Day 50 - The Tools of Change

Day 50 - The Tools of Change

There are two tools that have changed my life and I must give credit where credit is due.

TechnoTutor = the tool that allowed me to reprogram and CHANGE my programming, rapidly program myself to handle new levels of success and thus create a hugely successful business, a phenomenal marriage, create wonderful smart kids, and the most wonderful community around the world.

Here is a 5 year update on the video on how Techno Tutor changed my life

The other tool is the Desteni I Process AKA DIP Lite

This free course taught me self forgiveness, how to unpack my memories, how to remove backchats and unconscious resonant blockages. Its the basis behind how I learned to write this blog. I've seen this course save marriages, change programming, and ultimately help people be the best version of themselves in a sustainable way.

These tools are the foundation behind the Self-Perfected group which is the worldwide community here to change the system and have the most fun ever DOING it!! Here is a mini documentary about Self Perfected

These 2 tools are the tools of change, they work. I have tried everything from ayahuasca and 5 MEO DMT to try and change my mind, to yoga and chi gong and Tony Robbins events. None of those things created LASTING change..

TechnoTutor and DIP create physical change in the body, and the mind, which allows one to handle sustaining the change, change one's resonant point of attraction and learn any new skill quickly. 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not give credit where credit is due - specifically to TechnoTutor and the Desteni I Process which allowed me to change my unconscious mind in a way that was impossible without it, and within this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the Self-Perfected community that is built around these 2 tools has been a natural emergence of these tools and my own journey using them

I forgive myself that i had accepted and allowed myself to not realize how simple and direct it is to rebuild my vocabulary every day, to forgive myself for the things I have accepted and allowed, and to then actively be part of the Self-Perfected community

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold back in sharing these tools out of a fear of taking responsibility for helping other people to change, as when they begin the process of change at times they will face resistance, and my responsibility is to help them navigate the resistance and work through it. becauase REAL change takes time and consistent self application and it can seem easier to just ‘chill’ and ‘not do anything’ instead of standing as a source of responsibility and support for others

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize and write down for everyone to see that specifically using TechnoTutor and doing the DIP lite course helped me to get clear on what relationships to let go of, and what relationships to create - specifically my meeting of my wife where she and I built our relationship on the principles put forth by these tools - and the Desteni.org/principles website and these principles have been the core that has allowed my life and relationships to be built on solid foundation instead of the energy traps of the matrix 

I forgive myself that i had not accepted and allowed myself to admit to myself that I am morpheus finding the other morpheuses, looking for people who are ready for the red pill, and this is teh real red pill to not just escapee the matrix, but to re-engineer the entire system to one that honors life. And this requires me to examine my beliefs, what I had believed to be true, to see what is actually true

I forgive myself that i had accepted and allowed myself to fear having haters, where people talk shit about me because I stand for stomething, I am pushing the point of responsibility, raising effective kids, being an entrepeneur, building, taking life seriously, and there are people (some real some just bots) that talk shit about this, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to get through to these people, to help them understand the greatness that is this process, when in reality some people are not ready for it, or they want to cling to their programming and the system comforts they have… yet ultimately life is the judge and they will see what they have allowed, I can do my best to speak to those ready to hear and this is my commitment, as evidenced by the hundreds of people I have supported to be part of this movement and change

I realize that when one stands up to challenge the system - there are people who will subconsciously resist this - because the system is familiar and comofortable even though this is the same system that is abusing life, allowing for 20,000 kids a day to be dying from preventable causes, a debt-based system we can and need to change, some people still don’t see it yet

I realize I am looking for the people who are the beings that actually want to change existence, both for themselves and for all, and there are these people all around, I get through to them by sharing and putting myself out there for the world to see as I write this blog, as I make my posts, host events, and my life is an example of what it means to actually walk the journey to life. I welcome this and the more people that take this on the more strength we all have, until eventually we change the culture and we change our collective values and make the necessary changes to the system

I realize that I am willing to examine every last point within me, so I can face myself, who I have allowed myself to become, and make sure that every last part of me is in integrity for what I stand as, making the world and the system be the best it can be so everyone equally is honored, everyone can forgive themselves and everyone can have an effective education so we can unlock a collective reality previously unavailable because of all of our ineffective ways… This is the real change

I commit myself to share openly about what I do, what tools I use, the process I am walking

