Day 42 - The Little Things

Day 42 - The Little Things 

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

Yesterday I misplaced my keys

And the situation arose where my son pressed some buttons in the car, where I wasn't able to turn off a light until I put the key in

And I looked for these keys for over 15 minutes

I was baffled more than I was frustrated, though in the past I would have been pissed, at myself for misplacing the keys.

I know we only have 1 set of keys for this vehicle as well, and I haven't taken responsibility to get a backup pair.

In the moment of me looking around the house, slightly annoyed, feeling like I am wasting my time.. I made the decision - I will always put the keys in this drawer moving forward.

Its so simple.. but I notice... The LITTLE THINGS ACCUMULATE

Little decisions accumulate

Do I wash my plate and put it in the dishwasher? Or do I leave it out..

Do I pick up the item to put in the trash? Or do I leave it where it is...

Do I place the keys in their spot - or do I leave them in a different room and thus waste 20 minutes of my life going to look for them...

This is a 'little point' that is actually the BIG point

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my whole life is built out of the little things

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to brush off the 'little things' as the fact they are little things, making them seem to be insignificant, yet who I am in relation to everything is definitely significant, so I get the opportunity to redefine my self and honor my self through how I relate to everything from the big to the small

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to place the keys in the drawer, in the moment of making the decision that I will now 'always' place the keys there, to have a slight sense of fear of 'what if I dont remember again' and thus violating my own self trust. This is ineffective

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not trust the fact my mind and body can remember a decision, where now I say - yes I always place the keys here - I can honor this and make it habitual, and if there is a moment where somehow they're left in my pocket, I can learn from this, forgive and then correct, not overthinking it just moving and acting in accordance with my new commitments

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to feel overwhelmed thinking of all the little things I could be more intentional about - and within this I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the common sense solution is - just START - this is self direction and it accumulates

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to react to taking responsibility for the small things out of my past programming that corroded my self trust not realizing that now I am here in present time, aware of my own ability to forgive and learn and grow, so there is nothing to react to-- this is the switch from reaction to creation

I realize that a simple decision can change my entire life

I realize that I will have a place for everything and hold myself practically to these standards

I realize that just as I want others to be held to a standard of being their best and honestly showing up and respecting their life, their fellow human and the property they own, in the same way I want that from others I do want this from myself and I can live this moment by moment

I realize that over time my habits will become engrained and its best for me to have the habit of responsibility with the little things

I commit myself to use my keys as a reference point - as the key to life - which is my understanding of the power of a decision that is lived, and this little point is a representation of the big point - which is me being here able to direct my life and my world which in turn ripples out to directing the whole world in alignment with common sense as the best outcome -- the little things accumulate and this is a profound realization to live and share

I commit myself to in the moment where I notice something is out of place, or I have slipped up on the little things, to make note of it, to breathe and to direct the situation real time - to not delay- as there is so much time in the day I can accomplish everything needed and still have enough time - if I am here and present

I commit myself to mastering my presence and awareness so every last detail of my reality can be sorted out and directed

I commit myself to be trustworthy with the small things so I can be trustworthy with the big things-  like my bigger goals of changing the world - it comes from a firm foundation of being trustworthy with the little things like where I place my keys

Day 41 - Glyphosate

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My blog is designed to dismantle the world system point by point, as the system is built on words, as is my blog here. So when the words are used effectively, and forgiven, and the commitment statements are honored, this is the blueprint of change of the world system - the thing we all actually deep down desire...

So here is Day 41.

I saw this ad today on my facebook feed

As if money was the most important thing?

Keep food prices down... sure... but at what cost...?

Glyphosate is known to cause health issues... so we cast the burden from our 'wallet' onto our health...

