Day 45 - Homestead Part 2

Continued from yesterday

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Sunsets from our porch

Random strawberries that started growing 2 years ago

The best part - THE COMMUNITY EVENTS! 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not question our system of land ownership and property rights, thus making myself feel inferior to the entire system while owning a home

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed this system to be a perpetual debt-based system where even when I own property I still need to pay property taxes every year

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to desire to go off-grid and say 'fuck the system' not realizing that even if I could pull that off, I know that its just selfish and it wouldn't be fulfilling because the rest of the world needs me

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold the belief that farming/growing my own food is easy

I forgive myself that i had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the easier path IS convenience, but ultimately because of the way consequence unfolds - convenience becomes harder, while leveling up my responsibility becomes easier - and what better way to explain this to my self then looking at my home environment where I dwell to show me in my face every day - am I accumulating responsibility? or am I accumulating consequence from convenience

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the purpose of where I live is to be an environment that is life giving for myself and for my community - and the more this is honored within myself and within our community, the more stable nodes of the network there are that can represent the change of the system - this is the vision of the bigger goal

I realize that homesteading is wonderful education

I realize that homesteading is a teacher for me to appreciate nature, the seasons and learning to plan ahead

I realize that raising my children within a homestead environment has immense value - like teaching my kids to naturally think in longer time horizons, where if we want food we have to grow it, care for it and it takes years to have an orchard, and months to have a harvest of food yet its WORTH it because its a grounding physical action, both body-food and LIFE-good as the experience of learning this skillset

I realize that the more physical I am the more grounded in reality I am the more me as Life shows up

I commit myself to create the best events on our homestead

I commit myself to support others who desire to homestead to be aware of what it takes as an undertaking

I commit myself to use our property to be my stead - my place that I am responsible for that is my purpose as PART of the overall purpose where I am here to change the world

I commit myself to be proactive with each step where every time I do a chore or take an action, I get ahead on the projects and to not allow any backchat, rather enjoying what is possible when I am here as my breath equal and one my creative power is something I am still seeing I have barely begun to tap, let's see what I'm really made of, and what this place can really be

More on our homesteading lessons learned

Chickens are the gateway drug Substack article

Day 44 - Homestead (Part 1)

 Day 44 - Homestead (Part 1)

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit. 

Yesterday I had a full day. One of those days where every moment I was applying myself from the moment I woke up to the moment my head hit the pillow to fall asleep.

A part of this was we were invited to our neighbors homestead. They do full on production of milk, eggs, gardening, orchards and have a farm store.

Jessica and I have our homestead but its not on this scale, nor is this scale our goal

We focus on the educational component of everything, helping people understand where their food comes from, and how to get grounded in physical reality through helping create a phenomenal place in alignment with nature.

We are not hardcore homesteaders. Yet the appeal is there and its fun to see what we can create. For example my wife makes sourdough bread, we have our neighbors cows on our pasture, next year we plan to have a milking cow to two. We have had ducks, turkeys, chickens. We have 20+ fruit trees and bushes. We are learning how to harvest reishi mushrooms. We have hosted hundreds if not over 1000 people already in the past 4 years. We have the wraparound porch, the view, the whole nice thing that everyone on Instagram wants. And i'll tell you... if it wasn't for this journey to life, of me learning how to change my self for real, and my PURPOSE, all of this would be missing the point.

The reason we have the homestead is to serve as a place that helps bring people together, to learn to be grounded in reality, and to educate the adults but ESPECIALLY the kids in how one can live. 

And with this.. I have had to develop massively.

Its all surrounding this word homestead which is worthy of pulling apart

Home is where you live. That's obvious. 

Stead is less obvious.

So the homestead is the living place that has a PURPOSE.