I commit myself to show and remind myself that when the system is challenged, it can push back yet ultimately standing as life allows me to stand in the system and purify the system as who I am

I commit myself to give as I would liek to receive, as I have changed so much from these tools and this process I am forever grateful there were others willing to go out and share with me a way of genuine change, and my living of this gratefulness is shown in how consistently and effectively I can share with others and help more people see the value in this process

I commit myself to live HONOR as the respect and willingness to share, even when some people don’t want to hear it, some people aren’t ready, some people write nasty comments, some people make fun, it doesn’t matter because who I am is here to make the change needed, so this world can become a place we would actually want to come back to. That - in self honesty - we realize we need to change the system and the fundamental core of the system is education and that is TechnoTutor and Self-Forgiveness as explained by DIP lite. its simple - everyone can do it, and I am here as a resource to help this spread like wildfire through the whole world

Day 49 - Education is the Future of Our World

Day 49 - Education is the Future of Our World

Note - read the self-forgiveness out loud

Today we hosted an event for homeschooling families locally

I have noticed a trend over the past 5 years, running an education company, supporting hundreds of individuals and families around the world

The future of our world truly is the education of our kids... and for us as adults to re-educate ourselves, because our foundations were screwed up through going through the system as we did

I see so many new families wanting to take responsibility for their kids growth and learning and its great to see that. I also see its on me to SHOW what is possible

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe the system will properly educate our kids despite the fact that nearly every person I know had negative and counterproductive experiences from our schooling system, whether it be peer pressure, learning issues or overall indoctrination

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the kids of today will be the future leaders of the system tomorrow - they will vote - they will purchase - they will run the companies and movements of our world over the next 5-50 years... and currently the mainstream is not equipping the kids with fundamental principles to create what is best

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the old system of education and the standard that kids have been prepared for is one based in survival and the self-interest of the old system based in inequality, fundamentally the inequality in vocabulary, where some kids have an effective vocabulary, learn how the world works, learn how to game the system and have a higher survival quotient, and other kids are ejected from the system and live on the outskirts, struggling to succeed in the ruthless system of our world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe its not possible to change the education system

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that the companies like duolingo or khan academy - full of their so called experts - that they will save the day despite all the evidence that none of the people running these companies OR their kids are fundamentally thriving and systematically replicating this result

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the common sense of the phrase 'give me a child for the first 7 years and I will show you the man' that this encapsulates the fact that the human has a phase of life for the first 7 years where their entire key systems are laid down and the primary influences in the child's life will be the fundamental programming set in to the kid at a physical biological level, and when this is utilized in the best way, we can recreate what is possible for the future of the world - and when this is ignored, we perpetuate the old patterns that got us in this messed up place to begin with

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overcomplicate education, to think it requires fancy gamification and long hours and serious lectures, when in reality it is simply building the vocabulary into the unconscious mind - there are tools for this specifically - and also explaining everything to the child so they comprehend the world and finally - the explanation of the principle of what is best for all - to have this be the inner architecture of the child's operating system, so that each child can be a force for GOOD in the world and this ripples out exponentially to all children over the next generations

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the simplicity that one can bypass the conscious mind to learn directly to the subconscious which is what really MATTERS - as the information must 'stick' in the matter of ones body

I realize that education is indeed the future of the world

I realize that the mind is a force field and it will filter out information that is not already present within, thus making it difficult to learn - and the solution to this is the ability to change what is IN the mind's force field

I realize that even if a child didn't get effective vocabulary in the first 7 years, there is still a way to GET that information into the child's unconscious through using specific tools to imprint the information physically into the human body, so the child can process anything, read any book, learn any skill, its the ability for even a teenager or an adult to be like a child again and this is the greatest gift a human can have - the grace of life allowing us to be able to continually change and not have our destiny set in stone - rather to create our legacy as the words we understand and the words we live every day

I commit myself to share the tools of change - the tools that have helped me - self forgiveness and the ability to build my vocabulary to the unconscious mind - so that all others may have access to these tools and also begin their process of change and reprogramming - to reprogram themselves and ultimately reprogram our world so everything creates outcomes that are life-giving instead of survival/self-interest only

I commit myself to parent my children as an example of how I wish I was parented, and how I intend for other parents to approach raising children, that myself and my wife and my kids can be an example of what is possible to have genius children who are principled, confident and able to navigate an uncertain world with certainty

