Day 31 - What is Love?

Day 31 - Love

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

We went to a wonderful wedding today in Owatonna, MN. 

It reminded me of my wedding with Jessica, October 8th 2021. We were married in Minneapolis, MN at the top of the IDS Center. It was a massive celebration with all of the people close to us.

Our wedding was themed “making love real” as a celebration of the realization that love = give, and to give/love in a way that honors both you and your partner (and all of Life)

If love is based on an agreement, and the agreement is honored, the love can be sustainable and ever-growing.

If there is no agreement, or the agreement is not honored, then the love can become corrupted from something pure and life-giving into patterns of limitation and consequence

So I enjoyed the wedding this evening it was so well done. It brought me back to appreciate my wedding. I loved my wedding day, it was a way to bring forth the principle of 'Making Love Real'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that honor is essential to love 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to corrupt the word “love” 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define love as 'the way I feel', while in actuality it’s living my decision to truly care for another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I'm not feeling 'love' that my relationship has fallen 'out of love'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build my relationships from the desire to 'feel some type of way', instead of building my relationships within the dedication to create the world to be best for all life. This is the sustainable way to feel good and keep expanding within a relationship because the relationship is in harmony with the wellbeing of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exploit the feeling of love

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to model ineffective patterns of 'love' from my environment, media and the collective culture

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to effectively give love and receive love, I must redefine love in a way that is actually supportive and sustainable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the common sense of the principle of relationships as agreements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the principle of relationships as agreements, out of fear of losing the energy experience of 'love as a feeling'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that basing my relationship on agreements actually feels even better than basing it on feelings because I know it is actually sustainable and life-giving for me, for my partner, and for all life

I realize that love in our world has been limited by our collective and individual definitions of this word

I realize that love is a living word that requires dedication to bring to life

I realize that love requires the ability to effectively change, learn, give and grow

I realize that basing my relationship on agreements allows a level of STRENGTH that is not possible if the relationship is only grounded in feelings

I commit myself to love actually

I commit myself to honor my agreements 

I commit myself to notice all of the ways I can express love as the principles of 'making love real', 'giving as I would like to receive' and overall ways of being an effective co-creator with life

I commit myself to consistently foster the connection in my relationship 

I commit myself to be firm in my principles, yet flexible in my expression

I commit myself to be willing to change and redirect myself and our relationship whenever it's required

I commit myself to utilize my relationship to change the world in the best way

Go make love REAL

Day 30 - Beast Mode

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

"Be the beast, be the best" - OAE or the REMIX for some inspiration..

This means beast mode, living the principle of best for all actually standing, not going bitch mode trying to play the game of trying to be polite and proper

What's best for all is common sense, me living this, not holding back, this is who I am. And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tame myself and suppress this part of myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as me as LIFE I am a beast

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that holding back from beast mode is doing a disservice, being the BEAST to do what's BEST is always here as an option

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a beast is evil and one who must be killed

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the beast is the animalistic nature we have as humans, and can be harnessed within PURPOSE

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my sons are a great example of beast mode, they run around, they express themselves and they know what they want

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going beast mode 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself with made up rules in my head about what is 'polite' and 'proper' not realizing that its about Principle as best for all - and living THIS cutting through the noise this is beast mode

I realize beast mode is always here able to be accessed

I realize the times I live beast mode I am unleashed and always get the best outcome

I commit myself to live beast mode instead of bitch mode

I commit myself to help others unlock beast mode as living the principle of what is best for all life, no bullshit rules or limitations needed, just using best for all as the guide

Day 29 - Euphoria

 Today I was listening to some music and I had a serious flashback of euphoria and of going to festivals.

I was obsessed with chasing the 'high'. 

I used to be that guy who would get front row at the rave and dance like crazy as a way to let out my stress. 

I have also been obsessed with music since I was in first grade and learned how to download music via bearshare and limewire.. 

This obsession with music has been a core part of my programming. 

