Day 94 - Standing to Falling Ratio

Day 94 - Standing to Falling Ratio

I just got off the Self-Perfected Podcast Episode 278 and this point is abundantly clear

For those of you walking this process - you have moments where you have STOOD UP and directed your life

And you have had moments where you have fallen

You will have to determine that within your self-honesty. Use the group for cross-reference because especially early on you can fuck with yourself and 'think' you are standing but not really. Because it has no physical effect

So this is the point:

Figure out lets say if there are 7 days a week, in how many of those days have you STOOD

Have you stood up for the principles

Have you directed others

Is it 1 day a week?

Is it 7 days in a row, like a 'hot streak'?

Here's some self forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself into my conscious mind thoughts and to not get clear understanding of what is actually happening in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid looking at the data, the results and the proof - and to clearly define what the 'results' are that I am looking to create in my life specifically with my impact I am here to make in the world with influencing others to walk their process and be part of changing the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to OVER-focus on data, thinking that I need metrics for every single thing in my life in order to make any substantial progress

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the best for all balance, between all the polarities within myself of hyper focusing on 'numbers' or hyper avoiding 'numbers' and thus the proof of how I am standing - and within all of this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize there is a basic filter I can commit to have installed within me as living words - as the statement that "In each breath, and thus in each moment, I am committed to stand, and I will either be standing up and a source of responsibility, or I will be in a point of abdication, and thus my standing can be quantified"

I commit myself to stand as the quantification of my process which is a simple marker that - How many days did I self-honestly STAND versus not stand. This will be a process of self-honesty and not getting 'lost in the tendency to over complicate my life' like my mind loves to do

It's an internal reference and filter I am committed to live, where at the end of each day I can ask myself - did I actually stand?

What did I learn from today?

Where did I fall?

Where may I fall?

And within this I commit myself to live the accumulation of the result of me having an ever increasing standing to falling 'ratio' where I can perfect where Each day I stand, and ultimately in each breath I stand, and thus strengthen myself, others and ultimately purify the system through me as LIFE being here directing each moment 

Day 93 - A New Kind of Politics

Day 93 - A New Kind of Politics

This is a repost from my facebook yesterday. 

In light of the ICE agent shooting Renee Good, there is an extreme polarization happening.

I saw the videos from multiple angles. 

It is horrible that she got shot and died. 

Why that entire situation happened? We could speculate all day.

This was an outflow of an extremely tense situation and quick decisions that resulted in a loss of life which is a tragedy. 

This is the way I make sense of it so we can create solutions where this kind of situation does not need to happen. 

THE ORIGINAL POST

A thought experiment - SUSPEND YOUR JUDGMENTENT FOR A MOMENT AND JUST READ THIS -

IMAGINE THIS - if we had a political party and politicians that could objectively make decisions that are best for everyone …

I mean, truly, if we had a way to verify that the decisions would not be detrimental to anyone involved , to the absolute best of our ability, would we vote for it?

I’m talking to basic things we can all agree on like clean water, nutritious food, shelter, effective education, not harming each other, having basic respect and understanding… all of these things - engineered into how we make decisions collectively through laws and social agreement

And obviously, it’s not gonna happen overnight, but it would require a group of individuals standing for this and actively co-creating this…

And for the sake of the thought experiment, just imagine we could objectively prove this that we could make decisions that minimize any consequence and maximize collective benefit …

Would you vote for that? I know I would 

We are at a dangerous point where people are so polarized and choosing one side and not willing to look at the other …

Where I see the only way through is solutions that are win-win-win

Good for you, good for me, good for everyone, including the planet.

What’s the alternative we just polarize ourselves into a straight up Civil War?

And create decades worth of consequence because we can’t see eye to eye on anything?

With all the people in the world and all the intelligence and money that we have, can’t we figure this out and reason it from first principles?

Are we gonna work to ways to see how we can actually figure out real solutions where we see the humanity and work towards solutions?

For example, right now, if the average person is in survival mode and can barely pay their bills and they are stressed out it’s extremely hard to thrive and make effective decisions…

We live in a system that does not support the average person whatsoever and these tensions escalate.