I commit myself to show that certainty is perfect knowledge that has total security from error, and it is possible to have perfect knowledge as understanding every word and concept and to use each word in a way that creates outcomes that are best for all instead of self-interest only

I commit myself to show that education is the future of our world - and in the present I can present this to each and every person willing to listen and this is my focus, this is my purpose and this is the purpose for all of us on earth to realize the education as the fundamental root of our world - the words that shape our world can be the best possible, and each day is an opportunity to create this and accumulate more and more people aware of this fact

If you have read this and want to know the tools I write about - DM me on Facebook or Instagram I'll show them to you it is mind blowing how fast one can learn directly to the subconscious/unconscious and as an adult - be unstoppable in learning, and for a child to be capable of learning anything thus having a superior level of confidence navigating this world

Day 48 - Mindset

Day 48 - Mindset

Note- read the self-forgiveness out loud

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize how the mind actually works - and that I had convinced myself that system slop of mindset, self development and 'self help' was actually changing my mind, meanwhile my programming - as the fundamental building blocks of my mind, as the programming and impulse inherent within me - that hadn't changed

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the mind is based on symbols within my flesh, as the hard-drive of me as my body, and the mind is an emergent phenomena as an AFTER effect of these symbols

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind can be calibrated to the BEST mindset, as I go through as forgive/purify every last symbol, to convert the energy of these words - as the old system that impulsed the words/symbols - to now and here BECOME the living symbols that honor life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold on to the fear of loss - that if I change my mindset for real - that I will lose who I am - when who I am actually is the life substance of my body and being - as who I am WITHIN this all - and that as I correct each symbol/word/program as my entire inner architecture, that I can change my mindset

I Forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to only go half-way with this - thinking that if I change my mindset within that I will then be 'good' and 'survive' in the system - not realizing the ultimate responsibility is to thus align my mind and my programming to support me to stand WITHIN the system overall - to stand within the world - and distribute this process of change to everyone - to the best of my ability - this is the real purpose and I can verify if the change is real by how many others I have helped to understand this principle of self-perfection through self-creation as the re-education of  ourselves so that our mindset is coordinated  to support us all to walk this process of change so that we have a virtuous cycle of self-change - creating world-change - which in turn as the NEW system then impulses people in a better and better way, so our self-change in turn creates MORE world change - where overtime this old world we had accepted is but a memory that we can use as a reference point to learn from - as the 'dark ages' of how bad we let this get.. And thus we can ensure that the ongoing virtuous cycle of real mind change and real mind stability can be ensured for each person and for the world.... THIS is real mindset change

I realize that the mind works on symbols held within the body and the forgiveness and correction of these symbols as words/programming/vocabulary can be changed with precision through writing and programming to thus create a lasting and verifiable change within myself and within others

I realize that real mindset change requires responsibility to help others understand this, live this and have a cascading ripple effect to more and more people

I realize that aligning my programming with life itself as the principle of oneness, equality as what is best for all, that this is the real mindset worth having

I commit myself to prove that I have forgiven my old mindset based on self-interest only, and aligned each and every word within me so that I can stand in whatever position I find myself in, and to ensure I live so effectively that our children and our children's children' can reap the benefit of the work I have done, the commitments I have lived and the collective mindset I have helped to shift

Day 47 - The Slow Hunch

Day 47 - The Slow Hunch

Note- Read the self forgiveness out loud

There is a concept called the 'slow hunch'

Its when you have an idea and over time it builds and builds. 

Its a feeling or intuition about something

I see how over years of me doing this process I have had many hunches that have come true, seeing different people in my life where its worthwhile to invest more time and energy into the relationship.

Also seeing my purpose. Its slowly but surely coming into focus as a slow hunch.