And I see its limiting and able to be redefined so that music, and the enjoyment of it, can be something HELPFUL for me as life instead of an enslavement trap where I become addicted to trying to feel that 'high' and obsess over the sound. 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to confuse euphoria with a valid experience worthy in itself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the justification of feeling really good as a worthwhile 'end' in itself, instead of as a common sense outflow of living my best life naturally creates a good feeling

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat positive emotions and euphoric experiences like getting a credit card, I get the experience, I max out my feelings and enjoyment, dopamine etc.. and then eventually the bill is due and I feel like shit trying to catch up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my feelings my god

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I place a 'positive emotional experience' as something I value, that this actually hinders my ability to enjoy each moment within breath and stability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that within walking my journey to life, that I can't feel and enjoy positive emotions. Its not true that I can't feel that way. Its just they aren't my driver. They're an outflow

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the euphoric feeling in itself is not detrimental however the moment I hold to it and make it something more than it is, that is where my mind begins to mine my body for energy and create consequence

I realize that music can be supportive as a way to enjoy life, to share a fun experience, yet being within principle within it is what matters

I realize that going to concerts and dancing around trying to be carefree was a way for me to shirk my responsibilities 

I realize that I can make awesome music and enjoy the moment and not make it more than it needs to be

I realize that forgiving both the negative AND the positive allows me as life to unlock a new level of awareness and expression beyond the polarity game

I commit myself to breathe through any extreme emotion whether positive or negative

I commit myself to not participate in thinking that comes from the extreme positive

I commit myself to enjoy the old music I used to listen to and to redefine the lyrics and sounds into a supportive soundtrack of the journey to life

I commit myself to use music as a living expression that can support me to be my best self where I'm not dependent on it, but I can appreciate it and enjoy it

I commit myself to live the word euphoria as the presence of being here enjoying the moment to the fullest

Day 28 - POV (Point of View)

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

Over the past few years this concept of "POV" also known as "Point of View" has emerged in the collective consciousness

What an interesting point to unpack and correct

Because right now the typical POV is 'look out for myself only'

Yet... where does this lead us?

What does our POV look like if we keep only caring about ourselves... 

Will we even have a world worth living in over the next few decades?

What if we change our POV and make it best for all?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the point of view of my ego to run rampant, prioritizing my self-interest over anything else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the gift of having a life, of even having a POV here as a human being, where I had come into this world and corrupted what's here through participating in patterns of neglect, abuse and destruction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every day the collective consciousness is a rampant entity of programs that is evolving into new vocabulary such as POV and other slang, that actually gives us an indicator into what we are all accepting and allowing

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to redefine POV to realizing that I am here as LIFE itself, embodied in one point as my human body/being, yet made up of trillions of cells and interconnected with everything in totality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I am as a being is one who is able to create the BEST out of whatever situation I find myself in

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that all of us have our own point of view, and we can honor our differences yet create common ground as we are all in this together

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that part of the reason certain people or artists are fascinating to me is that they have a unique point of view, and I can learn to work alongside and coordinate each of our points of view, so we can have a collective view of the world and sort out what's going on here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my point of view is dependent on my vocabulary, as my vocabulary is HOW I see the world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is essential for us to create equal vocabulary, equal understanding if we seek to have a common point of view that can actually benefit all of us

I realize that point of view is an inherent part of our reality, where each of us are localized as one individual point YET within the greater context of the whole

I realize our collective and our individual vocabulary will be our imprisonment OR our liberation

I realize that the collective consciousness has words that emerge, and there is value in reflecting on and redefining these words so the words are LIVED in alignment with what is best for all of life

I realize that my point of view has changed as I have been walking my journey to life, and as I continue to speak self forgiveness and share, this supports others points of view to evolve and expand to see all of life able to emerge here

I realize that my point of view was sculpted through the system to trap me in self-interest only, missing the fact that what's best for all is actually best for me as well equal and one

I commit myself to refine my point of view through purifying my words and sounding self forgiveness every day

I commit myself to share my point of view so it may help others expand their point of view to transcend self interest

I commit myself to expand my point of view to incorporate the language of the collective consciousness so each word may be defined and used in a way that supports life

I commit myself to utilize the point of view of others so I can see what they value and support them to realize they can achieve what they want in life provided its in alignment with what is best for all life

Day 27 - Resistance

 

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

Resistance

NOUN

1. the action of opposing something that you disapprove or disagree with: he encountered a general feeling of resistance from many citizensdespite opposition from the newspapers he went ahead
2. any mechanical force that tends to retard or oppose motion
3. a material's opposition to the flow of electric current; measured in ohms

 Resistance is a force we grapple with, especially when attempting to change ourselves

And what we resist tends to persist

I notice resistance manifest internally in many ways

Sometimes its a feeling of lethargy, other times its a feeling of fear, other times its a logical-sounding story of justification I tell myself when its something I realllly resist doing yet I can justify why I should delay on doing the thing

All of it - a limitation I had accepted and allowed...