It is my intention and it is what I’m here to do - to figure out these solutions into established principles that we can all agree on with basic common sense

Even If the average person cant comprehend this yet, i see this Is worth dedicating myself to

Figure out how we can make the world best for everyone, and that starts in little solutions and steps. A WILLINGNESS.

It happens in the steps we need to take - every single day and the willingness to take self responsibility.

And obviously, education, REAL education is gonna be a key part of this. If we cannot communicate and agree on basic definitions of words, it’s gonna be impossible. But there are ways we can figure this out together 

Day 92 - 1x Speed

Day 92 - 1x Speed

As always read the self forgiveness out loud

I used to listen to audios as 1.5x or 2x speed

Then I realized I didn't have the space to process it

There's a time and place to listen a little faster, depending on the topic.. this is where self honesty comes in though

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to RUSH through life at the detriment of actually living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to convolute the fact I have increased my processing speed through using specific tools so I then assumed that I can get the same value extracted from podcasts/audios/books if I go through them faster, failing to realize that the increased processing speed is actually an increased processing capacity, which allows me to connect and apply ideas so rushing through audios isn't needed, rather taking the time and space with the information and assessing real time in breath what can be applied and what can be discarded, this is real information processing capacity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create stress in my body from trying to listen faster, meanwhile missing big chunks of the information in moments where I am not present with my breath

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate in the starting point of 'there is too much information and not enough time' therefor I 'must rush through' instead of realizing self trust with working with the priority information worth studying for my self-education

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a sense of superiority that I can consume a lot of knowledge, such as reading over 50 books a year or listening to hours of information on podcasts that is very sophisticated so I feel special, this is all a mind bullshit game not necessary, what matters is what is the data of what I have applied, how many people have I reached truly to have actual conversation that is at the cutting edge of advancing our collective process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move my body while not in breath and thus not in awareness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take so long to realize this obvious fact, that rushing through life not in awareness creates accumulated consequence, so I am rushing in my creation of consequence instead of steadily walking the cutting edge of time

I realize that in breathing, in awareness, being here, I can create more in one day that I did in a whole week of 'rushing' 

I realize that in the moments of listening to an audio, there is value in the time between the information, to allow my information processing capacity to work with the words and use the information that is here to create

I realize that the world system is designed to 'speed me up' to go at a million miles an hour, when what is best is to calibrate my mind to what is best for all and move at the speed of breathing

I commit myself to move at the speed of breath

I commit myself to show there is plenty of space and time to create the world to be best for all

I commit myself to practice the phrase 'no hurry, no pause' where there is no reason to delay doing what is best, as that accumulates consequence, and there is no reason to hurry, as that accumulates consequence, I can walk the balance of extremes to establish the best for all balance and direct myself to accomplish my priorities every day within self honesty and self awareness, this is my living commitment

Day 91 - Congruence

Day 91- Congruence

Read the self forgiveness out loud

When I say 'congruence' I mean doing the thing I say I'm gonna do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe its OK to say I will do something and then not do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hear the phrase 'your word is your bond' and then not take that seriously

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of the word 'bond' that it somehow implies I have no freedom if I speak, that if I make an agreement then I need to 'remember to follow through' otherwise there is going to be consequence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-honesty, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application is the solution to allowing my words to be a bond that is life giving, where I can use my words as self honesty as me as Life, and from this starting point I can forgive anything, and I can correct anything, so even if I do 'mess up' and break my bond/congruence I can correct it. It doesn't mean there isn't any consequence, but it means I can keep my integrity restored and continue to direct myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have my fear of failure clouded in my fear of using words and making agreements, where I had feared failing in honoring my commitments and thus limited myself - failing to see the obvious that failure is part of success, failure is a roadmap for self-perfection where I can see where I fall short, correct myself and thus perfect myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is an invisible force in human relations, where if someone is not congruent, it can be 'picked up' by others as a 'vibe'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can now hunt down any last point where I am not congruent and correct everything over time, to thus have a 100% pure expression with each person I interact with and thus be an effective creator in all of my relationships