I see this can concept can be purified and used to my advantage and to what is best for all

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the concept of the slow hunch is the result of an accumulation, as how reality works based on the law of accumulation

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize my starting point matters for my slow hunch... if my starting point is not clear and if its based in fear, the fear will accumulate and create a slow hunch that is not calibrated to reality however if the starting point is clear, I am clear on what I accept and allow and why I am doing what I am doing - such as me starting my relationship with my wife, over time I will have insight, and that insight can build and build and build until it becomes a living understanding that is a transformation of a single idea into a manifest creation - such as us having our homestead and a family - it starting with an idea but it became created, as a slow hunch manifesting over time

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the concept of 'patient urgency' is the solution to how to act and what attitude to hold. Patient in my approach realizing that real things can take time YET urgent and willing to act in a moment 

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there is a phenomenal ability of the human body and intuition that can be utilized where over time I can have a gut level processing where my subconscious and my body's intelligence can pick up patterns and I can use this for what is best - yet if its not with a clear starting point - the hunch will be based in fear and separation and end up causing a time loop and consequences. 

I commit myself to use the slow hunch wisely as a living word that explains an aspect of reality - time accumulation with focus accumulation allows for creation

I commit myself to show that my blogging and writing is a way for me to test ideas, to let certain ideas settle and process, and to bring forth new ideas and to test them practically, to place them into the community and to others who read this and walk their process alongside me as equals and to test bringing forth these points of realization - and with the understanding of the slow hunch, that these ideas can accumulate and accumulate, that over time these ideas can become an entire point of view and a structure by which I can hold myself at my specific location point in the world - an example of this is my slow hunch of the skills I need to learn such as taking responsibility, learning how to learn, learning how business works, how culture works, how organizations work, and as each of these skills accumulate over time, the amalgamating of all these areas is the result of the slow hunch of me realizing my purpose, and as I live this it ripples out into my relationships and my interconnection to my network of the people around me as my location point and thus helping others in their location point as the manifestation of the slow hunch of ME as both individual and the collective

I commit myself to honor the time it takes for reality to change, as the slow hunch doesn't necessarily need to be slow, yet what matters is my starting point in every breath as breath is the real pace of life - its another slow hunch I've had that breath is the pace of life - and to break us out of the brainwashing programming of the standard time of the system like seconds/hours/days etc, where it can be used as a reference point yet its the time of the system and as I can calibrate myself to breath by breath living my fullest potential, this is the slow hunch of me walking the cutting edge of time to be my best and support others to be our best, so ultimately the slow hunch of creating the world to be best for all is able to be manifest here as life on earth - the journey to life

Day 46 - I Actually Want to Change

Note - read the self forgiveness out loud

I have noticed in my journey to life blog and even back 6 years ago when I first learned about this process - there was a tendency to only want to change SOME things in my life

I really truly wanted to change my money situation, my relationships and I wanted to change the state of the world. I saw so many people - myself included - struggling all around and especially in these areas.

YET with this...

There was a deep pattern I wasn't even able to see early on

It was this tendency to not want to fully change.

Because full change requires me to give up my past personalities that I had identified with

I wasn't willing to go fully through the eye of the needle, let it go to see the essence of who I really am

And change comes with resistance and resistance feels uncomfortable

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not be willing to change my life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to want to change certain aspects of my life, but not willing to look at other aspects, and thus actually keep my personality and mind in place because my mind would 'snap back' to the comfortable programming

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that change requires changing my definitions of words - as I was programmed by the system with ineffective definitions of words, I must change my automation definition and thus the resonance of my words/vocabulary/programming to sustain the real creative ability I can have as a human otherwise I will define myself and sentence myself to my old sentences 

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to fully accept this point - that I DO want to genuinely change, and in this necessity to change I am willing to take on every last part of myself

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize there is a momentum to change, where as I start to face the deeper points within, and make progress, that as I do this I can either KEEP the momentum going, or I can allow myself to give in to the little moments, to fall, and then time loop. However - after having done this long enough, I have seen this lesson that... I don't need to time loop and drag myself in the mud. I can just realize the point, breathe and move through it and use the cross-reference of the group for support

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to want the world to change fully, but not be willing to myself be the change fully

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to want OTHERS to change fully, while not being willing to go all the way as myself

I realize that what I want to see in the world, I first have to give this to myself

I realize that AS I have taken on this process of change, there ARE changes I have seen. I have seen my ability to share help awaken others to take more responsibility, to re-educate themselves, to save their marriages, even to have kids. There is so much goodness that has already come from my change, and this is even with my ongoing process of perfecting myself where there is more to go. YET as I see this I also realize how much more phenomenal this will be as 1+1 we ripple out into the world grassroots with more and more people taking on this process

I realize that my old programming actually didn't make me happy or create an outcome that was worthy of life, it was always half-ass

I realize that I have committed myself to be teachable, willing to learn, willing to change, yet in the moments where its most intense I had fallen and then judged myself instead of picking myself up, utilizing self forgiveness, breathing and moving myself and utilizing the power of the community around me to support

I realize that I am WILLING to do absolute self change, willing to let go of my past, and to let the old fall away - letting anything that is not REAL to fall away. THEN in this change, to take full self responsibility and to direct every situation in my life and the consequences that come from it to direct each to what is best for all.

