honest and sustainable, a way where in my self honesty I don't burn myself, rather staying here, staying CLEAR throughout it all breath by breath
What a fun task. And this is perfect because it will be coinciding with the 7th year of me walking this process. And its a 7 year journey to Life. How fitting for Mitch's journey to life
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to resist going full on
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to use my past definition of going 'full on' as a reference point, where I had been so 'full on' with people that I would at times be overwhelming and piss people off
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to associate going full on with being in a 'peak state' not realizing that there is a full on even in relaxing and being present with my kids for example where its a recharging rejuvenating experience
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear going full on as though I would become a target for others to react to me and want to 'tear me down', within this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that because my starting point is clear - to stand in the shoes of others FULL ON as well, that I can stand as them and as myself and direct myself in the moment as self trust, so its not an 'antagonizing' or 'polarizing' relationship with others, rather a genuine equality and oneness relationship and thus create effective agreements with others and LIVE them real time because the agreement is LIVED and its powerful - 2 or more in the name of LIFE and we can create a whole new level of reality
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to backchat about 'what will others think' and be a policeman in my own head, monitoring my own behavior, instead of seeing FULL ON the feedback I get real time from others, and to see what is real support, support that helps the other to go FULL ON in their own living journey as well
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the word vanguard helps me with context as to what is my responsibility - uniting the change makers of our world
I realize that the more I remove the blockages, the more power I have to create
I realize that as I live FULL ON, it supports openings for others to see and be strengthened as everything is connected and the world is a giant morphogenetic field, where the '100th monkey' effect is how we can unleash collectively and experience a new level of reality because we physically create it through our collective resonance and action