Fuck this

But blame is not the answer, as all are equal and one is what we accept and allow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think short term about my health and wellbeing, prioritizing 'money' and 'feeling less financial pressure' over what is actually best for my body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a fucked up farming system where farmers are incentivized to poison their food in order to make it affordable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lack the education to realize sustainable practices for growing food, minimizing weeds and pests, and being able to SUSTAIN abundant food production for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the agriculture industry is too big to change

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize this is fundamentally an education problem, as the education is required for the system to change, where then farming, agriculture and incentives are an outflow of the system 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see the whole system behind farming, where farmers are incentivized to create cheaper food to compete in our system, yet to the detriment of our health where now glyphosate kills humans from the inside out

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to put my faith in movements like MAHA thinking they will solve the problem, not realizing that it comes to each of us to forgive ourselves, make new choices and fundamentally change the system through how we act, how we spend money and ultimately how we govern ourselves through politics and monetary policy

I realize that the consequences we have avoided looking at WILL come to surface in our life

I realize that the destruction of the environment is unsustainable and we must change the system to align with life itself 

I realize that the desire for me to eat cheap food is me participating in this fucked system

I realize that complaining is not an answer, rather doing my part in changing the system daily is the answer as everyday expression and coordinating with the others aligned with solving the problem at the root level

I commit myself to be an example of sustainable living

I commit myself to use my money wisely and do my best to live without funding these poisonous companies

I commit myself to prove I am equal to the system to change the system

I commit myself to show that I have the ability as one person to help coordinate the group here to change the culture, the education, the politics and ultimately the policy that will allow us to have incentives that allow for the flourishing of all life, for the farmers, to the life in the fields of the growing plants, to the end consumer who eats the product, all can be designed in a way that is best for all life, it just requires education and coordination

Let's change the system so I never have to see a stupid ad like this again in my facebook feed, rather just straight inspiration and expansion through social media and the internet - end the bullshit

Day 40 - The Pain of Change

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Today I am sick. I call it an upgrade. I hosted a lot this past weekend. Stayed up late. ALL was worth it but I can see i'm going to the next level and my body hurts massively 

I realize that within change there is a certain amount of pain that must be dealt with

I spent YEARS of my life avoiding the pain of change. I would mask with alcohol, weed, music, distractions instead of just feeling it and breathing through it.

As I write this my body is aching, and I have made some very big changes over the past 2 weeks, really challenging myself to let go of certain points I will write about at a future point.

I also see those around me leveling up.

And what's fascinating is that everything is interconnected. 

The 'sickness' and fever is the burning away of the old.

And I've learned to embrace this 'pain' of change. Because I come out the other end stronger and able to take even more responsibility in my life

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear the pain of change

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my mind, and I can isolate myself in my mind and ignore my physical reality, my body and what is HERE in my life

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize the healing power of self forgiveness as a way to SUPPORT my body through changing and upgrading

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that pain is grounding, and always an indicator of something that is out of alignment

I realize that I can become conscious of the physical programming held in my body

I realize that pain can teach me

I realize that pain comes from manifested consequence from my life and the generation before me, and this takes meticulous effort to correct yet its worth it

I realize there are systems within my body, such as my solar plexus, where old emotions are trapped and I can breathe, forgive and reprogram myself to have my body be a reference point of real change where I can sense the release OR where I am not releasing the pain

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear pain as a child when I would get hurt and want the pain to be over, the sensation of pain wasn't put into context for me (my parents didn't know any better) and so I held myself inferior to pain

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize my pain tolerance is able to increase as I apply myself and live intentionally

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize my responsibility tolerance is able to increase as I apply myself and live intentionally

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed the mainstream brainwashing paradigm of that 'sickness' is just something that happens to you, not realizing that the body and our environment are in constant communication and if I live in alignment with my environment versus neglecting my environment, my body, my state and my overall health will be affected by this relationship

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to realize that a mind calibrated with LIFE is the only mind worth having

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize there is a certain amount of pain that I will go through as I take my process seriously, there will be the release of the old, sometimes through a physical upgrade where rest is required, and other times the pain will be the realization of the turmoil I had been accepting but either way I can be present through it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that AS I am present through the pain I stand to GAIN the lesson that is only possible to come about through self-honest self-reflection, understanding how I got here, and committing to a new way of living