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to make commitments like on Day 86 my 30 days of content experiment, and to have failed, and in this I could make excuses but there is no need. I can correct it real time like I did today and I thus progress

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the value of the congruence, where if I want the people around me to act in a way that is congruent and best for all, that this comes first with me doing this within myself

I realize that congruence is the key to creating the world as I want it to be

I realize that congruence is my self-honesty guide within how I apply myself and the actions I take

I realize that congruence is lived in the moment where I can sense when I break an agreement I have made, and thus real time I can correct it instead of letting it accumulate

I commit myself to live congruence in each breath, creating myself as the type of person I know I can be, so I can be the change I want to see in the world

I commit myself to honor congruence in my relationships, by bringing this up as a topic of conversation with others, so that we may hold each other to this higher standard as the social contract that can be the basis of the new world

I commit myself to kill off any and every excuse within me

I commit myself to kill off any conflict within myself toward myself

I comimt myself to show what 100% congruence can look like within a human being

Day 90 - 2025

I am writing this blog on the final day of 2025

I just got home from Texas at midnight last night/this morning

I have been in 'go mode' all day

Now we have 20 people showing up at our house for a new years eve party!

What a perfect way to close out the year

And I'm enjoying being present living the phrase 'no hurry, no pause'

It is 'go mode' for here in the present and welcoming in 2026

Let's TRULY make this the best year yet

Let's build the foundations to ensure that the world system can change and become best for all

To honor life in all forms

So we can all experience PRINCIPLED LIVING

And have a world, and relationships that reflect that

More blogs to come :-) 

Day 89 - Honoring Food

Day 89 - Honoring Food

Yesterday hanging out with Cameron and Katie we butchered a cow. I had never been part of this process before.

It was enlightening and challenging

Here are some pictures

The aftermath dinner :)

Chopping it up

Hanging out

Me and Cam afterwards

I wonder if we replace the heart emoji with a real heart if that would ground us into reality more...

Continued:

I have had to kill animals before on our homestead but never that big of an animal. 

It required moments of bravery and doing the thing, because once you're committed to it, there's no 'back door' you go ahead. That was valuable for me, and seeing how we did it within the starting point of honoring the life in the cow, the purpose of why they had the cow, and seeing it all the way through.

I see in our modern world we have become SOFT. 

This life of convenience, where we eat our 'microwave burgers' but don't take part in the processing or the slaughtering of the animal.

Then even if you try and be 'vegan' because you don't wanna kill an animal, you still participate in a system that kills plants which are living, which disrupts ecosystems, kills bugs, all sorts of death happens from our system and our current way of living.

As a man I see this is where I can make a change and do my part.

This is where kindness comes in. 

And a genuine effort to live in the best way, in alignment with life, realizing that as humans we need food, so how do we create this system in the best way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid seeing the full picture of creating food that ends up being consumed by me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can't learn new things, I can't learn HOW to prepare the meat AND do it in a way that's best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the gross nature of animals and humans, where there are aspects of raising animals and preparing them to become food that is not pleasant, so I had avoided it, at a COST and thus limiting myself in my actual effectiveness as a human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to categorize humans into types of humans, like you have the ranchers, the farmers who do all the dirty work, then you have the business people who sell it, meanwhile dividing up our entire system into silos that create a breakdown in our network of trust as humanity, where I don't trust 90% of the food out there, ultimately leading to a breakdown of our world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that for thousands of years humans have lived more closely to the raising and killing of animals, and this can be perfected into a way that minimized suffering and maximizing life flourishing

I realize that learning the ranching/homestead way of life has a level of fundamental support for me to respect life, take life more seriously and ultimately HONORING life

I realize that I appreciate food even more from learning how the process works, and holding the intention to do it in the best way

I commit myself to be an example of what an effective farmer/homesteader/rancher can be like, between myself and the others in the Self-Perfected community who are committed to recreating the systems to be best for all, in a way that honors life in all forms

I commit myself to raise my kinds in a way where they can appreciate food, the interconnectedness of where food comes from, and to have an accurate view of the world

I commit myself to show what's possible with our world, where animals, plants, human beings can all have the best for all relationship, and we can discover the actual best way to create food, live alongside nature and understand this from a young age through the mass re-education of the children of the world to have living principles

Everyone - UNDERSTAND the system we live in

Bring awareness to each step and we can purify this system to one that honors life in all forms.