Thus...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how much resistance has clouded my mind, and hindered my actions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that resistance is a force within, its a blockage energetically and physically of my internal circuitry going haywire as I calibrate myself to a higher level of operation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist living my best life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to resist the principle of doing what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist living self-honesty, to boldly look within in every single breath regardless of what may pop up and what I may find

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear of myself and the fear of loss of my idea of myself, and let this fear accumulate as a resistance pattern to change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the resistance will strengthen when I give in to the resistance

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I do make the decision in the moment to breathe and walk THROUGH the resistance, that I get stronger, my 'action muscles' get stronger instead of atrophying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist things that are outside my pre-programming, and to give IN to this

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to use resistance as a guide, as a clear indicator of where I need to look and what I need to walk through in order to actually liberate myself beyond being a robot obsessed with staying in my comfort zone, abiding by my internal emotional state..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use energy as my motivation, to try and hype myself up so much that I feel the surge of power to overcome resistance, when in fact I am missing the foundational piece of change which is to remove the resistance and will myself to the best decision, trusting the accumulation of my strength of walking forward regardless of circumstance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the resistance 'so big' in my mind that it feels impossible to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in 'mind-tiredness' as a way to give in to resistance as a point of change is evident, and I use the excuse of feeling tired or drained as to not step through, despite the evidence that I have many times felt the tiredness, breathed and taken action anyway and broke THROUGH the point, and actually got back to stability and 'wakefulness' thus proving to myself that the resistance was just an inside job created within my mind to stay in my pre-programmed design

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by giving into resistance, instead of seeing the strength that emerges from my walking forward through resistance, and within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to understand that as I walk through resistance, this has a resonant affect on others and thus my change helps the others around me to change through me living as an example of real change

When I notice myself participate in resistance, I will stop and I will breathe

I will ground myself in my body and see the solution of stepping forward

I will remind myself that I choose the commitment to strengthen myself and show myself what is possible

I realize that the strength I get from walking through resistance is one of the most valuable assets in this human life I can ever have

I realize that resistance can function as a GUIDE of where is actually worthy of my focus, if I resist it, I will FACE it and change the pattern

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that resistance, like in electrical engineering, is a force of blocking the flow, and that is not something I am willing to allow anymore

I realize that what I resist will persist so in the moment I can let it go in a breath and live the commitment to walk through it

I realize that the ability to focus and persevere through the journey even as resistance arises, this ability is what I would like to see in myself and in others and so I walk this as my commitment

I commit myself to show that resistance is merely an inside job in my mind, and my body and being as self expression as LIFE can come through and be me as greatness embodied as a living word in each moment

I commit myself to transcend my pre-programming even when I resist taking the action

I commit myself to strengthen my body-being and mind, as I calibrate myself to live the best life for me and for all

I commit myself to honor my body, to strengthen my body, to use activities like lifting weights, doing physical activity as a way to strengthen my body and thus empower myself to consistently walk through resistance and limitations, not allowing any room for the bullshit thoughts to accumulate rather to stay in the focused flow of creation

I commit myself to prove that I have overcome resistance, even if I resist this commitment I see it makes sense and this is my living commitment

Day 26 - Self Perfection

Perfection is awesome. Imagine you are making a dish of food for your friends. Don't you want to perfect your recipe so it can be the best experience as you share the meal?

Imagine you have a hobby or a skillset you see is truly valuable. Don't you want to perfect your craft/your technique?

So don't you also want to perfect your SELF? 

And don't you intend to become Self-Perfected? Where your application of yourself is EVIDENCED and 100% clear to yourself and others that you HAVE perfected yourself?