I realize that the mainstream take on health is just based in the mind, thus separation, and mostly bullshit

I realize that the starting point by which I approach the physical attributes of life, such as looking at sickness, pain, real physical change, my understanding of this will be affected by my starting point and will either be biased or accurate

I realize that the alignment of health and thriving is rooted in my programming and the words I am living and the nutrition of my body far more than just accepting what the mainstream narrative currently is

I realize that in order to change, it requires understanding and walking through temporary pain for a lasting eternal gain forged through the walking and accumulation of understanding and living

I commit myself to embrace the pain of change

I commit myself to stay focused on what matters which is the education of myself and the change of my life where I can be more effective and take more responsibility, its not like I NEED pain to change, its just an aspect of where I'm currently at

I commit myself to stop creating unnecessary pain

I commit myself to stop looping and recreating painful experiences

I commit myself to show that pain isn't that painful, and my ability to breathe and direct my life is possible no matter the sensations within me, I can move myself effectively

I commit myself to show that a mind calibrated to LIFE and what is best for all life is the only mind worth having, as I will live that alignment in harmony with my environment and this will support me to have more ease instead of disease

I commit myself to challenge the mainstream paradigm and show what is possible when one lives equal to life instead of in separation as the mind

39 - The Bridge - Conclusion of The Two Pillars of the System

39 - The Bridge - Conclusion of The Two Pillars of the System 

Note - read these blogs out loud

This blog is the conclusion of the series on the Two Pillars of the System (started on day 33)

The world system is build on relationships and money, and its currently NOT serving us...

So let this blog serve as the blueprint of the dismantling and transformation from the old pillars to the BRIDGE to the new world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the very system that I had allowed, is the same reason why I experienced so much turmoil as a child 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the moment I had had “enough” and decided to change, this same moment for me is the same moment happening for more and more people around the world 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see how my relationships in my life, to myself, to my peers and to the collective - that all of these were a result of a broken foundation where life hadn’t been honored, so the first pillar of the system - relationships - had been a broken pillar by nature - YET I see how I can take the parts of the broken system and rework them into a BRIDGE from where I am here and now and build the bridge to the new world I intend to see

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the second pillar of the system - money - had been built on debt and an unequal value system where life hadn’t been honored YET I can take the pieces of this pillar and as I dismantle it, I can use these parts and build them into the bridge to take me from where I am to the new world I intend to see 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worthy of changing the system 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe that a small group of us united, coordinated, standing together, that we aren’t able to be effective enough to build this bridge - in reality though we are able to and it is happening, each of us able to play a role 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to resist being accountable to a group of us all working together, where I had believed this limited my freedom when in actuality the old pillars were the limitation - yet the bridge of the new system is here as the path to real freedom where all work together and unlock a higher level of reality here as life coherence 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity - every day bring forth a point of realization through forgiving the old (dismantling the old pillars), then placing the pieces in a new coordinated pattern - through realization - and then ultimately walking myself across the bridge through my commitment statements and living the commitments, this is the change of the system 

I realize that each day is a gift and I can build a substantial amount each day 

I realize that the more of us working together the more effective we become provided we are genuinely in agreement and operating from the same principles 

I commit myself to be the bridge to the new world 

I commit myself to honor all relationships in my life and ensure they are the best, willing to cut what’s not life giving, and enhance what is life giving 

I commit myself to integrity with money to ensure each dollar I have is allocated wisely, and to educate myself on the financial system and the system as a whole to ensure the flow of money honors life

I commit myself to prove we have taken the old pillars of the system and re-structured the parts worth keeping and  built them into the bridge to the new world so all may experience the benefit equal and one 

Day 38 - Do You Want to Survive Until You Die - Or Live Until You Leave?

The Two Pillars of the World System (Continued)

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

Do you want to JUST survive until you die?