And with this I have had to let go of a lot of BS programming, let go of all my excuses, and learn how to really take this on to be a life-giving place for myself, my family, for our community and ultimately for the world.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to city-life as a child and in this reaction desire for more space, thus fueling my desire to homestead

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to the pollution within cities, from the trash to the sound and everything that was distracting 'noise' that was separating me from nature, within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to love the city life and feel affinity for the high energy lifestyle of living downtown in cities for years

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to where I live and not realize that no matter where I am if I am walking forward with purpose, aligned my life within principle, I can make the most of wherever I live. Where I live isn't the cause, I am the cause, and I can use the power of environment and location to create the best outcomes because I am clear on who I am within it all

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hold the positive image of homestead in my mind, believing that magically if I have more space, more land, more animals and plants around me, that my life will be more abundant and that means I will feel happier

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to sustain the abundance and make it life-giving, it requires serious dedication to changing myself, to education, to building community, and taking responsibility

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed msyelf to believe that if I buy chickens and seeds for food that somehow it is like 'free money' and 'free food' not realizing that everything in the homestead requires inputs

I forgive myself that i had not accepted and allowed myself to realize understanding inputs and outputs is essential to homesteading AND to life overall

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize what now seems so obvious... that water and sunlight are two resources that are essential inputs, that when properly assessed can be life-giving and support over-production and without the education required to understand the sufficient amounts (or when these inputs are lacking) just how fragile an ecosystem can be

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that reality is physical, and there is a phenomenal emergent property when one is grounded, equal and one with the physical, yet the whole 'wishing' and 'hoping' strategy does not work, reality and nature do not care your hopes and dreams... reality must be worked with point by point, understood and then one unlocks the abundance that is here

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the value of the difficult and challenges, where something unexpected comes up. 

I realize complaining doesn't help ever

I realize that there are 2 modes of being in homestead life, beast mode or bitch mode. Beast mode works. Bitch mode gets your more consequence accumulation.

I realize that  the more I do the more I realize I can do

I realize that my STEAD is my place of purpose, and the purpose of our homestead is to educate and bring people together, when this is clear and unified within myself, my wife and my kids, our home is thriving

I realize that as I take responsibility for what is here as our land, this helps people appreciate where they are at. - There is a nasty trend where people see the image online of 'moving to florida' or 'traveling the world' and they think its 'easier' to just uproot and leave... meanwhile its the same exact pattern as when someone hops from one relationship to another. They miss out on the depth and trust that is built over time while in agreement. And I commit myself to have our homestead be an example of what it looks like to have roots and commitment on ongoing effort poured into a home and ecosystem and community, because this is something that has a value that is impossible to see anywhere else especially in our fast-paced culture, this is a stand to change what is the accepted norm.

More continued tomorrow

Day 43 -Taxes

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Day 43 - Taxes 

Today I paid a big tax bill and I had a moment of regret where I wish it was less yet it showed me how much money I made so I felt conflicted that I was both grateful I made the money and want to make more, yet I also wish I paid less in tax

What a predicament lol 

Anytime I feel about something I know if self forgiveness is needed

Ultimately the tax system and the money system is so broken, we need to reinvent it

And I also know that tax is this big looming word that surrounds our whole world system with so much charged energy to it so let’s dismantle this word and make it best for all

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to paying taxes 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to the IRS

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior to the state 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I will always stay at my current level of understanding of taxes 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that paying my taxes makes me a good boy who will thus be rewarded, meanwhile the whole system is very different than I was taught as a kid

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see the solution is educate myself, understand business and raise my financial IQ so I can be free in the system to then be able to change the system 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to obsess over finding legal dedications for my business, instead of applying practical common sense that yes I can be smart with my money movement, yet ultimately providing value and sharing/growing the business I run is ultimately going to allow for a surplus of money and to be able to use this money for creating lasting change in the world 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to entertain the idea of moving to a new location where there is no tax or less tax 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe the statement that death and taxes are the only thing that’s certain - I am here to change what is certain in reality and it starts with my education and my process of changing who I am, my intelligence, my ability to navigate the system and ultimately do my part to change the system 

I realize that taxes are a part of our system that keep us trapped 

I realize that paying for taxes and believing it just “helps us build the roads” is not seeing the whole picture 

I realize the system is rigged to allow for those who have high financial IQ to stay rich 

I realize the system is rigged for people who are uneducated and money, taxes, and finance to stay stuck 

I commit myself to flip the script and support the average human who genuinely wants to change, to be able to get the vocabulary and understanding, and thus the intelligence to be able to freeze themselves within the system, to thus be part of the change of the system 