Yes it's ongoing, yet standing as the end result. This is the way through.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the word perfection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make perfection an idea instead of a practical living in each moment, living to my fullest potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that perfection is the same as perfectionism

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my mind and imagination are able to conjure up ideas and pictures of what I think reality COULD be, yet if I am not careful with this ability, I end up conjuring up delusions of thinking 'how things should be' instead of seeing practically what is here and what CAN be possible

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that perfection of self implies perfection of the world, meaning to create the best possible conditions always

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize this is a 7+ year journey to life, working through every single program and character within, YET I can prioritize the core points much like the 'domino effect' where I can remove core points that remove many secondary attached programs 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that perfection of my self involves walking through my conscious, my subconscious and my unconscious mind, layer by layer, not letting myself get stuck in the 'surface level' but confronting the deep points at their core through self forgiveness, self commitment and creating myself anew

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that self perfection is the perfection of every word in my vocabulary so that the words are defined and lived in the best for all way

When and as I notice myself participating in imperfection I will stop and I will breathe

I realize that in moments where I fall short, where I don't do the best thing, I have a moment to learn and failure is a way of instruction

I realize that holding my self and my relationships within agreement, including the agreement of self-perfection that this is necessary as we are interconnected and I can't achieve this just 'on my own'

I realize that Self-Perfected is the group to to unite those walking the process of self-perfection

I commit myself to prove to myself I am living the word self-perfect

I commit myself to use my breath and my constant application to show what is possible for a human being to perfect themselves

I commit myself to raise my kids within the principle of self-perfection, helping them develop perfectly, meaning to be their best in each moment, to assess consequence and to direct ourselves in ways that are best for all life

I commit myself to stand in the face of others who react to the word perfect/perfection and to help them redefine the words from a 'mind-based' definition to a 'reality-based' definition

Day 25 - Purifying Our Relationship with Social Media

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

As I have grown up I can still recall the days before cell phones.

I see how this little device has become a mind control weapon

The dopamine spike is insane, the curated algorithms are ridiculous, and if I'm not intentional this phone will fuck me up through my own acceptance and allowance

Social media has become mind control, yet it can be a tool for liberation, ONLY through reprogramming this.... thus... Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the mind control of social media

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the psy op that is my phone in my pocket ever ready for me to interact with, yet I have brought this on myself

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed the brain rot of participating in cheap dopamine hits for a temporary fix, sacrificing my most precious resources - my time, my body, my mind, my focus and ultimately my life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as I use my phone I can stay in breath and thus be the director

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize how blue light and cell phone technology is engineered to trap my brain states into a reward-seeking mode that never gets me the real reward of living here and creating the best life

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to see the CELL phone jail CELL that is an imprisonment of myself by myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the big tech CEOs for engineering these weapons and dishing them out to the world

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I am inferior to big tech and the creations, not realizing that it IS me, I have become the big tech, through acceptance, allowance and accumulation of my focus into this alter-reality of scrolling and consuming

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the transcendence of 'good' and 'bad' as a reaction toward social media, and my judgment of it - that this transcendence is possible through realizing who I am and educating myself into utilizing this tool as part of the infrastructure by which I can build in the real world, to use social media to unite the right people to create systemic change

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can become so effective at speaking and interacting with others, that I can be MORE effective than the algorithms and the phones that hijack our collective attention, and I can support people to be educated to transcend the addiction

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the word gratefulness with my phone, with my social media and with my access to the world, where I am one click away from the entire world, and as I am GREAT FULL I can use everything that's here to direct myself and direct the world in the best way, day after day until the change is here

When and as I notice myself being unintentional with social media, I will stop and I will breathe. I will ground myself in my body and direct myself as a creator

I realize that the mind control only works through my acceptance and allowance

I realize the gift of social media is here as a way for earth to be interconnected

I realize that part of creating the world to be best for all IS utilizing social media, phones and the internet to distribute ideas, to coordinate and create together

I commit myself to use social media as a tool to create the best world possible

I commit myself to take practical steps each day to engineer my efforts and consistent application so that I have the best relationship possible with phones, social media and the internet

I commit myself to show that each day I have sections of time I can allocate, I have 6 hours to sleep, 12 hours to live my purpose intentionally, and another 6 hours to do whatever I see in the moment I would like to do. There is always enough time... Its about intention in each moment and accumulating the best focus

I commit myself to use social media to coordinate those who are here to restore balance harmony peace and equilibrium to the world

I commit myself to create the best posts on social media, interact in the best ways through social media, yet also to be a living example of REAL LIFE and what it means to be a human, to connect 1-1 and in the physical, as this is what life is really all about