Its each of us taking the responsibility to do our part and work together

Day 88 - Life Expansion

Day 88 - Life Expansion

Today I was going to write about being grateful. I had the blog post up yesterday and began to write, but I got side tracked by responsibilities of being a dad. 

I will still touch on gratefulness - 

I will weave that in combined with a life update of how I am expanding.

Currently I am in Texas writing this from Cameron and Katie's living room.

I woke up before everyone else so I finally had time to write my blog. 

The past 2 days involved packing and driving 14 hours.

We're back here for a few days to get the full download on our next level, including stepping into raising large animals (we are getting one of their cows in the spring) and potentially pigs, also for the next level of everything we are doing with Self-Perfected, TechnoTutor and being the source of change for the world.

So much turmoil in the world. I know its Christmas morning right now, and there are kids waking up today with no food, or waking up in a situation where they have no family, or waking up being trafficked.

Its easy to say 'no today is a great day let's celebrate Jesus was born!' but for me - to honor who Jesus was and how he lived, is to focus EVERY day on bringing about a world of equality that is best for everyone.

It's not to judge people as 'bad' who are sitting around in their nice home, with their christmas tree and their traditions to enjoy the Christmas holiday. I have fond memories as a kid having that. But as I grew up I have seen the brutality of our world, and what Jesus was actually talking about. And I see Christmas has become a Psy Op (Psychological Operation) on the masses. It takes the pure message of Jesus - truly love your neighbor as yourself, and converts it into consumerism, extreme 'highs' and 'lows' I mean they even call it the North Pole, its polarizing in its very nature, and Santa is an anagram for Satan. 

It's become used as a manipulation tool for kids to 'be nice' not 'naughty', abandoning principle at every step of the way.

I used to LOVE christmas. It was so fun being away from school, getting toys, then having a whole week from christmas to new years so I could hang out with my friends, play with my new toys, then also do something fun for new years. That was the highlight of my entire year...

But as I began in this process - writing/righting myself to Life I saw how that made my entire year subtly negative, in a polarity, that I look forward to Christmas as the 'crescendo' of everything. 

YET the whole time I didn't even try and LIVE what Jesus was talking about. To me - I call that hypocrisy.

If I were Jesus I would be so pissed at the Christmas-Industrial Complex

So today for me to wake up in Texas, having no snow. No Christmas lights, no 'presents' but actually surrounded by the core people in my life who see the message of Jesus as something we are ACTUALLY here to live. To fundamentally create the change of the system, to build our relationships and our world in responsibility, awareness, oneness, equality as what is best for all this is a cool way to ring in the 'holiday' time of the year.

So to bring this full circle to the top

I like the word Grateful - Great Full

I see how in my life, walking this process, there is a polarity I become aware of - that every word in my life I have used from the starting point of polarity.

For example - Grateful = good, not grateful = bad, but hidden within this is the 'be grateful because if not you could lose it all, thus FEAR' and 'not grateful = bad' = GUILT you 'should' be grateful for what you have because there are starving kids in Africa (that whole program)

I see why those programs exist, but this process as Righting through Writing means to actually redefine the word so I can live it as who I am as a source of Expansion of Life.

I see how I have abused gratefulness over the years, basically as a way to justify fear, and want to 'appease' the system like Oliver Twist in that scene where he gets the soup and says 'please sir may I have more'

So for me, the moment I realized what grateful actually is - was 6 years ago nearly to the day, I visited Cameron and Katie for the first time in Houston where they used to live. I remember for 5 days I got the download on how to raise the most effective kids in the world. How to have an effective marriage, what it means to walk this process. What is Desteni really about, and how DIP Lite is life changing. How to really use TechnoTutor to rebuild my foundations and become a master of business. At this time my e commerce company was making about $12k a day in revenues as well. And I was STILL talking about the REAL stuff, not letting that impede on my LIFE EXPANSION. Because Me as LIFE knows its not ONLY about success in the system its about purifying the system.