I commit myself to wisely use the money that I make, and to not squander it in my tax bill due to laziness or ignorance of how the law works, and within this, I commit myself to apply practical common sense and not become fanatical about minimizing taxes, rather focus on what matters which is creation and building the community that is here to change the world 

I commit myself to be part of the reinvention of the economy and the money system so that way we don’t live life obsessing over minimizing tax, but rather we can reinvent how we see money and see what is possible to value all of life equally, and ensure everyone has a life of dignity and enough resources so their needs are met 

I commit myself to understand how the real financial IQ is implemented, understanding, trusts, self-directed investment accounts, and corporate structure, to allow the maximum money movement to what is best. It’s all vocabulary 

Day 42 - The Little Things

Day 42 - The Little Things 

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

Yesterday I misplaced my keys

And the situation arose where my son pressed some buttons in the car, where I wasn't able to turn off a light until I put the key in

And I looked for these keys for over 15 minutes

I was baffled more than I was frustrated, though in the past I would have been pissed, at myself for misplacing the keys.

I know we only have 1 set of keys for this vehicle as well, and I haven't taken responsibility to get a backup pair.

In the moment of me looking around the house, slightly annoyed, feeling like I am wasting my time.. I made the decision - I will always put the keys in this drawer moving forward.

Its so simple.. but I notice... The LITTLE THINGS ACCUMULATE

Little decisions accumulate

Do I wash my plate and put it in the dishwasher? Or do I leave it out..

Do I pick up the item to put in the trash? Or do I leave it where it is...

Do I place the keys in their spot - or do I leave them in a different room and thus waste 20 minutes of my life going to look for them...

This is a 'little point' that is actually the BIG point

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my whole life is built out of the little things

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to brush off the 'little things' as the fact they are little things, making them seem to be insignificant, yet who I am in relation to everything is definitely significant, so I get the opportunity to redefine my self and honor my self through how I relate to everything from the big to the small

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to place the keys in the drawer, in the moment of making the decision that I will now 'always' place the keys there, to have a slight sense of fear of 'what if I dont remember again' and thus violating my own self trust. This is ineffective

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not trust the fact my mind and body can remember a decision, where now I say - yes I always place the keys here - I can honor this and make it habitual, and if there is a moment where somehow they're left in my pocket, I can learn from this, forgive and then correct, not overthinking it just moving and acting in accordance with my new commitments

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to feel overwhelmed thinking of all the little things I could be more intentional about - and within this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the common sense solution is - just START - this is self direction and it accumulates

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to taking responsibility for the small things out of my past programming that corroded my self trust not realizing that now I am here in present time, aware of my own ability to forgive and learn and grow, so there is nothing to react to-- this is the switch from reaction to creation

I realize that a simple decision can change my entire life

I realize that I will have a place for everything and hold myself practically to these standards

I realize that just as I want others to be held to a standard of being their best and honestly showing up and respecting their life, their fellow human and the property they own, in the same way I want that from others I do want this from myself and I can live this moment by moment

I realize that over time my habits will become engrained and its best for me to have the habit of responsibility with the little things

I commit myself to use my keys as a reference point - as the key to life - which is my understanding of the power of a decision that is lived, and this little point is a representation of the big point - which is me being here able to direct my life and my world which in turn ripples out to directing the whole world in alignment with common sense as the best outcome -- the little things accumulate and this is a profound realization to live and share

I commit myself to in the moment where I notice something is out of place, or I have slipped up on the little things, to make note of it, to breathe and to direct the situation real time - to not delay- as there is so much time in the day I can accomplish everything needed and still have enough time - if I am here and present

I commit myself to mastering my presence and awareness so every last detail of my reality can be sorted out and directed

I commit myself to be trustworthy with the small things so I can be trustworthy with the big things-  like my bigger goals of changing the world - it comes from a firm foundation of being trustworthy with the little things like where I place my keys

Day 41 - Glyphosate

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

My blog is designed to dismantle the world system point by point, as the system is built on words, as is my blog here. So when the words are used effectively, and forgiven, and the commitment statements are honored, this is the blueprint of change of the world system - the thing we all actually deep down desire...