I realize that the absolute change is only valid and really only possible if its done within the context of what is best for all as the living principle, any other change will create a time loop and similar consequence because all the consequence has come from the desire for self interest fundamentally 

I realize there is a pain to change and this is the physical reality of having a body, being and mind and calibrating every last part of me to the principle of what is best for all as my starting point as an individual. So I welcome this and enjoy the process. 

I realize that suffering is not needed in order to learn - YET for many cycles of time this has been the way we have changed, so initially as I walk through the consequence there will be a sense of suffering yet I can educate myself and grow without needing it to be turmoil constantly. rather awareness and self forgiveness and self honesty can be my guide

I realize that others may not be ready to hear this but that is secondary to the fact that I must walk this for myself first and then as I figure this out I can hold the point of living as the example of absolute change

I commit myself to stand as absolute change

I commit myself to investigate my core personalities and programming accepted in the system and be willing to let it go to see what is the truth that remains, that is the integrity of what is best for all as a living principle here embodied within and as me, and as I do this I resonate this to the world

I commit myself to show that any remaining point of weakness I have WILL be tested and will eventually be brought to the surface so I welcome the change, I commit myself to systematically and sustainably walk this journey and to enjoy it because of WHO I AM proving myself to be and who I become

I commit myself to be the change I want to see in the world for myself, for the children to come and for the sake of humanity and our world. What we have been accepting and allowing is unsustainable until now. What I accept and allow is what will determine reality and I start with my self here in each breath

This is the most challenging YET most rewarding way of life and it is worth it.

Day 45 - Homestead Part 2

Continued from yesterday

Note - read the self-forgiveness out loud its 100x more effective

Sunsets from our porch

Random strawberries that started growing 2 years ago

The best part - THE COMMUNITY EVENTS! 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not question our system of land ownership and property rights, thus making myself feel inferior to the entire system while owning a home

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed this system to be a perpetual debt-based system where even when I own property I still need to pay property taxes every year

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to desire to go off-grid and say 'fuck the system' not realizing that even if I could pull that off, I know that its just selfish and it wouldn't be fulfilling because the rest of the world needs me

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold the belief that farming/growing my own food is easy

I forgive myself that i had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the easier path IS convenience, but ultimately because of the way consequence unfolds - convenience becomes harder, while leveling up my responsibility becomes easier - and what better way to explain this to my self then looking at my home environment where I dwell to show me in my face every day - am I accumulating responsibility? or am I accumulating consequence from convenience

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the purpose of where I live is to be an environment that is life giving for myself and for my community - and the more this is honored within myself and within our community, the more stable nodes of the network there are that can represent the change of the system - this is the vision of the bigger goal

I realize that homesteading is wonderful education

I realize that homesteading is a teacher for me to appreciate nature, the seasons and learning to plan ahead

I realize that raising my children within a homestead environment has immense value - like teaching my kids to naturally think in longer time horizons, where if we want food we have to grow it, care for it and it takes years to have an orchard, and months to have a harvest of food yet its WORTH it because its a grounding physical action, both body-food and LIFE-good as the experience of learning this skillset

I realize that the more physical I am the more grounded in reality I am the more me as Life shows up

I commit myself to create the best events on our homestead

I commit myself to support others who desire to homestead to be aware of what it takes as an undertaking

I commit myself to use our property to be my stead - my place that I am responsible for that is my purpose as PART of the overall purpose where I am here to change the world

I commit myself to be proactive with each step where every time I do a chore or take an action, I get ahead on the projects and to not allow any backchat, rather enjoying what is possible when I am here as my breath equal and one my creative power is something I am still seeing I have barely begun to tap, let's see what I'm really made of, and what this place can really be

More on our homesteading lessons learned

Chickens are the gateway drug Substack article

Day 44 - Homestead (Part 1)

 Day 44 - Homestead (Part 1)

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit. 