Only focused on bills

Making sure you got some money set aside

Show up to your job

Be a 'good boy' or 'good girl' who saves up for their retirement

Pays their taxes and their rent payment

And then.....

At the end of it all.....

Dies...?

OR

is there more?

Recently on the Self-Perfected hangout my friend Drake said this quote:

"There are people who die decades before their body does"

So....

There HAS to be a better way

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mind controlled by the system to believe the purpose of my life is to be a cog in the machine

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed to have the image in my mind in full display of me working hard, turning 60 and then retiring on a beach sipping a tropical alcoholic drink thinking this is 'winning'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to retire

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prioritize my survival over all else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to JUSTIFY and even get angry at the very thought of questioning how sacred and important it is that I have my "right' to survive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to consume my body and my life like a tornado sucking up the very physical flesh of my body into the clouds of the storm of my mind - absolutely focused on surviving and paying my bills, working hard so that I can have the relief from the pressure from week to week knowing I can at least have a roof over my head and food on the table

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the common sense of changing the system and creating the world to be the best it can be, REALIZING that I am in a position to do something about it, and STILL sabotage myself to prioritize my own survival over actually just excelling above and beyond and creating a surplus of greatness so that I can actually LIVE and cover SOOO much more than my bare necessities

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to serve the survival programming core to my DNA, not realizing that through forgiveness, realization and correction I can transform the very programmed symbols within me, dismantle them and reform them into a new blueprint to LIVE and use every breath here as I am me to create the legacy of a new world, one where each human can live and thrive instead of compete to survive

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to base my relationships and friendships on the subconscious desire to make sure I have a peer group that will have my back and increase my 'survival quotient'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the energy, emotions and nervous system patterning of reacting to my bank account, worrying about the amounts in there, the credits and debits, and forecasting into the future through the lens of FEAR of survival

I forgive myself that I had not accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I live from a starting point of fear of survival, I am operating from fear of loss, and I am literally thus creating the experience that I don't want, which is losing everything I love and never actually experiencing the potential GAIN of being here alive

I realize that just surviving until I die is not the goal

I realize that I want to LIVE until I LEAVE

I realize that the greatest people I admire were the ones who dedicated their life to a purpose beyond their own survival

I realize that I can recondition my body, mind, nervous system and programming so that I default to LIVING instead of just trying to survive

I realize that fear limits my perspective, while LIVING expands everything

I realize that my influence increases the more I live and accumulate this decision to be HERE as a +1 for life

I commit myself to show that I can LIVE until I leave

I commit myself to build and honor my relationships based on the starting point of LIVING life fully, in honor of changing the system and creating a life of dignity for all

I commit myself to use my money, and live my money agreement, where my utilization of money is in alignment with the statement that I am here to LIVE until I leave

I commit myself to stand as the point of change and inspiration for as many as I can, by challenging the pre-programmed design/brainwashing/mind control of the system that focuses on surviving 'at all costs' instead of living fully-creating the best world possible for all - at all costs

I commit myself to live until I leave

Day 37 - Change Collective Consciousness

Change the Collective Consciousness

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

I was reflecting on the common sense idea that...

If you as a person are like 1 stick, you get snapped.

If you are a 1 stick, but part of an entire bundle, you are invincible. Imagine a bundle of 50 sticks, or 200, good luck trying to snap it its impossible. This is how group dynamics works.

By the word “stand” I mean actually standing up in myself, channeling my limitations, and as my awareness - seeing who I am and who I can be 

I realize that standing up alone is not going to work

The world system / collective consciousness has an inertia to it, and at the current moment it is resistant to change 

So as an individual I have limited influence 

Yet together we have POWER 

Because together we have our own collective “consciousness” it’s really awareness - more about that in a future blog 

 Standing together is what matters 

Because do you HONESTLY THINK the collective consciousness is sustainable? 