So here is Day 41.

I saw this ad today on my facebook feed

As if money was the most important thing?

Keep food prices down... sure... but at what cost...?

Glyphosate is known to cause health issues... so we cast the burden from our 'wallet' onto our health...

Fuck this

But blame is not the answer, as all are equal and one is what we accept and allow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think short term about my health and wellbeing, prioritizing 'money' and 'feeling less financial pressure' over what is actually best for my body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a fucked up farming system where farmers are incentivized to poison their food in order to make it affordable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lack the education to realize sustainable practices for growing food, minimizing weeds and pests, and being able to SUSTAIN abundant food production for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the agriculture industry is too big to change

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize this is fundamentally an education problem, as the education is required for the system to change, where then farming, agriculture and incentives are an outflow of the system 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see the whole system behind farming, where farmers are incentivized to create cheaper food to compete in our system, yet to the detriment of our health where now glyphosate kills humans from the inside out

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to put my faith in movements like MAHA thinking they will solve the problem, not realizing that it comes to each of us to forgive ourselves, make new choices and fundamentally change the system through how we act, how we spend money and ultimately how we govern ourselves through politics and monetary policy

I realize that the consequences we have avoided looking at WILL come to surface in our life

I realize that the destruction of the environment is unsustainable and we must change the system to align with life itself 

I realize that the desire for me to eat cheap food is me participating in this fucked system

I realize that complaining is not an answer, rather doing my part in changing the system daily is the answer as everyday expression and coordinating with the others aligned with solving the problem at the root level

I commit myself to be an example of sustainable living

I commit myself to use my money wisely and do my best to live without funding these poisonous companies

I commit myself to prove I am equal to the system to change the system

I commit myself to show that I have the ability as one person to help coordinate the group here to change the culture, the education, the politics and ultimately the policy that will allow us to have incentives that allow for the flourishing of all life, for the farmers, to the life in the fields of the growing plants, to the end consumer who eats the product, all can be designed in a way that is best for all life, it just requires education and coordination

Let's change the system so I never have to see a stupid ad like this again in my facebook feed, rather just straight inspiration and expansion through social media and the internet - end the bullshit

Day 40 - The Pain of Change

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

Today I am sick. I call it an upgrade. I hosted a lot this past weekend. Stayed up late. ALL was worth it but I can see i'm going to the next level and my body hurts massively 

I realize that within change there is a certain amount of pain that must be dealt with

I spent YEARS of my life avoiding the pain of change. I would mask with alcohol, weed, music, distractions instead of just feeling it and breathing through it.

As I write this my body is aching, and I have made some very big changes over the past 2 weeks, really challenging myself to let go of certain points I will write about at a future point.

I also see those around me leveling up.

And what's fascinating is that everything is interconnected. 

The 'sickness' and fever is the burning away of the old.

And I've learned to embrace this 'pain' of change. Because I come out the other end stronger and able to take even more responsibility in my life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear the pain of change

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my mind, and I can isolate myself in my mind and ignore my physical reality, my body and what is HERE in my life

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the healing power of self forgiveness as a way to SUPPORT my body through changing and upgrading

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that pain is grounding, and always an indicator of something that is out of alignment

I realize that I can become conscious of the physical programming held in my body

I realize that pain can teach me

I realize that pain comes from manifested consequence from my life and the generation before me, and this takes meticulous effort to correct yet its worth it

I realize there are systems within my body, such as my solar plexus, where old emotions are trapped and I can breathe, forgive and reprogram myself to have my body be a reference point of real change where I can sense the release OR where I am not releasing the pain

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear pain as a child when I would get hurt and want the pain to be over, the sensation of pain wasn't put into context for me (my parents didn't know any better) and so I held myself inferior to pain

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize my pain tolerance is able to increase as I apply myself and live intentionally

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize my responsibility tolerance is able to increase as I apply myself and live intentionally

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed the mainstream brainwashing paradigm of that 'sickness' is just something that happens to you, not realizing that the body and our environment are in constant communication and if I live in alignment with my environment versus neglecting my environment, my body, my state and my overall health will be affected by this relationship