Yesterday I had a full day. One of those days where every moment I was applying myself from the moment I woke up to the moment my head hit the pillow to fall asleep.

A part of this was we were invited to our neighbors homestead. They do full on production of milk, eggs, gardening, orchards and have a farm store.

Jessica and I have our homestead but its not on this scale, nor is this scale our goal

We focus on the educational component of everything, helping people understand where their food comes from, and how to get grounded in physical reality through helping create a phenomenal place in alignment with nature.

We are not hardcore homesteaders. Yet the appeal is there and its fun to see what we can create. For example my wife makes sourdough bread, we have our neighbors cows on our pasture, next year we plan to have a milking cow to two. We have had ducks, turkeys, chickens. We have 20+ fruit trees and bushes. We are learning how to harvest reishi mushrooms. We have hosted hundreds if not over 1000 people already in the past 4 years. We have the wraparound porch, the view, the whole nice thing that everyone on Instagram wants. And i'll tell you... if it wasn't for this journey to life, of me learning how to change my self for real, and my PURPOSE, all of this would be missing the point.

The reason we have the homestead is to serve as a place that helps bring people together, to learn to be grounded in reality, and to educate the adults but ESPECIALLY the kids in how one can live. 

And with this.. I have had to develop massively.

Its all surrounding this word homestead which is worthy of pulling apart

Home is where you live. That's obvious. 

Stead is less obvious.

So the homestead is the living place that has a PURPOSE.

And with this I have had to let go of a lot of BS programming, let go of all my excuses, and learn how to really take this on to be a life-giving place for myself, my family, for our community and ultimately for the world.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to city-life as a child and in this reaction desire for more space, thus fueling my desire to homestead

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to the pollution within cities, from the trash to the sound and everything that was distracting 'noise' that was separating me from nature, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to love the city life and feel affinity for the high energy lifestyle of living downtown in cities for years

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to where I live and not realize that no matter where I am if I am walking forward with purpose, aligned my life within principle, I can make the most of wherever I live. Where I live isn't the cause, I am the cause, and I can use the power of environment and location to create the best outcomes because I am clear on who I am within it all

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold the positive image of homestead in my mind, believing that magically if I have more space, more land, more animals and plants around me, that my life will be more abundant and that means I will feel happier

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to sustain the abundance and make it life-giving, it requires serious dedication to changing myself, to education, to building community, and taking responsibility

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed msyelf to believe that if I buy chickens and seeds for food that somehow it is like 'free money' and 'free food' not realizing that everything in the homestead requires inputs

I forgive myself that i had not accepted and allowed myself to realize understanding inputs and outputs is essential to homesteading AND to life overall

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize what now seems so obvious... that water and sunlight are two resources that are essential inputs, that when properly assessed can be life-giving and support over-production and without the education required to understand the sufficient amounts (or when these inputs are lacking) just how fragile an ecosystem can be

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that reality is physical, and there is a phenomenal emergent property when one is grounded, equal and one with the physical, yet the whole 'wishing' and 'hoping' strategy does not work, reality and nature do not care your hopes and dreams... reality must be worked with point by point, understood and then one unlocks the abundance that is here

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the value of the difficult and challenges, where something unexpected comes up. 

I realize complaining doesn't help ever

I realize that there are 2 modes of being in homestead life, beast mode or bitch mode. Beast mode works. Bitch mode gets your more consequence accumulation.

I realize that  the more I do the more I realize I can do

I realize that my STEAD is my place of purpose, and the purpose of our homestead is to educate and bring people together, when this is clear and unified within myself, my wife and my kids, our home is thriving

I realize that as I take responsibility for what is here as our land, this helps people appreciate where they are at. - There is a nasty trend where people see the image online of 'moving to florida' or 'traveling the world' and they think its 'easier' to just uproot and leave... meanwhile its the same exact pattern as when someone hops from one relationship to another. They miss out on the depth and trust that is built over time while in agreement. And I commit myself to have our homestead be an example of what it looks like to have roots and commitment on ongoing effort poured into a home and ecosystem and community, because this is something that has a value that is impossible to see anywhere else especially in our fast-paced culture, this is a stand to change what is the accepted norm.

More continued tomorrow