Nah

We can change this though 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of standing up in the face of the collective consciousness 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of stepping outside the norm, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ostracized from the collective 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed my awareness to come through, where I already see that the world is fucked up, the collective consciousness is not sustainable, yet as I see this I had not realized we can stand together as the changemakers 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the example from nature, if I have 1 stick, I can easily break it, if I have a bundle, it is impossible to break them. In this same exact principle, this is standing together, and how we can establish the new world and change the collective consciousness 

I realize that the collective consciousness is the sum total of what everyone is allowing 

I realize that as a core group standing up in alignment with life, there is power in this where a small amount can create the butterfly effect - where a small stimulus creates a massive amplification 

I realize that together we are strong 

I realize that changing myself within my awareness allows me to expand my influence 

I commit myself to expand my influence tangibly and verifiably by myself and others 

I commit myself to stand together with the others who are here to bring about the world change we need 

I commit myself to enhance my awareness daily of what I am accepting and allowing 

I commit myself to prove that I am part of the group to change the collective consciousness 

I commit myself to prove that we are strong together and able to take on anything, and change anything, every aspect of the system both of the world and the internal systems within 

Day 36 - Subconscious Coordination

This is a continuation of the Two Pillars of the System series of blogs within the overall journey to life

Note - Each of these blogs can be read individually, or in order. Its suggested to read them out loud, it will have 1000x the benefit.

Today I'm going to unpack and explain coordination and how it benefits us as individuals and as a group

 I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in our world to create effective change it requires coordination, both within myself and all aspects of myself working in harmony, as well as equally on the outside, my relationships with others need to be in harmony

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the default mode of our world system is currently designed for self interest, so anyone in the system willing to play the game of the system, is fighting for their own survival and the system will reward this behavior until it is changed

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there are enough of us operating on a higher principle, the principle of what is best for all, and as we coordinate and especially raise our children with this coordination, this is the birthing of a new world, a new world system that will be able to take what's best from the old system and discard the rest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that an effective relationship requires the principles as agreement and also the ongoing LIVING of these principles, as when these are understood and lived, there is a coordination that happens where even when the two or more are not together and not speaking at the moment, such as going on and living their day in different areas, there is still a subconscious coordination because both parties are actively living the principles, and thus an entire new potential opens up because the principles are upheld and there is a compound effect to each moment directing oneself in alignment with life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that part of coordination requires skill, and the most important skill is the development of willpower so in each moment one can choose what is best

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as the two pillars of the system - relationships and money - both function as a result of subconscious coordination, so as I am here to change the system I must coordinate my relationships AND my money, and how these flow in a daily manner, so that the direction and outflow is that which is BEST and thus new potential emerges

I realize that subconscious coordination is a force in our world and it can either be used to our collective advantage or our collective detriment

I realize that we do not initially need everyone on the same page, we need a group of individuals coordinated and this creates a group coherence that has an effect on others who can then later on join the group

I realize that there is a 'tipping point' in the collective consciousness, where enough people standing up has a resonant effect on the whole

I realize that structural resonance is a physical aspect of our reality, and when I align myself in my own standing, my own integrity all working in harmony, this has a physical effect on those around me and thus the work I do on myself will support others to change as well

I commit myself to share more effectively, more skillfully, so more see the common sense of the purpose of creating a world that is best for all

I commit myself to coordinate and adapt to the group and seeing what collectively AND individually the group needs

I commit myself to show that my inner work, when done effectively, will have an effect on the whole group

I commit myself to share the group because the more people in alignment, the more the network effect works to our advantage 

I commit myself to identify every last point of where I have fallen out of integrity, to lay it out clearly in front of me, and to take the practical steps to rectify my life so I am in integrity and not hiding things from myself

I commit myself to show that one human, subconsciously coordinated within themselves, can have a substantial impact in reality

I commit myself to unite and coordinate those who are here to change the world, to work together and grow our community, raise our kids effectively, consistently meet and support each other, and over time get more and more people to walk their process