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that a mind calibrated with LIFE is the only mind worth having

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize there is a certain amount of pain that I will go through as I take my process seriously, there will be the release of the old, sometimes through a physical upgrade where rest is required, and other times the pain will be the realization of the turmoil I had been accepting but either way I can be present through it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that AS I am present through the pain I stand to GAIN the lesson that is only possible to come about through self-honest self-reflection, understanding how I got here, and committing to a new way of living

I realize that the mainstream take on health is just based in the mind, thus separation, and mostly bullshit

I realize that the starting point by which I approach the physical attributes of life, such as looking at sickness, pain, real physical change, my understanding of this will be affected by my starting point and will either be biased or accurate

I realize that the alignment of health and thriving is rooted in my programming and the words I am living and the nutrition of my body far more than just accepting what the mainstream narrative currently is

I realize that in order to change, it requires understanding and walking through temporary pain for a lasting eternal gain forged through the walking and accumulation of understanding and living

I commit myself to embrace the pain of change

I commit myself to stay focused on what matters which is the education of myself and the change of my life where I can be more effective and take more responsibility, its not like I NEED pain to change, its just an aspect of where I'm currently at

I commit myself to stop creating unnecessary pain

I commit myself to stop looping and recreating painful experiences

I commit myself to show that pain isn't that painful, and my ability to breathe and direct my life is possible no matter the sensations within me, I can move myself effectively

I commit myself to show that a mind calibrated to LIFE and what is best for all life is the only mind worth having, as I will live that alignment in harmony with my environment and this will support me to have more ease instead of disease

I commit myself to challenge the mainstream paradigm and show what is possible when one lives equal to life instead of in separation as the mind

39 - The Bridge - Conclusion of The Two Pillars of the System

39 - The Bridge - Conclusion of The Two Pillars of the System 

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This blog is the conclusion of the series on the Two Pillars of the System (started on day 33)

The world system is build on relationships and money, and its currently NOT serving us...

So let this blog serve as the blueprint of the dismantling and transformation from the old pillars to the BRIDGE to the new world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the very system that I had allowed, is the same reason why I experienced so much turmoil as a child 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the moment I had had “enough” and decided to change, this same moment for me is the same moment happening for more and more people around the world 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see how my relationships in my life, to myself, to my peers and to the collective - that all of these were a result of a broken foundation where life hadn’t been honored, so the first pillar of the system - relationships - had been a broken pillar by nature - YET I see how I can take the parts of the broken system and rework them into a BRIDGE from where I am here and now and build the bridge to the new world I intend to see

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the second pillar of the system - money - had been built on debt and an unequal value system where life hadn’t been honored YET I can take the pieces of this pillar and as I dismantle it, I can use these parts and build them into the bridge to take me from where I am to the new world I intend to see 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worthy of changing the system 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that a small group of us united, coordinated, standing together, that we aren’t able to be effective enough to build this bridge - in reality though we are able to and it is happening, each of us able to play a role 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to resist being accountable to a group of us all working together, where I had believed this limited my freedom when in actuality the old pillars were the limitation - yet the bridge of the new system is here as the path to real freedom where all work together and unlock a higher level of reality here as life coherence 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity - every day bring forth a point of realization through forgiving the old (dismantling the old pillars), then placing the pieces in a new coordinated pattern - through realization - and then ultimately walking myself across the bridge through my commitment statements and living the commitments, this is the change of the system 

I realize that each day is a gift and I can build a substantial amount each day 

I realize that the more of us working together the more effective we become provided we are genuinely in agreement and operating from the same principles 

I commit myself to be the bridge to the new world 

I commit myself to honor all relationships in my life and ensure they are the best, willing to cut what’s not life giving, and enhance what is life giving 

I commit myself to integrity with money to ensure each dollar I have is allocated wisely, and to educate myself on the financial system and the system as a whole to ensure the flow of money honors life

I commit myself to prove we have taken the old pillars of the system and re-structured the parts worth keeping and  built them into the bridge to the new world so all may experience the benefit equal and one