So at the end of that time with Cameron and Katie 6 years ago, I remember saying 'thank you I am so grateful for this time in your home and learning from you guys. *and then it hit me like a tidal wave of realization* I said And I don't mean I'll just 'say' thank you and pay it lip service. I am going to SHOW YOU I am thankful and grateful by actually LIVING this change and getting more people here to this process. This was the inception of realizing grateful = GREAT FULL. I had to cultivate the greatness within me, my beingness that is this ever-expansive source of self as life substance, here, and calibrate my mind to what is best for all. And live this in my actions every day.

And I recall that was a moment I made a decision to live great-fullness, which was Life Expansion. Me taking this little spark of life and cultivating it to expand more and more and more.

So this is full circle here 6 years later, because last time I didn't have Jessica here. Last time I didn't have 2 kids. I didn't have a homestead. I was still a fledgling entrepreneur. I had just realized how TechnoTutor changed my life because it helped me get really good at making money in e commerce but also with sharing it with people I had already brought 4 people on board by that time and I had only done the business for 2 months.

I saw a glimpse of what's possible. But now here it's full circle, but its not a circle, its a spiral. 

I am in a way new spot, as who I am, as what I realize, as my responsibilities, as my influence.

It reminds me of a phenomenal article by Bernard and I'll quote it here. If you want the full thing here it is, its worth reading again even if you've already read it. It makes more sense as time goes on. 

the same stuff will repeat till you had enough of your preprogrammed self acceptances–then you will start dropping and letting go until only you remain–this is your point of power in your world–then you will find yourself giving direction and sorting out your world quickly–so–if your world is not sorting out and remain the same–you haven't got your current location within your world yet

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why is this important– because each that find their location–find their power and honesty and we are all equal and one to what we become or allow

so–if you are equal and one to you where you are now–no matter who or what placed you there–you are empowered to change the situation—and you will as you will not accept anything less in your world—if you accept some form of enslavement or emotional turmoil or manipulation or fear—you are not at your location within the “grid” of the placement of creation and thus the honesty and forgiveness not effective enough—easy guideline

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Now—when you establish your location—you will without feeling—in an inner silence –direct your world and all that you defined yourself by—will disappear—and new events will step forth—each event will have two points—sometimes very tempting points—to either expand your self-expression in awareness or take you back in the same entrapment—sex, position, money, success, feelin­gs,etc is used for this

So—what to do—as you have then found your equality and oneness point—in yourself—you start moving yourself and see what you have allowed in your world as your equality—blame is useless—fixing it is all that works—so –you fix it—in every breath—till your immediate world is what you are equal and one with—and so you expand—like a Fibonacci spiral—expanding into greater influence—no-one get more influence power than based on equality and oneness as it is for all as one—the influence the world understand is dislocated and thus beings stop existing as their defined selves at death

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What is fascinating is that within this process of locating and expanding self—you will always be equal and one with what you either become or allow

So—we are each only responsible for ourselves and according to application we will be part of the establishment of oneness as equality in creation—so—we will determine and face the truth of ourselves—alone as an inner journey we reflect outwardly in our world

So to close out today's blog - Life expansion comes from Great Fullness. If you don't know where to start then YES be grateful for where you are, truly. Because its what got you HERE. Yet do not accept it as all you can be. Forgive the fears. See your reality sort out quickly - as the cross reference point is obvious.

Join us in changing the world. Give this as a christmas gift to yourself. We will either fight for this old system that abuses the message of Jesus - turns it into corporate consumerism slop - or we can redefine it as who we are - as a DAILY living of the messaage of equality, oneness, giving as we would like to receive, changing the world system to reflect this in every way as what is best for all. 

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